Jonny_Azrim

I was falsely diagnosed with adhd at 6 but i new something was building up before i was diagnosed with aspergers syndrome at 18 when i was 13 now a long long long long long long time ago i had a staqtus epilepticus and the aspergers wish had been deteriatin since i was 18 sudenly became late onset regresive autism and acording to the dr at the hospital it is combined wiv peter pan syndrome so i have the worsed and best part of asd worsed cause i never goin to be out of pads now because of ibs and epilepsy combination best because i a have a childhood back that i never had in first place but i cant grow up anymor now ever were progress happens in the peter pan syndrome the autism conteracts and vis versa mentaly i 7 I now in care home for rest of my life

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Hello my name is Jonny Azrim i am new here I just joined. I would like some opinions on this. and if everyone can answer as much of the poll as they feel comfortable answering i think it would help me with trying to find out something about myself the problem is i'm not sure what i'm looking for exactly. I am a 7 year old +/- 1 year trapped in a 30 year old adults body at least that is how I feel. I play all day on neopets and drawing drawings and coloring the drawed drawings in and watching disney films and cartoons and bits of discovery channel I am going to build a fort for pooh he is my teddy he goes every wear with me and keeps me safe and i am going to build a fort for buzz since i have buzz lightyear pajamas. I use my laptop as a night light and I always have will probably keep doing it till i get moved in to the supported living place that they are trying to find me then i will be able to get a set of woody bedsheets as well as a night light awesome. I use regression for copping with difficult situations and stressful situations, when I regress i am more like a 3 year old then a big grown up 7 year old but at the moment my IBS is playing up so I am having to wear nappies 24/7 at the moment, its better then having a fit and peeing in my buzz lightyear pants, in any case i find nappies help me manage stress and help me cope and give me a feeling of security and a sensory input. Managing my stress levels is essential for me as my fits are triggered by stress. Growing up I was abused and bullied and taken advantage of and never new my real mommy the mother I have is my adopted mother she adopted me from a girl after she was raped by the so called father daddy was the abusive one mommy just did not know how to help me or how to understand my problems but she was very over protective of me and very manipulative. If anyone has herd of the following 2 conditions please let me know I Feel Like A Child Syndrome Peter Pan Syndrome I ask this because I fit perfectly in to the criteria for both of these conditions the old family doctor labeled me a hypochondriac because i asked a complex question at age 5 since then I can not go to a doctor and give my opinion of what is wrong with me with out that label being on my medical record so natural no doctor will believe me if i go to a doctor and say I need dioralyte or I am allergic to dairy lactose, nuts, gluten, casein, wheat, barley, fructose and coco. If I had a doctor believe me I would not be sitting in a pookie nappy waiting for the next pookie to escape in to my nappy merely 5 minutes apart. But with so many things I am allergic to and some I can not even remember the names of I would rather be in a nappy messing myself then interrupting playtime. Besides no one has proved that the potty monster is not real and it only took the toilet bowel to fall over in my mid 20s for me to start believing that again. It took till I was in my mid 20s before I felt like a teenager and even at the age of 26 I only felt I was 14. I am unable to work because of the combination of Dyscalculia, Epilepsy and Aspergers, but worse after 7 years of trying to get a basic maths qualification I only went from entry level 3 up to entry level 2 (special needs grades). In GCSES I was predicted an F in maths, I did not have any clue what the questions ment when the teacher gave me the paper or what the teacher was trying to teach in maths class. I paid attention but could not understand the most basic things, I could not read a clock till I was in my mid 20s and i still have no concept of the passage of time. I guessed my way through the maths paper in the GCSES as I felt I had to fill it in and I got an E. Every course at university and nearly every course at college requires a C or above in maths and that said I failed education. By the time I realised the truth I was 28 by the time I accepted it I was 30. I just gave up. Then mommy went in to hospital her dementia got worse and I started regressing at a rate with more then anything else feels natural and comfortable to me but impaired by every other bit of life in the universe. It was just before I turned 3 that daddy started being abusive when I go to a regressed state I see myself as just turning 3 and having my first ever birthday party. Yep I never had a birthday party or christmas party when growing up or any friends.. So as much as I can explain I have right here. I hope this gives some context to such a long poll. if you have any questions please ask.

hello all i am jonny azrim i feel like a child trapped in an adults body I have Aspergers syndrome and lots of different learning difficulties and epilepsy and i need help finding out why i'm so childish. I have other disabilities to but i will mention them if and when they become necessary. (tw abuse in following paragraph) my name is jonathon mirza a name i do not like because the so called father gave me the last name and daddy was abusive and mommy adopted me from their foster child, a girl who was rapped by daddy. I never met my real mommy but my adopted mother is in hospital and her dementia is getting worse and she could never understand my problems in the past or help me she certainly cant now. I am 30 years old and I do not feel like an adult. (end of tw) I feel somewear between 6 years of age and 8 years of age so I say 7 and the name Jonny Azrim is the name I go by as it is the name i feel suits me on the inside and suits my restrictions due to disabilities. I am unable to work because of the combination of Dyscalculia, Epilepsy and Aspergers, but worse after 7 years of trying to get a basic maths qualification I only went from entry level 3 up to entry level 2 (special needs grades). In GCSES I was predicted an F in maths, I did not have any clue what the questions ment when the teacher gave me the paper or what the teacher was trying to teach in maths class. I paid attention but could not understand the most basic things, I could not read a clock till I was in my mid 20s and i still have no concept of the passage of time. I guessed my way through the maths paper in the GCSES as I felt I had to fill it in and I got an E. Every course at university and nearly every course at college requires a C or above in maths and that said I failed education. By the time I realised the truth I was 28 by the time I accepted it I was 30. I just gave up. as a kid I do not see the point in education when you have no hope in the world of doing anything with any kind of education beyond what you can learn of the internet and films and discovery channel. I taught myself to play piano using youtube. these days I mostly spend my time on neopets and watching disney films and cartoons while coloring in drawings i drawed. I keep pooh close to me at all times as he is my teddy and I have buzz lightyear pajamas and i am going to build buzz a fort and 1 for pooh as well so pooh and buzz can have the mostist besttist epictist of battles. I use my laptop for a night light i always have and will continue to do so till i get moved to this supported living place and I can buy myself a night light and some woody bedsheets. right any questions just ask I am going to hunt for that board and capture it so I can post the question I came here for. and if anyone has any info any of these just let me know I Feel Like A Child Syndrome Peter Pan Syndrome