My interest

[Mikecunniffe]

I thought this would fit nicely here, as i'm going to share my interest at the moment.

 

I have huge interest in how other people live and go about there business, how i carry out this interest, is quite interesting itself. Every since around age 8 i started to nice lot of ways people at my school i attend was moved around and looked after at the school. This and interactive subjects in R.E where we tried things on and out. Following years later at year 9 i started notice something that have been triggered from years before and it was my passion and interest in other people life's and wellbeing.

 

It started where i following trends and how other people behaved in the school and the staff dealt with them, only realised why i was always causing trouble later in the school year around year 14. That it was all in aid me experciaing what the other students went through so i can if they dealt with me same and how it felt for them.

 

I used to always want to go out like the others, go on residentials but the residentials i really wanted to go to do my interest i never managed to do and i was promised i will go on it.

 

From year 9 i tryed a lot things out and what i call, see what it like other people shoes. I would ask the teacher if can see what it feels like to be that student or use that item or being in that scenario.

 

I tryed; Float Boats, Leg Wedge {Egg timer shaped floats}, being supervised in the water like a one to one, in swimming, all sorts of behaviors so i can try the different restraint positions and bahvoir rooms, this has even result me asking in year 13 right near my transition to work placement what was awkward. if i could see what i was like to outside the head years office facing the wall as a fellow student was expercing this alot. Aprons tied behind my back with neck string tied into to it. Being blindfolded during lesso, trying sensory play, one to one support. i even was feeling like asking the school physio as i wanted to try the standing frames and wheelchairs E.T.c. but i never did. I experienced sitting in a hoop and cut out desk with chair in middle and the desk against the wall so i was trapped. Plus many more of them, if want to hear more, let me know

 

I also like traveling, exploring places names and meanings and general research. my intreset change fast and every month or so i develop a new and lose a old one.

 

I hope i picked the right category

[Mihaela]

That's all very interesting MikeC - and so many people think we lack empathy! This thing about observing how others behave is very common in 'female-type' Asperger's, and I've yet to meet an Aspie who dislikes meeting other people. Some of us may not be good at socialising, but that doesn't stop us wanting to meet others.

 

Trying out all those different experiences is such a good way of understanding how others feel. Even if we're not good at understanding empathy, I believe we can learn it from watching others, and that we all have feelings, even though we might be unable to express them in the usual ways.

I like travelling too, but nowadays I can't travel far when alone due to panic attacks. I love exploring places too - deserted buildings, ruins, old villages, woods, tunnels, etc. I often find new interests but the old ones never completely disappear, and do keep going back to them. I'm something of a collector on interests! - as well things and information. It's quite obsessive.

[Mikecunniffe]

I can go much deeper into my interest of seeing what it like other shoes. I don't if site would like but if do i will go in depth. I go traveling to people watch

[Livelife]

I have heard people call this people watching if my understanding is correct, I am equally fascinated by people's behaviour and the implications on society because of the way I have been treated and one day I started to wonder why.

Even though I take an interest I have to admit that a lot of the time I'm baffled by the behaviour and struggle to understand the reasoning for it or why people do so many illogical things there doesn't seem to be a good reason for what they do. NT thinking is a mystery in itself probably why I am so interested in it for some reason I'm drawn to anything strange that isn't understood by my perception of logic.

[Mihaela]

I fully agree with you, Livelife. I find that lots of aspies are 'psychologically minded'. We tend to analyse why people behave the way they do, either by watching them, listening or reading. Our logical minds are forever trying to make sense of their often rather chaotic behaviour. We're also good at analysing our own behaviour. Average NT people don't do this. I often extend this analysing to the NT world as a whole.

 

Tell us more about your people-watching travels, MikeC.

[Mikecunniffe]

I fully agree with you, Livelife. I find that lots of aspies are 'psychologically minded'. We tend to analyse why people behave the way they do, either by watching them, listening or reading. Our logical minds are forever trying to make sense of their often rather chaotic behaviour. We're also good at analysing our own behaviour. Average NT people don't do this. I often extend this analysing to the NT world as a whole.

 

Tell us more about your people-watching travels, MikeC.

 

Hi Mihaela.

 

as you requested i will be going deeper into this and please don't be offended by anything i say. as i been meaning to let this of my chest for a while now.

 

As i already established in the opening post this all sorted around 2007/2008 in year 8, when i started to grow in the school and seeing the different student come and go. Every school year my interest got bigger and bigger where in Year 9 or 10 it got really bad. halfway through year 10 2009 - 2010, i was preparing to move into year 11 and i was going to be moved to the science room as my year base but i triggered that the other year 10 was not moving instead the teachers and student moved up to year 11 and stayed the same. So i thought i know what i will request a class room move in 2009 - 2010 and i got it.

 

In year 11 this was really bad year for me as i noticed things changing at lot with way i starting to try lot more than i used to do in the early years. Every time i walked past the physio room to design tech. i always used to feel and stand looking at the physio mobility equipment outside the physio room. I was nearly ready to ask the physio if could try it but i never did.

