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I have been seeing a Counselor for the first time in a couple of years. I spent about six months seeing her a few years back but stopped. We have both come to the conclusion I need a referral to a specialist to look at meds, for panic attacks, PTSD/Anxiety.

 

To be honest I know she is right just not had any good results with meds in the past so it?s making me more anxious.

 

I think where they went wrong is they gave me meds for depression. It?s taken till now for us both to realise its anxiety. I am wearing myself out with exercise to relax but its short lived. I am doing music therapy; I miss my piano as this really helped. She suggested my getting back into singing and my daughter and I are brushing up on guitar, this is also helping, but not enough.

 

I was in a huge Gas Explosion in my 20?s ? my daughter?s illness has caught up with me, I can't shake this fear. We have more tests coming up and I fear it all the time. I am feeling if I don't take these I won't be able to cope. Not sure whats worse my phobia of meds or my daughters results. Meds is a last resort thing for me, as the last time was obviously the wrong one. But which meds will be right for me this time. :tearful::unsure:

 

Fran :(

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So sorry you have this dilemma, hope you can come to some sort of decision, its not easy is it :unsure::unsure: and you seem to have more than most to accept, my advice for what its worth, is, A day at a time, do whatever you think is best to get to the end of the day, and let tomorrow take care of itself! works for me when ds is at his worst :rolleyes: only a short term plan I know, but what ever helps. sending you >:D<<'> >:D<<'> Enid

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Hi,

 

Thanks for your posts, I am in the process to try and figure out what it is. Its been something I have put off for years because both my kids had so many problems I had no time to address my own. Something triggered at my cousins memorial last December and been on a spiral of panic attacks ever since.

 

I even started to wonder if it was AS but I read a really good article about trauma today and I am clear in my mind my anxiety is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I am seeing a specialist for a formal diagnosis, if the PTSD is sorted and I still have problems the AS if it is there underlying may start to surface, this can happen. So I am learning.

 

I have been reading a few thread on here on Anxiety, but they may treat PTSD differently.

 

The most important thing is that I am finally getting the right help. Seeing a counsellor weekly for the past month and ongoing is helping a great deal. As there has been so much to deal with it all got out of hand.

 

Just want to feel like I have balance back in my life. I feel totally detached emotionally from everything at the moment. Like a big fog. iykwim,

 

On a journey of self discovery I guess 'what have I got' :tearful: I don't know. I just know nothing feels right at all. My kids think I have had a mini breakdown, they are reassured I am seeing a counsellor.

 

I think anxiety meds are definitely on the cards and my phobia has turned into a reassurance that this feeling looming is going to come to an end soon. AAAAAAAAAAAgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! :tearful:

 

Its the most awful feeling, and I cant recall ever feeling like this before. I know it isnt depression. Its different.

 

iykwim.

 

Fran :(

 

 

Fran

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I think that there is a risk that taking the medication it masks the underlying issues and in some cases the medication the side effect is anxiety.

 

I would really look at some specialist councilling that can look at treating your PTSD and complientary medicine to help eliviate the Anxiety.

 

There is spersific management courses in Anxiety, and other courses such a Relaxation and breathing methods are very effective to help manage panic attacks, I think there is a lot of medications out there that can take away the anxious feeling but at the same time they can effect your efficiancy to operate as they can leave you a bit spaced out, tired, and not as emotionally effected which may leave you a bit too detatched.

 

Looking into the root causes and dealing them spersifically may be the long road but it may be the most effective giving you a much more effective life.

 

There is a lot of websites that support people to come oFf medications that treat anxiety/PA because they simply cant function without them and over years they have become addicted, the most common been valium and tranquilizers, and now these people are going down the path of complimentary treatment and looking at stratagies to cope with anxiety without medication.

 

The websites that maybe helpful for more information on medication and how to cope with PTSD and Anxiety is NO PANIC.

 

There is other websites similair.

 

JsMum

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Hi,

 

I saw my Specialist today, and I finally got a diagnosis. I was wondering whether I may have Aspergers but she believes it is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. She even remembers the gas explosion I was in, It was quite huge and was on the news, I was on the news. But she truly did remember it. :lol: it was almost 20 years ago.

 

She said my symptoms are very much this. I have been reading a lot about both and she asked me a few simple questions about my memory of the trauma, and I said I could imagine what it was like standing on one of the floors when the plane crashed into the World Trade Centre, the illusion was much the same. I get triggers, that cause it.

 

I remember when Suze posted about the earthquake over there I posted some rediculous song about the Blues Brothers earth shakers or something, thats when I realised I respond oddly to natural disasters or terrorist attacks etc.

 

She has started me on anxiety medication a new one called escitalopram by Lexapro its a better version of Citalopram. Strange, I feel relieved to be taking something. Still having blood tests done, but she was certain it was PTSD, my gut feeling.

 

Well, this was the first appointment. Anyway, fancy her remembering the gas explosion. :unsure: Actually, she is not the first person who says they remember it. :unsure:

 

So, finally doing something about it. It never really affected me until now, I was always on auto pilot, but I guess stressed build up and it crept in, was always there but I blocked it out.

 

The anxiety meds feel really nice, I feel really relaxed. :) Its a nice feeling.

 

Love

 

Fran x

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