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    Allright mate welcome, i'm 23 (nearly 24 myself) Where abouts you from?
  2. Hi, i know EXACTLY how your feeling to the tee.. i get my times when i feel pretty hopeless, it doesn't help that my social life is pretty bad but i have my writing which keeps me going personally. Just stay strong, people like us have to or we'll crumble. P.s i had very bad depression for around 3 years and i'm better now. If you wanna talk anytime let me know
  3. Hello to you! Wow breed animals? That's super... that's something i've wanted to do forever literally... what dogs do you breed? And 6 dogs is alot but cool, dogs are cats are my passion. And sometimes just listening to music is enough, without it i'd be lost i know that. Nice to meet you
  4. Nice pretty varied taste then...and on the subject of pink floyd a nice guy who lives in my grandads accomodation kindly gave me some pink floyd and other bands dvd's today which i thought was an awesome thing for him to do..he was severely brain damaged after an attack and he touched me today, i saw good in human beings and got some good music at the same time.. gonna listen tomorrow never really listened to them before..
  5. Hello again, i have alot of respect for social workers to be honest, they're the people who try to make a difference so i have alot of respect for them. And yeah 75 % of everybody that i've spoken to so far is either into music or art or something closely linked to the 2. Fair play if you can make anything you love a success and keep going with it! I plan to do the same with my hobby and would love to make something from it too.. i actually feel more interested now in maybe speaking about aspergers or trying to help others because it would make me feel like a better person and i'm actually helping people and know what they go through and vice versa, so i'm deffo gonna consider something like that. And yeh anything that's not music i give up easier than anything so music is deffo where i want to be no doubt about that, i did actually study music in college and did sound engineering and i was getting 90 % on my written coursework, unfortunately i fell behind on the production side and didn't finish it.. right now can't see a course that will really benefit me as yet though as i like the writing side and most courses are to do with music production even though this could be a good idea who knows..
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    Hi again, yeh i can see where your coming from about tryna get that quiet space for you to meditate again, and yeh i get alot of random mixed up thoughts pretty often, don't know if you can class them as voices but it's pretty much the same thing really. Wow having a hairdryer blow up in a meditation would have freaked me out too, but you know you only have to meditate in small bursts too like 10 or 15 mins and that works well enough for me, so try to do small amounts if you don't have much quiet time I've never made contact in real life with anyone who has aspergers, even though now i'd love to meet people similair, almost desperately so now, to know there are others who actually feel like me and can base friendship on a mutual understanding. Yeh i know what you mean about the loud and quiet thing, me personally deep down i'm a bubbly person with a big personality but i find that's hidden most of the time, it comes out very rarely but i can smile and enjoy things, just don't seem to happen often enough. And the identity thing is exactly how i feel, i feel like i wasted years of my life not knowing at all who i was, but now i feel i know myself more then i ever did before, i still have identity issues though and think i always will, but all i know is i'm a deasent human being and that's enough for me
  7. Hi again, i've never looked on the nas site to tell you the truth, just had a little look and looks good, i'll look more into it a little later on. You could be right but with an NT girl there is always something lacking, i can't explain but it just doesn't feel right. I never actually told any of my past girlfriends i even had aspergers i just put it down to depression because i was a bit ashamed at the time. Funnily enough after my diagnosis i wasn;t even aware of my problems at all for a few years until up to 18, i had some bad experiences and i think i became more conscious of me as a whole and i haven't been quite the same since. I had a fair few relationships from ages 13-18 but haven't since, probably because i'm ultra defensive and have very little trust in the average person. But i would like to find a girl with the same issues because i think 2 people can fight better than 1, and if both going through the same can help and push each other, thats why i'd like to look for a girl who sees the world like i do now, i don't know you could be right but i'll never know until i experience it (if i ever do)
  8. Hello, nice to meet you. Yeh to tell you the truth without my writing i would be so lost, it's a great release to get it down on paper, even better when you can make a half deasent song or poem with how you feel too. I guess music is my obsession How have you found life since your diagnosis?
  9. Goldenben

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    Hi all i can say to you is you must keep going! I know how you feel so i can relate, but learn to accept who you are, i must admit i could never come to terms with my diagnosis and i didn't want to believe it but now i accept it and try to push on, that's something you must do too. I suggest maybe trying some relaxation techniques like meditation or something to try and relax if your stressed at the moment, it helps me no bounds even though it takes a while to get going with it because i have so many thoughts going on at the same time, but after i feel refreshed. Light exercise is also good like jogging and makes me feel worlds better, i only do like a mile or two a day too at the most and feel great afterwards. These are just 2 of the things i do when things get on top of me anyway. Be strong for your family and don't give up, if your feeling low try to change your way of thinking like telling yourself you feel good in your mind and eventually you'll start feeling better. I'm no expert on trying to give advice at all, just thought i'd try to share a few things, Ben
  10. Hi, just wondered how many people here were from Birmingham? I'm looking to make friendships with other people with aspergers, to this day i haven't ever met another single person in the flesh with aspergers or, and it would be nice...i also want to look for a relationship but only with a girl with aspergers or autism, i've given up on having relationships with NT girls.. give me a shout if your from birmingham, cheers Ben
  11. Hi again, i've got a dog and a cat, both adoreable. Yeh i don't like country music much either.. the only rap i like is tupac
  12. Again nice to meet you charlotte Didn't realise you did a seperate post, Ben
  13. Hi charlotte, thanks for the reply and nice to meet you! Fair play to you with doing your post graduate course! To be honest university doesn't really appeal to me, i can never stay concentrated on doing something for too long, funnily enough music is the only thing i've ever stuck with in life so i am considering studying music if i can find the right course in the future to try and get a diploma doing what i love. Nice interests too, mine are pretty similiar. What music are you into? And you got any pets? I must admit i'm not much a reader of books as i'm always writing and reading my own stuff
  14. My favourite bands are breaking benjamin, three days grace, seether, shadows fall, bullet for my valentine, kalmah, slipknot, stone sour, band of horses, the fray, biffy clyro.. the list goes on.. but main passions right now are rock music as a whole mainly alternative rock and heavy metal/melodic death metal. I'm a lyricist/songwriter.. i can play keyboard well and can sing in the metal style (not really singing i guess
  15. I'm new here, looking for friends and soulmate maybe.. who knows?

  16. Hello, i'm new here, I'm ben and from Birmingham. I have mild aspergers and was diagnosed at 13. Before i was diagnosed my behaviour was pretty bad so i guess being here now at 23 i can see a big improvement to before but i still have my very rough days. I'm an incredibly honest, kind and loyal person, i just can't explain though, sometimes i feel like i'm just not here and i'm just looking to try and fill in those pieces to live as normal a life as possible. I'm looking for a new job at the moment which i hope i can hold down for the long term. I actually used to have a fairly deasent circle of friends but i had a severe bout of depression when i was 18 which lasted a few years on and off and lost most of my social life ever since.. now and then i'll make one friend, or maybe a small group, but i always lose touch usually. I live quite an isolated life, and have done since i was around 18 but i'm an up and coming lyric writer and i did well in the uk songwriting contest and this is my salvation every day and gave me some confidence in something for the first time in my life, it gets me through feeling alone, because i write about it now instead of keeping it inside. I've also found alot of people with aspergers who write or are into arts in general, so in this way i feel blessed. Anyway i didn't wanna go on too much, didn't really know the best way to introduce myself but i'm absolutely looking for friendships with people who can understand where i'm coming from and a possible relationship if i can find the right person.
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