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  • Birthday 08/07/1988

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    Working towards Sustainable civilisation; Optimum Population Trust. Sustainability; Environmental Conservation; Therevada Buddhism; Green living; Mental Health; Popular Science; rugby; motorsport; any music (seriously!); comedy; women
  1. Hi everyone, I'd like to reintroduce myself briefly. I used the forum last year, posted less than a handful of posts and know that I made a slight bad showing of myself. I was very much struggling with depression and confusion. So please can you all disregard my previous postings. I'm a young guy, 23, fit and healthy, intelligent, high to very high functioning..... I live in Hampshire, by myself, I currently don't work.... I can go on but will just get to my main objective, which is that I want to meet up with fellow HFA-ers. I'd be very grateful to anyone who'll help me with this, and would like to chat with me. Yours hopefully, Joe
  2. Hi Mandapanda, Thank you very much for your post, I am now going to reduce the amount of personal info I have here, so thank you. It's a shame I have to though, and I've always felt I'd rather risk someone taking advantage of the details I disclose, so that it's easier for people to know things about me which may result in them taking interest. Thank you for your compliment as well. Cheers!
  3. ^^^Lizj did my post (below) mean anything for you or anyone here? I hope you didn't ignore my request that you look at that site. It's very good.
  4. Thanks WillR73, thinking more about my loss. I've barely thought about my Dad since his passing. I think I actually, predominantly think that I don't need to mourn, that's it's unhelpful, problematic, and makes one feel very bad, (as nature intends so we look after those in our family as we are social, family group and societal animals). So I guess I felt/feel painful mourning to be unnecessary and that's probably the main reason I don't think about my father that much whatsoever, as that will make me said and mournful. Actually I really should think about my Dad and deal with the sadness and mournfullness of doing so. I would be very abnormal if i barely ever thought about him for the next 60 years of my life. Although I've always found it hard to remember good memories and things, so perhaps thinking about my Dad will bring up sadness and little good feelings. My problem with this could actually be due to the mental health illness I think I've been developing all my life, WHICH I'M MOST CERTAINLY RECOVERING FROM NOW. THAT MAY SOUND INSANE. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE ANYONE PROPERLY FOLLOW MY LAST STATEMENT. TRUST ME, ONE CAN ACTUALLY RECOVER PROPERLY INTO A PERFECTLY PERFORMING PERSON, FROM THE MENTAL, NEUROLOGICAL AND NEUROCHEMICAL RUT, CAGE, CAVE, CONSCIOUS COMA, ADDLED STATE, THAT IS A CLINICAL MENTAL ILLNESS. I've spent over 1 year in acute mental health units these last 6 years, been on 13+ drugs (excluding PRN), had chats about my mentally suffering self to probably over 200 mental health professionals, amounting to probably 100+ hours of time, hours of psychological service provider time, 7 different psychiatrists, many proposed diagnosis etc.... Read so much that is groundbreaking.......Met hundreds of in/out-patients.
  5. Hi, I have HF Apserger's. My dad died a couple years ago, and I haven't needed to properly mourn, it's been fine relative to how others (everyone) seems to deal with the loss a parent. Everyone felt I was dealing (I wasn't diagnosed with HFA or proposed as having it back then) with it abnormally wrong, and my CPN felt I needed to have bereavement counselling. I haven't suffered that much due to my Dad's death I've just got on with it. No one ever gets over the death of a loved one, they can only just deal with it, and carry on with their lives. Everyone who has lost a loved one can truthfully say this and nothing to the contrary. F#ck I'm getting really sad, I must go. Good luck
  6. Hi, I have HF asperger's, and have researched the commonalties of all Apsies. Does your son read much. If too much TV is a problem I would suggest that as Aspies are compelled and find it satisfying to maintain a large general or encyclopaedic knowledge, that you really encourage him too read as an alternative low stress, indoor, sendentary activity. Please, please, please look at all of this awesome site http://www.yourlittleprofessor.com/ and recommend it to everyone Good luck and cheers!
  7. Hope you all had a great time!
  8. ^^^Yes you're exactly right Oxgirl. I also think what I'm quoting below is very significant ^^^Wikipedia is pretty good for all things medical.
