A-S warrior

im have alot of confidence in pepole with aspegers being good at something they enjoy doing that i feel i can go out on a limb and hazard a gues, and i feel thats a universal trate with a-s suffers. im sure i,ll be contradicted by someone in the next post but thats my therory on it.

ah! but you do rob! maybe not acidemicly (can you tell from my spelling neither am i) but ive heard on the grapevine your an awsome photographer ;-P

by the way whats this sailsbery hill and kilmanjaro stuff all about on the top of our avatars? and can you edit it?

uh oh! i forgot again, oops!

@ darkshire, well, well, well, yeah lol. im many things but perfect im am not. basicly my faith in god has helped go along way into helping with it. it will always be there though, its part and parcel of who i am. i still have tendencys like washing out my glass 7 times, doing things in 3,s and never walking over drains. i smashed a mirror once and nearly had a breakdown.

pepole thanking me out of context, forinstance, when ive been turned down for a job i really wanted and it feels like my heart just hit my lower intestine, they say thankyou for your interest in our company, im like dont f*ing thank me!!!! you just destroyed me and now your thanking me!!!! go and play in the traffic you snidey little ass licker! honestly! talk about sticking the knife in a wound and rubbing lemon juice on it!

meltdown hmmm, back in 1999 i saw some kid with a massive nosebleed, it was like he had his head cut off it was that bad, all i rember was feeling like i was falling asleep and i was seeing flashing lights and everything went dark, i rember waking up and thinking i was late for a maths lesson, i was still coming too i diddnt really know where i was and i heard a familuar voice talking it was the assistant head teacher carrying me out of a packed assembley hall i thought i was in trouble and i was going to get told off, it wasnt until i was in the medical room that i realised where i was and what had happend, the same thing happened a week later, and i had many tests done at hospital i was diagnosed with a right sided abnormality in my brain, it caused panic attacks, extreme outburts of physical violence and epileptic fits. i also have a-s (obviously) so im wondering if these melt downs are linked with these abnormalitys and aspergers. and if its comomon place with a-s sufferers to have right sided abnormalitys, slightly off topic but it saved me starting a new thread.

lol that reminds me of when i used to play all the training montage scenes from rocky 4 everyday before i did anything else. also when drago beats down apolo and theres all that chaos going on and all drago says is, if he dies, he dies. im getting pumped up just thinking about it. also the opening to rocky 3 had the same effect. i always sided with the bad guys.

insecurity effects us all, when im feeling insecure i usually draw into my family for support, or talk to a good friend. we all need that much needed reasurance sometimes.

when im listening to a song i like or watching a film i like, i repeat an song or scene multiple times because it pumps me up and gets me motivated, with some songs i can play a verse several times literaly the same line in a song and i keep reapeating it, its like i cant get enough, like a particular song or movie scene isnt long enough to satisfy me. i once played the same song 29 times in a row! i dont know if its because i have an addiction for motivation or im just mad.

nothing sad about that lad! trains are awsome pieces of machinary. not the modern day southern trains though there so depressing, bring back the slam doors i say!

again someone direct me to the like buttton lol

lol why dont we have a like button on here? that would deserve a thumbs up

i,ll try, its just i can get very frusrated when im trying to help pepole to be a bit more positive and i feel like im being called a liar. my faith is begining to teach me to even embrace pepole that dont like me. im slowly getting there. but can be hard sometimes espeshilly when i cant hear pepoles tone of voice. i defo suffer from forum rage, i get so fired up i guess you could call me passionate and full of energy.

its always the way on forums out of 10 pepole theres always 5 pepole that agree with me, 4 pepole that respectfully debate my posts (i like those pepole the most) and 1 person that just doenst like me. and that 1 person will hijack all my threads and try to wind me up, and try to make me look stupid. im not going to complain and ask why tally doesnt like me and moan about it. im just going to keep on my task in hand. and help pepole as much as i can. tally if you want to stay negative and live your life weighed down by limitations then my topics arnt for you. with a name like A-S warrior you should know what your getting yourself into.

see guys it was right the first time, its almost like i have to qualify in tallys eyes, i cant have ocd or aspergers because my ideas and theroys are false. these are my opinions and views, i wouldnt dare contridict anybodys opinion on here because we all have a-s and there all valid. if you dont like my posts then dont read them, simple solution, pepole are intelligent enough to take pieces of info i give out and try it out if they want to, diddnt say its a one size fits all soultion. different dimentions of aspergers have different awnsers, and i said it to you before if i only help 1 person on here cope better than all my effort was worth it. i wouldnt normally awnser back a moderator but your being unfair and i wont be pushed around by someone who obiously has taken a dislike to my comments.

