wesleytrow

You've written that really well, I'm in exactly the same boat pretty much all the way. I know what your feeling, same here. Far as offering you some advice salibury i'll share what's working for me. No.1 music (radio/you tube) No.2 exercise (make a point of it) No.3 focus not distraction (long as it avoids all the stuff) Take care mate let me know how you get on

I want to Thank You all very very much. Reading through I found one question from Mihaela 'I can identify the cause and cure, something which is surprisingly unavailable.' And what might that be? A. This is going to be tough as I can go on explaining things in detail which forms the basis of my opinions but as I feel somewhat a little weaker for my recent experiences I will keep it laymans and use bulletpoints to help myself out (I was currently crushed and broken lol). I also want to note that my opinions are formed from feb-april 2015 with my emotional state changable affecting my mental state, however my 'opinions' have not changed although I feel drained an sense negativity I will try my best. The cause is from lack of nurture in the environmental sense, there could be many reasons why eg, illegitimacy, drug use, trauma. There are many possible catalytic genetic components though not defining eg, faulty glands. * Neurology is the forefront of life/existence. I am not going to mention EM field, gravity, infinitely small, infinitely big, blah blah. The cure (possibly with your expectation the difficult part), well *autism is a bulls--- word. *spectrum means the different s--- ways people are treated (*not everyone's the same). My own neurochemisty differs from NT's, the proof is ahhemm that I do not experience the pleasent effects drug users associate with neurotransmitters/enzyme inhibitors like cocaine, MDMA, amphetamine, ecstasy so far. **I do not condone the use of illegal or presciption drugs and without complete knowledge it is foolish to abuse oneself**. The brain operates many systems that can be considered separate for my explanation purposes eg parasympathetic (which is unconscious regulation of the bodies organs). Likwise there are separate mental processes regulated by many many different neurotransmitters (which i do not have complete knowledge). Currently defined as Crystalised and Fluidity thinking, my own process being crystalised and NT's being fluid, *Two more bulls--- terms for you. OK, what I know - Dopamine plays a central role in NT's mental processes. This neurotranmitter is associated with self reward. In me personnally this is lacking and not because of genetic fault (why ?). Your own regulation of all neurotransmitters are regulated by your perception of your environment and your diet. I mentioned in my previous post about nurture, positive emotional attachment plays a very important part in the production and process function of neurotransmitters. *2 essential factors gave me self awareness enough to start saying the proverbial - personal devastation and a dopamine substitute (mephedrone), not everyone's cup of tea. So like any good multi tasking mentally deficient person already self evaluating, I directed my focus onto the NT's whilst maintaining the same. My world suddenly seemed a very different place with something i can't see or touch !! **Now i've had to factor in that NT's have the same very adaptive organ with *highly developed* and privileged mental processes from birth that differ from my own. From here we still stare at one another and my highly developed reasoning, intelligence and adaptability is still firmly focused and not lacking the abstraction (if this is needed). There are easier ways to reconcile. Anyway the thought of mind reading, thought insertion/removal (telepathy) is rather novel and to be pursued, not to mention the associated wellbeing, emotional POSITIVITY and other stuff (the foundation for their primary current mental processes are negative.) I've answered as best i can with all the information available to me at this moment in time. Thank you again w.t

Meeting my Maker Now to tackle the subject of telepathy (don't worry I figured and wrote this all whilst coming to the conclusion that genotype natural selection though environmental conditioning for brain function development is no longer necessary due to advances in application of scientific knowledge – watch this space) or empathy/mind reading skills allegedly self contained brain functions are far from self contained brain functions. Ability in this capacity depends on the neurotypical positivity levels. However every human mind has the potential to develop varying capabilities it would seem humankind has developed two distinct species which currently co-exist for mutual benefit though somewhat unethically. Disadvantaged by number and overriding knowledge due to communication accomplishment the dominant species now destroys any future by a willingness to commit genocide, evidenced by silence and the lack of transparency. I presume positive feeling/current given off by another person has the ability to be telepathically perceived (distinctly as weakness or nurture), this will cause changes in whosoever it is directed at. The theoretical principles of the studied species can be examined creating a working model revealing all operations. I will liken nurture to being handed an heirloom at birth as to receive such by another capacity denotes weakness/negativity. The positivity causes significant changes in early brain development and (non-human) status is considered with impairment. If such a conveyance occurred through weakness then the conferrer would (I'm assuming) lose brain functions sustained by a positive current (appear to lose natural competitive desire and therefore social acceptance/status). I'm confident tests would show this particular species brain-function diminishing/ceasing. I presume an ingrained historical period of environmental competition is the driving force behind current neurotypical brain functions. A highly useful function which through a new configuration of neural pathways is prevalent in all individuals, with various reaching potential through life development (critical development is in early infancy, however current knowledge of neurotransmitters would allow a monkey to participate) self loathing may well account for the monkey having status a magnitude above the mentally deficient. Sensory communication appears to be an executive function of telepathy within the working model, despite exclusion based on natural competition. Worryingly the foundation of developed individuals attitude and behaviour is negatively driven by animal like instincts. Transparency into this world for any individual whose neural ability differs is seemingly forbidden, their own self awareness however is lacking****. The current typical majority differ from those diagnosed under such terms as ASD, HFA, ADHD, Bi-polar, Dementia, Agoraphobia, OCD, Personality Disorder, PTSD, and Schizophrenia there may be more some individuals may be misdiagnosed either way. This umbrella, basic neural configuration and typically lacking brain functions in this context offers superior cognitive adjustment, intelligence and abstract thought. My choice and My future has become a concept once removed from such individuals which I'm willing to give lessons in, kissing my ass softly. w.t

