Fried_frog

Hello all forum-goers. I've been with my partner for 7 months now, and due to both being students in terrible financial circumstances, we have been living together for four of those months. The stress has been getting to me, and i have realised that i suppress a lot of behaviours that i would normally do when stressed and alone (sensory stimulation). However, this can't go on and i NEED to do these things otherwise i feel like i am going to explode. I twitch very violently and 'tic' verbally as normal (which i didn't realise i did until i came to university and it was mentioned by everyone upon first meeting them....i guess that my friends at school knew me for so long they just didn't mention it) but i am worried. I don't want my partner to be scared of these behaviours that i have been covering up, which will inevitably start showing seeing as we spend 99% of our time together. When i say covering up, i mean leaving the room to do them or leaving the flat altogether. How can i go about it without driving someone away? I need to spend a lot of time by myself and can't. If i can't spend time alone, i am extremely stressed. I don't know what to do, and any advice would be appreciated.

Maurice, i understand what you have described. My friends often mention that i am very 'cold' when describing something emotional. I don't really understand what is it to feel emotional. I understand happy, sad, angry, but thats about it! Also, i find it difficult to tell when i have offended someone(often). A friend who read my diary once commented on the fact that i only write about what has happened, not how i feel about what has happened.

I don't know, but i'd like to come! If newbies are allowed.

I have always wanted to learn German, but the quality of the foreign language lessons at my school was very poor, and i wanted to take History instead. It's never too late though!

I despise using the phone to call anyone or receive calls. Family and friends included. I would much rather text or email rather than have to work out a conversation which is often stilted on my end. I haven't really worked out this problem yet, and without a diagnosis, my parents just say i am lazy. Whenever it rings, no matter who it is, i feel very sick with dread about having to pick it up. Often i will deliberately miss calls so i can text back instead.

Guzzi, I feel the same as you about a lot of the things you have mentioned. I'm immediately 100% angry if someone uses or touches a new thing that i have bought first. Or if someone touches my computer screen to point at something, i feel like screaming. I don't understand a lot of social nuances either, i never assume anything (things have to be said explicitly)and i don't know what is appropriate to tell people, which can sometimes make my partner very angry with me! These things don't make you stupid. Don't let anyone tell you so. Have you talked to your GP or local ASD charity about this? My GP tried to tell me off with 'OCD', so i went to the ASD charity here and i am awaiting on an appointment with their staff. All the best, Kat

At the moment i'm learning British Sign Language and German. I've only just started the German however, and am still on the 'the boy is eating some rice' stage.

Hello everyone! Just found this website and i hope i will find some understanding and make some new friends here. I'm Fried_frog, and i am waiting on an adult ASD diagnosis through a local charity. I've just started the process and am aware of how long this may take. Anyway, just posting to say hello!