smileyK Report post Posted November 16, 2012 going out for an xmas meal tonight just down the road from where i live at local pub going for three course meal i think! the meal at half 7 and there is 13 of us going tonight work girls and partners some just going on their own single so hope it's not too daunting that party of people! I am looking forward it and all paying for our meals on a whole table tab so feeling anxious/nervous about that situation as i struggle find that difficult! so dread that! even from working out what outfit i'm going to wear a dress with tights or black sparkly jumper with black leggings and black sparkly shoes!??? hate decisions why so damn hard to make about something so naturally easy and how much money to take so i'm not worrying /anxious about if i have enough! XKLX Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
smileyK Report post Posted November 16, 2012 felt so out of place tonight felt awakard socially tonight all went bad for me i feel! Will i ever get social circle stuff right ever? Or am i asking too much? puttin too much pressure & strain on myself maybe thats my problem? Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
smileyK Report post Posted November 16, 2012 just felt out of my norm depth totally freaked out scared totally messed up completely ruined it! Ma work mates found out i take herbal slimmin tabs so embarrassin! Feel so low im p.m.t mode and forgot to take meds which aint helping matters c feel so shamedant stop crying! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
smileyK Report post Posted November 16, 2012 * ashamed cant stop the tears feel awful! Just dreadful like let myself down! Why do i put myself through this mental paranoia obsessive thoughts after before drives me mad! Too much for my wish to wake up norm i suppose! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
A-S warrior Report post Posted November 16, 2012 Hang on..... christams meal? on the 16th of november? that's like celebrating your birthday 7 weeks early. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
smileyK Report post Posted November 17, 2012 one of the girls could only do that night as cant do any other night up to xmas?? Xxx Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aeolienne Report post Posted November 18, 2012 Christmas meal? on the 16th of November? Should have called it a Martinmas or Diwali celebration. Unless you're at a certain hotel in Torquay... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
robert7111a Report post Posted November 19, 2012 Yes I know EXACTLY how you feel/felt SmileyK. At my last works xmas do, we met in a pub before going to the restaurant. It was all very cliquey with people in their own small groups. Nobody spoke to me. I felt so alone and knew I stuck out like a sore thumb. I did not know how to initiate an intelligent conversation. I nearly walked out to go home. Fortunately in the restaurant, somebody next to me got very drunk and talked all sorts to me (mainly rubbish) so I had at least a conversation partner Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Isobel Report post Posted November 27, 2012 I've got one in about two weeks time, I've paid my £5 deposit so all I need to do is to give my colleague whose organising it £10 before we go, which I like, then I've offered to give some a lift so at least I'll get accompanied to the meal with familiar people as I don't really know the venue, although I know exactly where I'm parking. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
puffin Report post Posted November 30, 2012 Office Christmas meals always suck Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
smileyK Report post Posted December 1, 2012 dont normally when go out norm manage alright ish okish but think it was amount of people totally freaked spooked me right out scared me made me more anxious paranoid insecure and on my guard which in effect made spiral out of control wrong badly! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aeolienne Report post Posted December 24, 2012 Never knew I would miss work Christmas meals as much as I do now. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites