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Thankyou all for your help and advice. I appreciate it Steven x

I have just moved to Clacton, and saw a new Psychiatrist. He talked to me and asked me stuff.. He didn't have alot of info on me so that didn't help much I told him that I get depressed and that I am scared of life and the future. When I came back home I was just confused because I felt that not much had been done.. Apart from him referring me to a local job place. I feel that at the moment I don't feel well enough to work and need more than anything else to have counselling and to meet new people as I feel so alone. A few days later I got a copy of the letter he sent to my GP and it mentioned that he felt that I was stable and not mentally unwell.. Now this has just left me confused because I thought that depression was a mental illness? I sure do not feel right mentally and most days it feels like something is broken upstairs. I feel like I want to kill myself but have never acted on it just self-harmed. The reason I don't swallow pills is because I am frightened of dying. Even though life is horrible.

I had some counselling and talked to my Doctor about my self harming. I started to self harm (cutting) in 2001/2, it started off as little cuts but then they became deeper. I have always twiddled my hair and pulled it, but only recently has become more. School was a long time ago but I would say that I felt alone and confused, bullying probably made me worse. I would say that when I left school in 1999 my depression has become worse, seem to have it everyday, bouts of feeling down and never knowing when I will be happy. I see my Psychiatrist every 2 months and am on Venlaflaxin for depression but been taking it for 6 years now and I still get down and feel like I did when I first took them.

Yes, this has answered alot of questions. I used to be picked on at school and always remember feeling tensed up. Depression probaly was one of the reasons. I have AS, and self harm. Lately have been having bouts of feeling unhappy but havent cut so have got into the habit of pulling my hair out. Having done it I do feel sort of relieved but when I notice what has happened feel bad. I will be discussing this with my doctor when I next see him. Thanks for your help.

Does anyone have trouble with this? When I was young I used to twiddle my hair till it got all tangled and then pulled it out. I ended up with a bald spot. I think I did it because I was stressed out and anxious. I have started to do it again recently and now have a noticeable bald spot on the top of my head

When I was born I had trouble with my bowels. I was diagnosed with having Hersprins (Spelling) Disease. I had trouble with eating and had to have many operations throughout my childhood. Constipation affected me alot. I can remember at school always putting off going to the toilet though I was okay with having a pee. I had to have medicine to help me but the doctors wouldn’t give me laxatives as they said my bowels would become dependent on them. For the past couple of years I have been relatively okay. Touch wood.

Hello, I'm Steven and I'm 27 from Tring in Herts. I was diagnosed with Aspergers in late 2007 and also suffer with bouts of depression and anxiety.