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averagegilo

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  1. Asexual - There is always that possibility, although I have explored that area and I'm 99% certain that isn't the case, because I do get erections and have lost my virginity, but it was a tough experience. The sexual stuff is quite complicated and taboo, so unless I know I'm in a safe place and can trust people, I won't be mentioning the nature of my OCD. I'd love to date asexuals, mainly because its safe, but I've been rejected from that community
  2. Just to forewarn everybody this is exactly the same posting I posted on the OCD-UK forum (I didn't have the energy to rewrite it) Hi Thought I'd post a topic. I'm new to this forum - I used to post messages in the OCD action forums, but haven't been active there for a number of years. I've been mixing counselling up until a few months ago with some breathing. I wasn't coping particularly well, so got back on my saddle again and am now re-engaging CBT, this time more positively. So, my current approach to intrusive thinking is CBT and mindfulness, the latter has been really good for relaxing me and dealing with thoughts in a more rational mindset i.e.with much less stress. I've come to post as I need some advice. Recently, I was also diagnosed with Autistic Spectrum Disorder (ASD), namely Aspergers Syndrome. It explains a lot about me. I lack trust and find it incredibly difficult to make friends and meet new people. I am also very introvert and have social anxieties. I cannot read social cues whatsoever and have my own way of chatting which is unconventional and off-putting to the majority. Also, when I go out with work colleagues to a Christmas party, for example, I become very sad and hide away from people. My Pure-O takes over (not mentioning the nature yet) and I have to hide. I had no way of getting back from the party last year, so I had to hide from everybody until it was time to get the coach home. I cannot be in crowded and noisy places. This leads to days, even weeks of ruminating as though I will never be happy again. I haven't actually been out socialising since Christmas and before then, few and far between. I dread going out when I hear people walking down my street drunk after a night out and many behave abusive and violent towards one another. I do go out. I walk and generally function without the fear of contamination type worries (this isn't the focus of my OCD, after all). I love playing computer games in my spare time and have the loveliest Cat, who has recently turned 2 (I had him since he was just 4 weeks old). I have trust issues with people and draw the wrong types of people into my life i.e. seem okay on the outside, but will stick a knife in and turn it when you're not looking metaphorically. I've had much of this in my life and I'm very guarded when it comes to interacting to a point where I don't like other people and am on my own because its easier, less tiring and the humiliation of failing to get sexually excited is avoided. So, I would like to start meeting people, maybe a special lady, but I need advice that'll work for me, based on my limitations as a person. Any replies would be greatly appreciated.
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