Hi Sam, glad you found us!!!!
Dont worry about being gutted and grieving etc now you have it written down in black and white!!! It aint you going mad or being odd - its a normal reaction!!!
Dont know where you live but I co-ordinate a support group for the Wokingham area for parents of kids with As etc please feel free to email etc if you need any help that isnt on the forum - probably very unlikely but sometimes a voice is nice!!!
BTW you dont have to be mad to be here but it helps - try working out the batman and robin thread!!! lol