  9. Hi everyone, does anybody have any thoughts whether the boundary between having Higher-functiong Asperger's syndrome and not, can be a very blurred boundary. I'm starting to believe that many people, for instance relatives of those with HFA, can only be inconclusively diagnosed for HFA. What do you all think? Maybe this inconclusive situation is very widespread, and there are many people just on the negative side of a HFA diagnosis.
  10. ^^^Thanx guys. It's funny people/organisations are actually now trying to rein in the use of acronyms, the US military for one, which has hundreds and hundreds of acronyms. Here are a couple signature sayings I'm going to trial. "Must try harder!" "Work hard. Play hard." "There's an infinite number of ways to think and look at anything"
  11. Thank you so very much to you all^^^. Your posts are certainly more than I expected in a very good way. RainbowsButterflies, thank you. I think your idea of having your own room, which is specifically your territory, is a brilliant especially for a Mum with young kids who has Asperger's, and I think in general for any Adult with Asperger's. I also think what you said here below is absolutely brilliant in many ways. [quote I'm currently training to be a teacher and with some of the egos of the staff. I am even more determined to get past their discrimination of myself and the ASD/ADHD kids in school and try to make life better for kids with PDDs. In the very long term I would love to be involved in schools for kids with ASDs and associated conditions set up and run by adults with ASDs either personally or in their families who really understand all the implications. But that's a long way off yet! You should be commended for persevering and for your ambition to help ASD/AHD kids where you are now, and special schools with these kids. You will be an enormous asset, you will be able to do an excellent job at this, you have more potential capability for helping these kids, than any Neuro-typical person does. I could go on about this. Please can you tell us all about your experience with this, I think it's very relevant, very interesting to us, and very significant for society as a whole. Hi Smiley1590, thanx for your post. It sounds like we are relatively very similar. I've only just discovered what Dyspraxia means, and I think I may very well have it, thanx for reminding me about this, while I'm typing right now. I'd really like to chat with and hear more about you and your life, I'm sure we can relate in many many ways, and find talking really quite stimulating. I'm getting nervous stupidly right now, as I'm addressing a young girl my age, who I probably will find particularly appealing. Sorry for that piece of info, maybe people can relate to that. Hi Baddad, thank you for your post. I will do exactly what you say asap, I don't think I would've realised anytime soon that doing what you siad with my local CAMHS is a brilliant idea, so thank you very much. I'm sorry I don't know what the two acronyms you used in the middle of your post mean, and I also don't know what Smiley1590 xklx means. I've been briefly reading just now about Internet acronyms,http://www.gaarde.org/acronyms/?lookup=A but havent learnt much at all. Baddad I'm sorry if I had more time now I would look into those sites you linked, thank you very much of course though. Hi Kazzen161, thank you! I will look at Surrey's NAS branch website. This makes me think I should also look at the Hart and Rushmoor NAS branch website. I hope to hear from you all or others soon, and I should write more now to get a better chance of this, but I need to go. I don't manage my time very well, which many of you can probably identify with. I will be posting most of my whole saga with services on here and hopefully much about what may interest people here about what I learn about my HFA self, and my interactions with society. Thanks a million and take care everyone. All the best!!!!
