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I liked that it was portrayed in a real environment rather than trying to be more abstract. But, having a keen interest in story telling and film making, I find this little clip says so much, so well, in such a short amount of time.

I'm probably not the best person to get started on transport as i have a general interest in transport planning and especially railways and can talk for hours. As well as nationwide railway and transport strategies I know a bit about the "boring" stuff like the names of every Class 50 in order and all the different diesels and why D6337 was the best class 22! As well as that ive downloaded and studied documents such as the 1963 "Reshaping British Railways" drawn up by Dr. Beeching.... So yeah i quite enjoy the subject lol!

No idea who made it but stumbled across it and thought it was very very good.

I seem to consider films that portray Aspergers or autism somewhat confusing. I love stories and I like to write screenplays yet could never attempt to write a story about an ASD purely becuase of how difficult it would be. Why? Becuase to me a good drama is just that with the useual (although generalised) format of the start, middle and end, an end that is climactic and which the story is emotionaly tied up and finnished. Yet how could I write about an ASD when there is never an end to it. How could i interepret my own real life expereinces when a) not only is very confusing for a viewer but bee) there is never real "high drama" and c) there is never an end to it. As regards watching films i dont bother. I was tempted to get Mozart and the Whale but decided not to bother becuase i didnt se much point in watching an actor trying to convey a situation that to me is very real every single day. I would give examples but dont have room in this post. Thanks

Lets not worry about ooo killed ooo etc lol. Anyway the point isnt about whether anyone has evil voices or not in there head its about hearing things being said and then "photocopeing" it becuase you know its what is used for everyday conversation. But when away from the work environment its like a switch being flicked and suddenly i become robotic in conversation with close family and almost mute where communication seems almost pointless.

But is it not true that to have those beliefs you do not actually look upon yourself as evil but thinking right or doing right.

I think we all have an amount of the "dark side" within us and i have as well and can relate to the bad voices but they have reduced over the last few years quite a lot. Mainly due to personal circumstances i imagine. But at what point do cynical voices of anger and distrust become outright evil? Who knows? lol. But I do keep everything within as much as i can becuase, again of personal circumstances and the desire to make my mind my "fortress of solitude".

Very interesting stuff there philipo and thanks. I too have found that when talking to Americans i cant help but automaticly become American myself. It isnt intentional yet if i try to stop it i stumble over my words and just look wierd.

Thanks for that av16, It is a sad fact that something like this is seen by many as offencive. I have had many situations where i know people are a little takenaback by my percieved impersonation of them when its just isnt meant to harm. You also feel its being seen as a very sarcastic sense of humour when it isnt also. I wish so much i could easily communicate with everyone but i guess its just too hard for some people to understand so they just assume im delibratly causing harm.

This is something that i remember reading briefely some time ago about how people with Aspergers will copy or mimic sayings and everyday speech they hear to then say to other people that they meet. So i thought i would share my experiences and say how true this really is in everyday life. Away from work and people i naturally think of my voice in my head as being like documentary commentary and when i write i like to have that essay or nuetral type of view where everything is a documentary. But my work involves working with the public all the time and lots of them are holiday makers that arent from the area that i live and in the seven or so years ive been doing the work i have come to realise and understand more about how i must really "mimic" other peoples dialect rather than actually having my own as such. Like a parrot that although "talks" is actually just repeating the sounds it hears. We all know how ab-lib and casual conversation can be difficult to ASD individuals and its still something i find very very difficult but i find it normal to impersonate the person i talk to the most and becuase of that when i answer work phone calls everyone thinks im the other guy and they all say how much we sound alike on the phone and im sure that that is becuase of my "mimicing" where i will answar the phone the same way, ask the same questions and use the same tone of voice and the same casual speech word for word. When i have to work with people face to face i find that that is the hardest thing of all and i can tell many are thinking and even saying how wierd i am yet what can i say if i am not spoken to directly? Anyway the most interesting thing of all is when people say about my accent. I deal with people with any type of accent and it can be hard but im used to it yet people can never seem to understand where i am from. I have lived all my life in Somerset and have deep routes here with no direct connection with any other part of the country at all. It is very rare for me to travel far and i very rarely have time off yet people have asked about my accent such as is it; American, Irish, Somerset, Northern, Cockney........ I have to admit that at times i cant help but notice a little American in my voice so where does that come from? My answar would be my love of films and dramas or documentaries that just happen to be American which is perfectly normal and although millions of individuals watch these things it is becuase of my Asperger "mimicing" that has kind of inbedded it into me maybe. There is more to this but Im running out of space and dont want to bore people to death but its nice to share it thanks to everyone who takes the time to read this.

I think its important to remember that nothing will change from it. I also think its important to show him support in a "on your feet soldier" kind of way becuase before i have found that that can help when i have been thinking that nothing will be achieved so there is no point. Its essential that you go with him and im sure afterwards he will think that it wasnt as bad as thought it was going to be.

Yeah I enjoy the driving but its the work side of it that can be very very hard at time but driving doesnt bother me. I wish i had the oppertunity to drive other vechiles like lorrys and coaches as i feel comfortable driving big stuff. Quite a few in my family are drivers and i was brought up on trucks/busses/trains etc so its something that is natural to me. So although the work connected to it would be terrible the thought of getting behind the wheel of an early 1980`s DAF 2800 with 38 tonnes on a flatbed trailer is very appealing.

This is of interest to me so i though i would have my say. I diagnosed myself over ten years ago with Aspergers and for the last seven and a half years I have been a Taxi driver. I dont find many difficulties related to driving as much as i do taxi work but i`ll just say about driving. I have driven so much i dont even think about it but there are a few times when my AS kicks in. Like letting a car past and when they wave or i have to i put my hand up so to block thier face so i cant see it as i drive past and avoid any eye contact. Its only minor things like that that effect my driving and it doesnt really bother me and on the whole i do enjoy driving as i have a keen interest with trasnpiort and vehicles.

Hello I thought i would post this here as these are my photo sets I have on FlickR. http://www.flickr.com/photos/51165338@N02/sets/ My name is Hispra becuase of HIgh SPeed RAil of which I always seek to promote and campaign for. Any comments are always welcome and thanks for viewing.