Charlie C

Good look Special talent, I think you'll be perfect for the job.

Would it be better if I was kept in the dark or should I look and read them?

I attend a NHS learning disability day centre three days a week and I'm not being horrible but I'm one of the cleverest there so don't really fit and havent made many friends in eight months. The people there are more severe then me and I've requested if I can attend the same day centre the people I live with (supported living) go but its £26 a day and social service won't pay saying the NHS one is free and social services panel won't accept it. I found out that that the care team I'm under havent been giving me my doctors letters because they say it'll rise my anxieties so I've been kept in the dark about my diagnoses, I've formally requested every bit of information the day centre hold on me, eg, risk assessments, doctors letters, running records.... and finally after two months I'm going to get them tomorrow and I'm really nervous what they've wrote about me and having second thoughts about then them. I don't think I'll cope very well with the information.

Special talent, did you have to attend a medical?

Hopefully you won't have to attended a ESA face to face medical and be placed into the support group straight away, I think this will be the case with the evidence you have.

I think its normal to want reassurance from loved onces, I'm especially like that with my sister you know because I don't really fit in so I'm always judging myself and thinking I have conducted myself in the right way, said the right things, I overanalyse things all the time.

I've lived in some pretty rough places and found them more tolerant and accepting then the more up marker towns I've lived in. I think appearances can be deceiving. I once lived next door to a drug dealer named Spike and apart from looking intimidating and rough around the edges he was the nicest person around, especially as a neighbour being considerate. I've lived next door to a nursery nurse and she was the foulest person to live next too, it just shows you really.

I hate it when people say 'act you age not your shoe size', Really grates on me that does.

I always get the embarrassing cringes the day after the night before and I've done some stupid things to warrant it.

They might not change your current diagnoses just add the bipolar to them, thats what they did to me. I thought they'll get rid of my borderline personality disorder and replace it with the bipolar but now I'm diagnosed with both.

Thats also quite common with bipolar or hypomania, Last time I was manic I ended up spending £650 on itune cards.

Obviously your a really intelligent person trekster and have clear goals on what you expect from your social worker so maybe they feel uncomfortable with that because they're normally used to people more quite and subdued?

Being honest the best thing for me was being sectioned as it sorted the things that were whirling around my head out. Its not as scary as its portrayed in films although I didn't go to a mainstream psychiatric hospital I found it worthwhile.

It was hard because we had loads of good times and found memories together and I miss those times but we couldn't carry on the way we were going. He's my best friend and I'm feeling a loss at the moment but its for the best that I keep away from him, I think I miss the excitement we had togather.

I ended up seeing my friend today and sadly he's back on the drink so it looks like our friendship is over. Thank you both for the advice.

I'm known this person since I was 13 because basically we were both social outcasts at school and formed a very strong friendship between ourselves, we have been nearly inseparable since then apart from some transitional stage after leaving sixth form, we both lost touched for a while until I received a phone call from a police officer asking if my friend could stop at mine because otherwise he was going to be remanded to jail because he was homeless, I said yes he could until he went to court and got it sorted. Being honest I was happy for the company. We had a ###### good time while he was on bail drinking, recreational smoking, eg, He was very respectful and considerate towards me and my house and I enjoyed him around, we had a good time together. I went to court with him and surprising he got sent down for three months for assault. I missed him so when he got released I was happy to let him stop on my couch again. The drinking started again and this is when things spiraled out of control. Things got bad with the drinking, we would fight, make friends again, fight, things escalated to the point were we are both stealing crates of beer, getting drunk, fighting, causing a nuisance to my neighbours shouting at each other on my lawn, I was in a council house so I was at rick of losing my house. At this point I was in serious trouble with the shoplifting I was looking at going to jail, we both were. He got sent down while I got a alcohol treatment order, I was lucky. I need some advice....... He's back out of prison now and I've meet up with him today, I've stopped the drinking, moved house and am settled in a new supported living house. He face-booked me and we met up and we still have that spark together, He starting talking about having a drink together again when we both have some money and I stupidly agreed and I feel bad now, I really want to drink with him but can I control it this time, I don't think so. Do you think this is now a toxic friendship or can we save it? I could give him a ultimatum and say if you carry on drinking we can't be friends, but I'm scared of losing our friendship, but now I have so much to lose.,.... sorry for waffling.

LancsLad, Thank you....

Why? Abused as a child, Abused as a teenager, recovering as an adult. Scared for life.

I'm negative, pessimistic, distrusting of strangers. Yeah! I don't know.

Being in care from a young age I never felt loved, just a cash cow for foster parents.

Exactly, I'm going to read everything I can on the condition because I want to learn more about it. I'm pleased they diagnosed me with Bipolar as I always felt uncomfortable with the BPD label.

Confirmed by nurse that I do have bipolar affective disorder, she said they thought it wasn't in my best interests to tell me. Thanks a bunch!!! so here is my list of diagnosis. mild learning disabilities bipolar affective disorder borderline personality disorder autistic features ADHD? Do you think they'll thin those out a little now? The nurse said doctors don't go back and change other doctors diagnosis, is this true... God I sould like I some be in a nursing home with all those.

I thought the meds where for BPD

Went to my person centred review Tuesday afternoon at the day centre I sometimes attend, relatively boring stuff. But went back today to do some things like what you like and don't like so the staff there can get to know me better, eg The staff nurse had my file out and was telling me what about each page, when it come to diagnosis it said I have Bipolar affective disorder. Unconventional way to find out because I new nothing of this and quite a shock. I rang my community nurse up and apparently she didn't know anything about it but this was a proper doctors letter i read. I don't understand why they've not told me this information as I think its pretty important to know, what reasons do they have of hiding it?

Are you under the Vulnerable adults team?