  12. Hello everyone who reads this. I am pretty much new to the whole ASD universe; I'm pretty much new to this site; very recently positively diagnosed with HFA; I overall have very little knowledge about the ASD universe in our society; I have not conversed with anyone really in the know about ASD support. Firstly I should say I'd love to make friends, network, become aquainted with, chat with, help, and be helped by anyone using this forum. My name is Joe, I'm 22 and a half yrs old, I live in the lovely little town of Petersfield in mid East-Hampshire GU32. I would love to spend time chatting and posting things on this forum. I'd love to actually one-day soon meet-up with anyone who has Asperger's syndrome, with the aim of having rewarding and mutually beneficial relations. I'd especially like to become acquainted with any young (I mean up to late 30s)person who uses this site. Above all I really want to meet Girls, I think I have good prospects and people who share my immediate interests, one being sustainability. Please check my profile anyone, my facebook profile link is in there, and loads about me and my interests. I've found out tonight that in my immediate locality there is the Petersfield Area Autistic Society (no website), East Hampshire NAS branch (no web presence), Alton NAS branch (I've become a Facebook group member), Portsmouth NAS branch, South Hampshire NAS branch and the NAS Hampshire Autistic Society. I've become aware of what these people provide in the way of events for adults with ASDs, I need to contact them though. But I also need to ask if anyone can help me in finding out about social events of any type with adults with ASDs in Hampshire, West Sussex and Surrey. NAS branches mostly seem to cater for carers and little for adults with ASDs who want to physically meet others in whatever way. Below is some background about me. I live alone in a Housing Association flat, I have a very short C.V. (curriculum vitae). I have only two friends I consistently see regularly, I have an STR (support time recovery) worker and a CPN, I have a brilliant medically minded Mum, and see many nice and generally supportive people. My Christian friend, who doesn't believe I have HFA, is the only person I find I have real disagreeable situations with. I've developed a High functioning appearance, but suffer with a neurotic type mental affliction (depressive low neurochemistry type thing), Generalised Anxiety, and generally low activity. I am however most definitely recovering from the mental affliction I've been going through, which has been acute for the last 7 years. The recovery I'm experiencing cannot be put down to anything whatsoever, apart from neuroscience. I am treatment resistant, I'm resistant to the potential therapeutic and curative benefit of psychiatric medication. I'm single unfortunately, smoke very diet roll-up cigarettes, am 12 stone, can eat extremely healthily ie. sprouted legumes, sprouted seeds alflafa, blue gree algae, non-acidifying fruit, seeds, nettle tea and many others, miso, supplements, quinoa, millet, oats, avocado etc.................................. I go to a social drop-in group for people with mental health problems in my town, I play badminton at the Mind Badminton group in Havant (south of Petersfield). I see a variety of people briefly and each person with a very low frequency. I'm actually far more interesting than I'm portaying. Sorry, the above is a bit tedius and trivial/ boring. So again "really I would love to spend time chatting and posting things on this forum. I'd love to actually one-day soon meet-up with anyone who has Asperger's syndrome, with the aim of having really rewarding and mutually beneficial relations. I'd especially like to become acquainted with any young (I mean up to late 30s)person who uses this site. Above all I really want to meet Girls, I think I have good prospects. Please check my profile anyone, my facebook profile link is in there, and loads about me." Thanx for making it to the end here and thank you in advance to anyone considering replying to me.
  13. Part 3 My background in the following 3 paragraphs, slightly tedious but relevant. More thoughts on everything are to come. I've always had social anxiety from an early age, I had no good friends in my early years of schooling, I was deemed intelligent and did well at schoolwork and had highly above average general knowledge, from an early age. I was averse to my domineering, dominating, demonstrative older brother (by 2 years). I was a mummy's boy, I had little interaction with my dad (he might've had HFA). I definitely had a below average level of wellbeing relative for my age, from an early age, which seemed to get worse and I guess did through my life. I wasn't sporty but was fit and athletic enough to do okay at sports. My hand-eye co-ordination has alwys been bad though. Things carried on much the same in Junior school. Secondary school with the 1000 kids and 50 staff and big site was difficult from day one. Things again carried on the same until my brother shared a spliff with me when I was 13, I then progressed over that year to eventually smoking a spliff or 2 a day on average (low grade hash/low grade cannabis). I then tried to be cool, I often had a serious face, and my forehead would ache from this, partly as I didn't wear my glasses a lot, because I was worried about my appearance etc... Over the years i'd made many friends none of them good and moved from one group to another, and had spoken to 90% of my school years pupils at least a couple times many much more than that. I only enjoyed cannabis for the first few months, and then I acted aversely on it, it would shut me up, make some weird anxious state, slight paranoia, relatively ever so slight dopiness in the classroom. I've never enjoyed one bit ever since, but continued to smoke it hen with friends as that's what