NEW INFORMATION - PLASTER IT TO EVERYONE WITH A DISABILITY PLEASE !!! Meeting my Maker Now to tackle the subject of telepathy (don't worry I figured and wrote this all whilst coming to the conclusion that genotype natural selection though environmental conditioning for brain function development is no longer necessary due to advances in application of scientific knowledge – watch this space) or empathy/mind reading skills allegedly self contained brain functions are far from self contained brain functions. Ability in this capacity depends on the neurotypical positivity levels. However every human mind has the potential to develop varying capabilities it would seem humankind has developed two distinct species which currently co-exist for mutual benefit though somewhat unethically. Disadvantaged by number and overriding knowledge due to communication accomplishment the dominant species now destroys any future by a willingness to commit genocide, evidenced by silence and the lack of transparency. I presume positive feeling/current given off by another person has the ability to be telepathically perceived (distinctly as weakness or nurture), this will cause changes in whosoever it is directed at. The theoretical principles of the studied species can be examined creating a working model revealing all operations. I will liken nurture to being handed an heirloom at birth as to receive such by another capacity denotes weakness/negativity. The positivity causes significant changes in early brain development and (non-human) status is considered with impairment. If such a conveyance occurred through weakness then the conferrer would (I'm assuming) lose brain functions sustained by a positive current (appear to lose natural competitive desire and therefore social acceptance/status). I'm confident tests would show this particular species brain-function diminishing/ceasing. I presume an ingrained historical period of environmental competition is the driving force behind current neurotypical brain functions. A highly useful function which through a new configuration of neural pathways is prevalent in all individuals, with various reaching potential through life development (critical development is in early infancy, however current knowledge of neurotransmitters would allow a monkey to participate) self loathing may well account for the monkey having status a magnitude above the mentally deficient. Sensory communication appears to be an executive function of telepathy within the working model, despite exclusion based on natural competition. Worryingly the foundation of developed individuals attitude and behaviour is negatively driven by animal like instincts. Transparency into this world for any individual whose neural ability differs is seemingly forbidden, their own self awareness however is lacking****. The current typical majority differ from those diagnosed under such terms as ASD, HFA, ADHD, Bi-polar, Dementia, Agoraphobia, OCD, Personality Disorder, PTSD, and Schizophrenia there may be more some individuals may be misdiagnosed either way. This umbrella, basic neural configuration and typically lacking brain functions in this context offers superior cognitive adjustment, intelligence and abstract thought. My choice and My future has become a concept once removed from such individuals which I'm willing to give lessons in, kissing my ass softly. w.t

Autism I am 33 and have by accident or intervention been left to find out alone without support that I have always had a mental deficit, a lifelong disability, I suffer from autism. Aside of the trauma and distress awareness brought I can see the extent of a damaged and distressing past. The ultimate insult was finding out ! not abuse my entire life but being able to identify why and the seemingly irreparable damage. The abuse I can identify at 2yrs old though most likely from conception, lifelong mental and physical traumas exacerbated by further neglect resulting in more difficulties, thus creating further damage beyond adjustment or repair (seemingly), this is autism. Imprisonment has been the only intervention in my life and definitely the most positive thing that ever happened to me, is that normal ? I can identify the cause and cure, something which is surprisingly unavailable. I believe due to the weakness I've become an easy target applying the laws of natural selection is completely different to living in an ordered society where we already cater for disabled people, so what is human nature ? I will suffer further trauma through emotional abuse so I feel unable to lead life normally with the knowledge the suffering far outweighs any potential positive outcome if any were indeed possible as human nature denies me the cure or freedom from the consequences. I was assessed by authorities, well aware of the content of the assessment though having no self awareness or recognition (this is called denial) so I was dealt with according to my beliefs. My acknowledgement was motivated by rejection from a social website that provoked me to type Aspergers into Wikipedia, from there it became my focus about 8 weeks ago. My need for direct answers as to cause, treatment and grievance are denied, though ceaseless efforts have gained me insight and awareness. Every realization you take for granted due to your emotional awareness, takes me an age by processing cognitively. The issue of parents unwittingly emotionally abusing their children is contentious, the second issue of the ASD population and their own understanding of their condition and place in a neurotypical society is equally offensive and complicated. This includes you, doctors, government and family members who are fully aware with the ability to mind read by utilising control of your own emotional mental state to influence others. There is no source of accessible help anywhere, only more abuse round every corner. Autistic people are being traumatised and distressed by you. Surely this must seem perverse to (you) the reader (individual) that I feel emotional suffering on such a scale. What order would you like it ? It's because of the inability to communicate, thereafter followed by exclusion, then a conveyed influence. Quite obviously we have a sociable nature but I am denied sustained positive emotional attachment of the hive (empathy & mentalizing) allowing me to develop the same brain functions. Allbeit those capabilities are lacking there is adaptation of what it is without so giving my unique insight to the past, present and future I can review for you. I have slipped through receiving the kindness of human nature, one observation of my journey is that my suffering still is/or would have been acceptable (without my awareness of the abuse obviously). A 'horrific nightmare' may help you visualise what life is like when your constantly emotionally manipulated or labelled disabled and incurable, either way abuse on top of abuse. Emotional abuse has gained significance as a criminal offence so where are my rights ! I've been abused by a neurotypical society / neurotypical people and don't experience your compassion, feel your sympathy or have any special treatment that I am aware of or not, far from it. I am now completely aware ! I've felt the full force of the law (and broken it to my regret of the suffering caused) where appropriate though not as a disabled person and further gross injustices by the authorities I am still unable to comprehend cognitively. Social interaction is significantly equal to the situations I face with any form of government organisation. You will be unable to find any document on the internet like this by typing in any of the usual search criteria or by obscure trawling. Glad you have taken a moment to read this, it's as significant to me as your conscience is to you. By Wesley Trow. Oh one more thing for the regular chimp need I say.