To the original post... You just described me. I was diagnosed with AS last year and certain events in my past and the way I reacted to them suddenly make sense. I think maybe I'm getting a bit to hung up on them. I will say this, since being diagnosed I have started to struggle. Before I was diagnosed I was called lazy and impulsive and I shrugged it off with an "Up yours," and a "Whatever." Since being diagnosed, I've lost that F-You attitude and have become more inward thinking and depressed. I feel the heavy burden of being labled and I don't like it. It grinds me down. It's oppressive. I had two meetings with a psychiatrist. After he diagnosed me I was discharged and given a few leaflets, "Here you go son, you're on your own."
I feel so alone and useless...