they did, and focused on, not sports, booze, harder drugs, etc... I then started to suffer properly, continued to get above averqage grades, still called very intelligent by many people, and had a great general knowledge. Sorry I'll be briefer. I felt like I was more an adult than a kid who could enjoy himself. I didn't follow the trends and talk about the things all my peers and age group did. I became depressed, became anxious and mentally inhibitted in my dads and brothers company. I dropped out of college, I was very anxious and mentally inhibited there so after a couple months I dropped out, and disappeared from the social radar. I stayed in my for 90% of the days for 3 weeks, I then saw gp then psychiatrist at 16, he diagnosed me with non-organic psychosis, he didn't notice my anxiety or anything else (ahhhh!). Put on anitpsychotic, made me feel weird so stopped takin it, then admitted to mental hospital, voluntary on PICU (for some reason) for a week, I asked them to leave. Watched TV and pottered about for a year, bmx (I was always bad at it, and fear the pain) and some friends. Then ran away to local buddhist monastery suicidal, they let me stay for 3 nights, took to buddhism very briefly wanted to become a monk. Felt better for couple days then same old. Tried college and OU 3 more times dropped out of all. Pushed my mum and raised fist at her partner, which they saw as psychotic aggressive behaviour so, stayed with people and saw psychiatrist, antipsychotics, then I came on to my half sister (incestual), then a couple days later I went into hospital, upped the drug dose, 5 months, then council flat. Then college, dropped out, then hosptial, still no generalised anxiety diagnosis or anything other htan depression or psychosis being mentioned. 5 months in hospital 7 different drugs, then rehab/share home, then everyone was concluding i didn't have psychosis. put me on lithum. By the way i never discerned any beneficial effect from any of the 14 medication drugs I've been on. And I lost weight whilst being plied with drugs, very rare, as I was focused on eating extremely healthy, they thought sign of possible OCD. Got fit as lived by gym and swimming pool, not big and muscly. Then was finally just on escitalipram (the most effective SSRI anitdepressant), then Generalised anxiety disorder, and Pregabalin (new epilepsy drug for GAD). Then struggled all year, regressing mental faculties getting worse, fatter, pressure sores, smoking, takeaways, reclusivity, strong irrational negativity towards mum. Then referral happened.I've always been negative about things and people, this progressively became worse. I was irrationally very frustrated and became critical of my mum, the only person I ever put any dependence on in a way. A couple months on the night if my mum telling me about how she was thinking about splitting with her partner, I suddenly started to feel and get better, after years of being suicidal, hating myself, frustration at my mum, reclusivity, doing barely anything, It seem I was recovery progressively, and slowly every day. And have been since then, I feel the improvements happening progressively all the time. So now I just take 20mg of Fluoxetine both my choice everyday, still have a way to go before socialising more, doing family more, volunteering, exercising, DIY etc... The link yourprofessor.com/teens has a list of problems aspie teens suffer with and i suffered with all of them, the sexuality one from an early age, never stalking type behaviour really though.
  14. Part 2 The doctor who assessed me seemed profficient to me, and I know I have a good experience of deailing with service providers. She made us drinks straight away and didn't go immediately straight down to business. She then asked me and my Mum questions about me: my very early speech development, mobility development, dexterity development, did I have any good friends in Infant School, how did i find infant school, how was/is my handwriting, ability to understand when people were/are upset, not acting really inappropiately to people relative to their emotional state (something like that), my toys, so wot type of toys did I play with, did I arrange/display my toys, how much I read, do i notice sounds or smells that other people don't or before they do, do I manage to look after myself and my home. What activities do I do at the moment, do i have any good friends at the moment, do I have many good friends, do I do rituals, do I feel compelled to do ritualistic type behaviour. She asked and we spoke about a fair bit more which I add in the future. Me and my Mum often diverged from just giving direct answers to her questions, and we elaborated and spoke many different things to those that she was asking about. She didn't stop us and continued to make notes. I feel I mistakenly said things and ommitted many important things retrospectively after my recent thorough research of HFA, and the same for my Mum. The assessment was a catalyst to us finding out/learning/and figuring how HFA fitted in and helped explain things. So we learnt very little really about HFA from the clinical psychologist, so the assessments are all about getting a very conclusive report and negative or positive diagnosis, to be used by care and support service providers. So if you're about to go to an assessment I think you should starting reading up on your suspected condition. For me I firstly searched for the dictionary definition of Aspergers and Higher Functioning aspergers on google, which agve me a webpage with definitions from a medical encyclopedia, a few different types of dictionary, and a few source type defintions. I then just googled Aspergers and HFA and found out loads. Here's a couple links http://www.yourlittleprofessor.com/teen.html http://www.aspergerssyndrome.net/aspergers%20syndrome.htm[/b]
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