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It doesn't seem fair I'm not sure what you can do about it. Maybe a letter from your employer saying you were at work at the time? It doesn't seem a good idea for the management to do that because if no one is getting their deposit back regardless of if they were involved, then no one has the incentive to look after the rest of the place and it will just make the situation worse.

Still no call I wish people wouldn't say they would do something and then not do it. I should be used to it now, especially with doctors but it still frustrates me every time. I'm trying to write a letter to him to make sure he's not forgotten me.

I have intolerances to wheat, dairy and lots of chemicals make me ill, especially colourings. I had some biscuits today and am now feeling awful. I know it's not worth it, don't know why I still eat them sometimes!

I went to see a doctor on Tuesday about being referred to see someone about a possible diagnosis. The doctor seemed to take me seriously and said he would phone me by the end of the week and leave a message about what the plan of action would be (I can't cope with talking on phones). He said he didn't know exactly who to refer me to or what the process was and that he needed to look into it. I've far more respect for a doctor who admits they don't know something rather than try and fob me off with the wrong thing so I'm glad he wants to put thought into it. He didn't phone me though. I spent all of Friday expecting my phone to ring and it didn't, making me more and more anxious. I know doctors are very busy and the NHS has limited resources but I do wish he had phoned. I need to know what is going on and where I stand. Not knowing is the worst!

Have you thought about trying her on Zylkene? It's what the vets gave Arty when they thought he was stressed last year. You can get online much cheaper than the vets and the capsules open so you can just sprinkle the powder on food. Glad your face is feeling a bit better

I used to have a huge problem with alcahol as it would be the only way I could go out and talk to people. I never saw it as a problem at the time but looking back I was drinking far more than is healthy and far too often. It was the only way I could cope. I've not had a drop in 5 years now and am never going to drink again.

Ouch! Hope you heal quickly! Do you think it could be the weather? Arty and Pixie were both in very strange moods yesterday, tearing around the house and squabbling with each other. The wind has calmed down now and they're back to normal.

I have tried counselling in the past but the woman kept trying to interpret my body language and telling me how I felt and it wasn't how I felt so I just kept getting angry and stopped going. When I talked to my doctor on Tuesday about getting a diagnosis I did say that even if I don't get diagnosed I still need help and someone to talk to. I respect what you say about my parents and I have thought about it in the past, especialy with my father. We've never been able to communicate properly. The only thing is that he gets on well with my brother and sister and if I say anything about him to them they don't believe me. Neither of them can understand why I've ever had a problem with him. I made the mistake of trying to talk to him about it and he told me to shut up. We are quite similar which is why I think we clash. I think my mother will support me with assessment though as she did try desperately to get me help as a child and says that she wants to understand me. She would have continued trying to get a diagnosis for me when a doctor mentioned Aspergers but my dad wouldn't let her. It might also stop her getting so frustrated with me for not hugging her. Thank you for all your replies, I appreciate it. I had really paranoid dreams last night that there was a thread about how everyone should avoid me because I'm bad so it's nice to come back to helpful messages. I don't feel able to talk to people in my life about this apart from my partner is who is very understanding. I'm scared of being judged.

I think I will ask my mum, she isn't shy about telling people about how strange I am and what a problem child I was. My dad refuses to even talk about it. I'm hoping that if I get a diagnosis then my parents will stop being critical and actually try and understand me rather than battle with me. I'm fed up with being told I was a '###### awful child' all the time and about how I need to grow up and live in the real world. This is my world.

Thank you for the nice comments about my drawing. I've starting using it as a coping technique. At uni I find it really difficult in seminars and lectures and in the past have chewed at my fingers and nails so much that they bled awfuly. Then I'd be in lots of pain and couldn't focus properly because of that. It was a real vicious circle. Now I put all the anxiety into doodling. It doesn't help me take in the information in the lecture though! I'm so greaful that they all get put up online so I can go through them on my own. http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4014/5167132492_7ddc148705.jpg I'm finding writing my blog really helpful. It's putting so many things in perspective, like today, writing about my previous jobs and why they all failed. I'm thinking I might print some of it out for when I go and see someone about this as I can't articulate what I mean face to face. I'm still waiting to hear from the doctor who I saw on Tuesday, he said he'd phone by the end of the week.

There are so of my pictures on Flickr here

Thank you for the welcomes. I've contacted the NAS and they've sent me email addresses of some people to contact in my area who might be able to offer help. I'm so glad I can do these things via email. The place I was referred to a long time ago wanted to do contact via phones and I just can't do it. I don't answer my phone to anyone but my mum. The avatar is some of my artwork. I find drawing really theraputic. I can get lost in it for hours. I'm obsessed with cats so they get drawn the most

Hey Tally Lovely pics, nice to see a familiar face! (Starpoi)

I've just started the process of getting a diagnosis so it's good to read this and know what to expect. I hope you get the answers you need.

Hi I've just joined although I've felt that I've had Aspergers since a doctor mentioned it 5 years ago and I did a lot of reading and it all made sense. Recently I've decided to go through the diagnosis process in the hope of getting some answers. I'm keeping a blog of my experiences to share it with other adult women who are going through the same thing. http://www.aspergirl.co.uk/