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  1. Ha! I love that show. I haven't seen it in a while, though, ever since it went off the air. Thanks for the replies, guys. I'm going to read some more, although I haven't come across anything new... except maybe for lack of physical coordination. One thing they mentioned was terrible handwriting-- I'm 17, and I write like a 4 year old. I reckon that my teachers need translators to make sense of my assignments-- it's that bad! It's disheartening, because, really, I'm a damn good writer. I write for our school newspaper, and I also write short stories and poetry. I just have to type everything! Kathryn, thanks for the link. Do you have any more? --pat
  2. But I'm extremely reluctant to self-diagnose. Or, at least, to come to a diagnosis without the imput of others who know more about AS than I do. I've suspected it for a while, ever since I came across a site the described the symptoms-- some of them are spot on. It was so creepy to read things that describe me so perfectly, because it's hard for me to convey what the hell is going on in my head. I just assumed everyone else functioned the same way, but apparently not. The aspects of AS that seem to describe me so well are the social interaction parts-- I cannot decipher nonverbal clues (I'll 'guess' what someone is feeling, and I'm usually wrong), and I take what people say literally. I was on wikipedia, and there was an anecdote about a girl picking up a phone. The person on the other line asked if someone was there. She knew he was in the house, but he wasn't in the room, so she said 'no' and hung up. I've done that. I've done similar things. People will say something sarcastic, or tell a joke, and I'll respond seriously and wonder why they're getting upset. Also, I must concentrate very hard on what people are saying. If I don't, it becomes a string of sound-- I can repeat it perfectly, and I know I recognize the words, but I can't make the connection that it's speech. This will happen even if I'm in the middle of a conversation, and have been listening for quite a while. Repeating the phrase doesn't do any good, so people get frustrated when they have to repeat things over and over again and it doesn't seem to stick. I also have this odd habit... before I speak, I must mentally 'edit' a sentence. I have to construct it (visually) before I can say it. People say I end up sounding like I'm reciting lines from a play... Another thing is what I always felt was 'living in an alien culture'. I have no idea how to act, at all. It's little things, too, that people seem to do subconsciously that I have to overtly manipulate in order to 'fit in'. Or, how my face should look when people tell me a story-- how to convey emotions and which expressions are appropriate. Still, though, some aspects of AS don't fit me at all. I had some really intense interests as a kid, but not any more. I'll have fleeting interests that seem to envelop all my time, but they'll disappear almost as quickly as they come. I like routine, but breaking it doesn't cause me any severe anxiety. My speech isn't overly formal or poetic, something I've read is common for people with AS. My relationships aren't 'age-level inappropriate'. These seem to be big parts of AS, so I've been led to believe that I'm just a really, really, awkward person who happens to have a lot in common with those with AS. I know none of you know me, but I wanted to know if this sounds like it could be AS. If you think it could be, what do I do? Do I see a doctor, read some more, or keep doing what I've been doing? I function relatively well-- I've learn to 'cover up' a lot of my peculiarities, and it doesn't inhibit me in any major way. It does make me feel isolated... and I'm pretty inept in social situations. Anyway, yeah. Um... discuss? Also, thanks for reading this.
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