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Red_Eye

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  1. Hi, So after seeing my GP a few months ago i now have my assessment in a few days and was wondering what to expect Pretty nervous about it Thanks
  2. Thanks, it went ok. I just told him and he said ok i'll send you to see someone. No questions or anything, was only in there about 3-4 minutes. Now i just gotta wait for a appointment to see a "specialist"
  3. I have a doctor's appointment later today, So i will see what they say.
  4. Really ? Thank's for reading and replying
  5. Hi, after watching a documentary on Autism i have been wondering if i have had it all along and it has gone under the radar. I would go to the doctors but even that's a big task for me, So i thought i would come here first. I apologize for the long story but i was just sitting making notes and trying to think of things and i know i have probably missed a few things and i have rambled on a bit but i would love to hear what people with any types of autism think. I am a 26 year old male who has always had problems ever since I was a kid. Growing up parents friends teachers etc always just said I was really shy and timid. In primary school I was pretty normal except for being really shy and quiet and kept myself to myself. I can remember I had a bit of a speech problem and couldn’t pronounce certain words and letters like when I would say THE it would come out as FHE and I had to go and see someone about it. I also remember always being told off by my mum for not making eye contact with people and being rude. When I went into high school we started having problems at home, my dad was a alcoholic and that started to affect me. I started to become obsessed with the way I looked and the way people saw me. I have always hated speaking aloud in front of people and would always try and get out of it, for example in English class when we were reading a book and the teacher would make people read aloud I would always make a excuse and sometimes not even turn up for class. Then I started to get a stutter and my voice broke and became very deep and bland and had no emotion to it, just the same tone. Then I started to get paranoid about going out and would think people are watching me and looking at me and that made me miss a lot of school and in the end I didn’t turn up for my GCSE’s because the thought of being in a huge room with little tables and loads of people freaked me out. People used to say I was like the incredible hulk, I was really nice and quiet but then if something made me angry I would switch and go crazy. I have always had really bad obsessions with things way over the top, In primary school it was Power Rangers and I can remember when I found out their song had not got to number 1 in the charts I cried like a baby. In high school it changed to music and I would never go anywhere without my walkman, I felt like it kept me safe and 1 day in science class I pulled it out and quietly sat there listening to it when the teacher came over and pulled the headphones out my ears and I switched and went crazy stood up swearing picked the table up and threw it and then walked out of school. After a few scenes like that the head teacher called my parents in and suggested I had counselling and at the time people put it down to me being a angry person and the situation at home made me like it. I remember also ever since I was a kid I have made up my own words and saying’s and would and still do sometimes speak in a funny voice or tone without thinking they just come out. 1 of them was macaroni and cheese, which I have never liked eaten or anything but for some reason I always used to say it in a sentence. I also have had problems with my eyes for as long as I can remember. After high school I became a bit of a recluse and just sat in my room on my computer which was the only thing that made me happy. I have been in and out of work since then and it always ends with me walking out or not turning up. People have always said I have no expression on my face and show no emotion and just have a blank face and really find it hard to smile. I also tend to talk to myself all the time and my mind is always working and thinking and going over things which gives me headaches and makes me tired. People have also said I am rude because I don’t talk much and only give 1 word answers. I also like to have a routine and plan everything out in my mind before I do it and usually whenever I speak I have already said and planned what I am saying in my head before I say it aloud and tend to use the same words and language all the time. I have also noticed I am quite immature and don’t act my age and haven’t really grown up and still rely on my mother who I live with and when I have to do something I don’t like I still act like a child and sulk like I used to do. I have a very strange imagination. I have always noticed things and see things and pick up on things others don’t, I feel like I can read somebody from just looking at their face and body language and that I am right. If I don’t understand something I don’t believe it. When I am stuck in a situation and have to talk sometimes I say things I shouldn’t and people have said I make them laugh sometimes because of the things I say or sometimes I get myself in trouble for saying things I shouldn’t and people think I’m being rude. When I was younger I would always use the excuse I don’t feel well to get out of sleep over’s and parties and over social events. I always remember peoples faces and they stick in my mind. I am at home now and if I got a phone call saying you have to go out now or something I would panic because I am not ready and haven’t had time to plan anything. Last night my mum had friends over and I was in my room and this morning she said I was rude because I didn’t come and say hello or talk to them and didn’t ask if they had a good night and apparently I never ask people how they are or anything. I find I get attached to characters in movies or TV shows and form a closer relationship with them than to people in my life like family and get upset if something happens to them. In 2007 I was diagnosed with depression anxiety and OCD and have had different types of counselling since high school. For as long as I can remember my mum has always said why are you so unsociable. I also find talking on forums and websites just as hard as talking to people in real life and at times wonder what to say and all kinds of things It’s like I’m in my own little world I have also realized than normal things that would interest someone of my age don’t at all. If you have taken the time to read this Thank You
  6. Red_Eye

    Hello

    Hello Found this site and thought i would sign up I don't talk much and find it just as hard talking on here as i do talking to people in the real world
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