lol i recieved so many infractions on the last forum i was on its almost unbeliveable. moderators couldnt keep up with my posts, i had them edited almost everytime had at least 2 threads deleted 1 was locked and all becaue i misunderstood pepole lol when i get my teeth into someone i dont let go. im hoping i can stay cool on here because i think i have alot to offer and i also have alot to learn.

good post, i too am very precice with nutrtion, im a bodybuilder so my ratios have to be inch perfect i also train alone in a dark dungeon creating a monster (lol) i think in some ways alot of my logic was portraied in your post, again a-s sufferers prefer there own company and that eliminates distraction, to allow us to have the avantage, am i right?

that could be my aspergers showing through lol! i misunderstand internet posts frequently and get upset.

good stuff rob, glad ive helped at least 1 person lol. ive seen a few of your posts and enjoy them, and i wouldnt mind seeing some of your photos :-)

you dont like me or my posts, there you go i spoke for you.

this is indeed true, as i said in my personal experience when theres somthing i cant settle in my own mind i turn to my faith. now the last thing i would do is try to plug my faith that is just something that works for me to calm my ocd. i know that some of my positive thinking can run away with me and i sometimes need to think with a bit more disapline. from my experience when my ocd was bad for me the best solution (i nearly said cure) was education (at least for the exsessive hand washing) as for the security checks i used to do making sure oven was off, alarm clock was still set at 7am etc etc i got to a point where i said look i only have to check once! and only once! its not going to change! i had to be quite stern with myself almost to the point my own mind was shouting at me, and as tempting as it was to check again i had to say no! if your ocd is a comfort and doesnt cause probelms then thats fine, but if it becomes mental tourture then try some of the tactics ive tryed (dont worry about religon you dont have to go there) failing that try doing reaserch from a number of sources to find out how pepole have coped, it seems your ocd has improved over time as you say, so thats already a step in the right direction good luck :-)

this is almost a discimer, i just poted on another topic exactly what it i im getting at, pepole with aspergers genuinly crave routine, this is one of the abilitys im talking about. not many pepole can stand up to the same routine day in day out, many just get bored and sticking to a routine means we journey deeper into our tasks and learn more about them, hence becomming the best. you havent got to be a celebrity, or a super hero or a concorde piolt that some of you seem to think. its just utilising whatever your mannerisums are and using them to be the best at something, so over to you, its my time for me to prove myself to you all and see how deep my logic goes, tell me, and we,re going the other way now, tell me what daily habits you have, things you consider disabilitys, things that make life hard for you etc. i,ll see if i can show you how to use these thing to your advantage. and achive your potential, (rember even if your just a guy stacking shelves thats enough!)

in regards to your obsession with routines, thats a classic aspergers trate, and one of the advantages i bang on about. the reason is not many pepole can stand up to the same task day in day out without getting bored, we can! plus asprerger sufferers also follow a routine like clockwork and begin to start doing things by instinct (this is how we become the best at something and perhaps i should be more specific with my logic) and one of the hardest things is coping when our rouitnes are disturbed, and as you say you go into a semi meltdown and then recover in a few moments and then work around them, this is also is very good the fact you can work around them to me means the ability to adapt. and you say at the end you dont adapt to change well and have a certain way of doing things, well that brings me to a saying i use quite often, if it aint broke dont try to fix it, espeshilly if what your doing is a good thing, too many pepole always try to change and tinker with things when theres no cause, a non a-s suffer just cant resist screwing up a good plan. with your photograpy this is a perfect example of what ive been talking about the last few days, using aspergers as an ability, (im only asuming you have a-s as your on an a-s forum) you dont have to be a celebrity or a super hero, just being the best in your field even if that is working behind a till, this all comes down to love for routine, (witch in turn helps us journey much deeper into our tasks) yes your fidgeting with the camera constantly changing focus etc instead of sitting back and relaxing could be ocd but to me again that shows another ability, a non a-s sufferer would just sit back and read a paper, but no you wont be satisfied until you get the best posible shot this is not an obssesion to me, to me its a sign of putting in maximum effort to get the best results. and im going to hazard a gues that your photos are better than most right? lastly worring again could be obssession, its usually just a side effect of a-s or as i like to see it, worrying to me is thinking to yourself have i done this properly to the best i can do? and if im worrying about things out of my control theres nothing i can do about it so thats that! worrying is like finding a soulotion to a problem and panicing over it, best thing to do is say whats the worst that could happen? then visualise the worst case senario and immagine how you would cope with that situation. i worry about getting run over by a bus worst case senario is i die, if im dead i have nothing to worry about!