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Been battling deppression and stress etc etc for the past few months now. Yesterday T had a hellava day and it's knocked me for six, haven't come out of it yet. Feeling so damn low I just wanna curl up and die. I'm fed up with this shite existance of a life, constantly having to fight all the time to get what's best for T, having people not listen to me, feeling soo alone, not having anyone here physically that understands who I am and what I'm going through. My sister today said T is spoilt, um no, he is Autistic, that is why he behaves the way he does. Why doesn't anyone understand?? :(

 

Thinking of putting T into care b/c I've had enough. I love him with all my heart but things can't go on the way they have been. I'm about to snap. I feel like I'm about to die and I wanna be free of all this ######! :crying: I have had enough!

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Hi

 

Believe me, I think we've probably all felt really low - just like you are just now. What you need is help and you're clearly not getting it. I know I've felt like I've been banging my head against a brick wall trying to get people to a) listen to me and B) believe how bad things can get with my son. Pester power is the key. It's something that we shouldn't have to do, but believe me it's worth it. Speak to your child's consultant, GP, whoever - they are the people that can help. I discovered that social workers can be a godsend (my son's one is fantastic). We're having a section 23 assessment carried out. That ultimately means that my son's needs as well as the whole family's will be assessed. It may be that we can then get some respite, etc. Don't give up. You're not a bad person or a bad parent. Quite the opposite, that's why you're feeling so low. It's damn hard work and I know that I feel like I've run out of steam and can't take any more every now and again. I tend to become a recluse for a few days (thing is I work full-time, so it ain't easy). When I feel ######, I like the safety of my own four walls. You know what ... I think Robert does too?! If you can, try and recharge you batteries a bit. You're certainly coming to the right place because I think that everyone on this forum understands. I know that when I feel like I've hit rock bottom and don't think things can get any worse (and then they do!), I come here. It's at times like that that I know who my 'friends' are - get so many kind words, constructive advice, etc.

 

Best wishes.

 

Caroline.

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tylers mum,i wish i could say something to make you feel better,i know exactly how you feeling and how low you feel,ive no answers,just hang on in there,hard i know >:D<<'> >:D<<'> >:D<<'> >:D<<'>

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>:D<<'> >:D<<'> >:D<<'> Tyler's Mum, Wish I too could say somehting to make it all better for you, be strong and keep posting on here your feelings, it does help and this wonderful network of people on this forum do really understand and are right there behind you. It hurts so much when even close family members make such comments, I know from expereince but don't think perhaps "they" will ever understand or realise that its support I need, not judgemental comments. Hope you turn a corner real soon.

Take care >:D<<'> >:D<<'> >:D<<'>

Clare x

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