 

I Think time for some stories don't you, i'm going tell you my funny and slightly naughty ways of doing it but it worked.

 

In around year 9 and 10 they used to be some disused disabled pa rooms what just general bathrooms now and later behaviour room. While all the equipment was left in there every time i went use the bathroom usual at breaks and lunch. i would use the equipment to see how it works and feels and never been caught for doing it.

 

Then i used to help in the autism base and go in there in the holiday club. i use to like it there being on the same level as everyone else and i even tryed the padded time out room while someone sat outside watching me.

 

During school i only tryed things when i felt comfortable to do it, like the time in p.e i know there was no girls so i asked if could change in the girl changing room and i did.

 

Since leaving school i been getting urge to try things and see how it feels for people it getting to point off mad thoughts of ways to do it. and just wishing i could still do it but don't know how now i'm an adult.

 

So i watch real life documentaries on everything but that making it worst where i want try it. I watch hospital and life stories on youtube and browse the looking at sites and reading product reviews.

 

I been wanting to try for ages, being in a police transporter, police station. jail. being in rta and in hospital unable to move and living a week being wheelchair bound amongst others. I also quite like leggings and female clothing i know weird but they have so many choice unlike the men so i want to try them.

 

My people watching is same to this where i sit on bus, train whatever and watch what it other doing and if there lost i always offer to help them.

 

I'm open to questions and advice as i need to snap out this so badly

[Mihaela]

Thanks for your fascinating post, MikeC.

 

While all the equipment was left in there every time i went use the bathroom usual at breaks and lunch. i would use the equipment to see how it works and feels and never been caught for doing it.

 

Was it the thought of taking a risk and not getting caught, or was it just something about wanting to feel what it was like to be someone with disabilities who needs to use that equipment?

 

Then i used to help in the autism base and go in there in the holiday club. i use to like it there being on the same level as everyone else and i even tryed the padded time out room while someone sat outside watching me.

 

Here again you're wanting to actually experience what others have to experience.

 

During school i only tryed things when i felt comfortable to do it, like the time in p.e i know there was no girls so i asked if could change in the girl changing room and i did.

I suppose the girls' changing room was no different to that of the boys, so did you do that just to say that you'd used a room normally used only by girls?

 

Since leaving school i been getting urge to try things and see how it feels for people it getting to point off mad thoughts of ways to do it. and just wishing i could still do it but d

[Mihaela]

Thanks for your fascinating post, MikeC.

 

While all the equipment was left in there every time i went use the bathroom usual at breaks and lunch. i would use the equipment to see how it works and feels and never been caught for doing it.

 

Was it the thought of taking a risk and not getting caught, or was it just something about wanting to feel what it was like to be someone with disabilities who needs to use that equipment?

 

Then i used to help in the autism base and go in there in the holiday club. i use to like it there being on the same level as everyone else and i even tryed the padded time out room while someone sat outside watching me.

 

Here again you're wanting to actually experience what others have to experience.

 

During school i only tryed things when i felt comfortable to do it, like the time in p.e i know there was no girls so i asked if could change in the girl changing room and i did.

I suppose the girls' changing room was no different to that of the boys, so did you do that just to say that you'd used a room normally used only by girls?

 

Since leaving school i been getting urge to try things and see how it feels for people it getting to point off mad thoughts of ways to do it. and just wishing i could still do it but don't know how now i'm an adult.

 

What kinds of things? You may be an adult in age, but that doesn't mean you are one emotionally. I know I'm not!

 

I been wanting to try for ages, being in a police transporter, police station. jail. being in rta and in hospital unable to move and living a week being wheelchair bound amongst others.

You seem to have such high empathy that you want to experience the suffering of others for yourself. By the way I have two friends who are wheelchair bound, and I've been in wheelchair race!

I also quite like leggings and female clothing i know weird but they have so many choice unlike the men so i want to try them.

 

I wouldn't call it weird, for it's very common. Often this can mean that you're not happy in the gender you were given at birth. Also the bit about using the girls' changing room could mean this too.

 

My people watching is same to this where i sit on bus, train whatever and watch what it other doing and if there lost i always offer to help them.

 

Same here. I just can't help it. I think all of us quietly watch NTs, and it's a good thing, for it can help us learn how their minds work.

 

Why do you feel you need to snap of this quickly? If it's taking over your life then it sounds like and unusual form of OCD. OCD is always caused by stress and anxiety, so do you have any idea what could be causing it for you? If the cause can be removed then the symptoms will go. But I'd only start worrying about it if it was affecting your life badly or affecting other people. If is isn't then, you just have obsessive compulsive traits rather than a disorder. ( I have many OC traits myself, and lately they've become a disorder again - especially when I'm out. Some days it's far worse than on other days).

[Mikecunniffe]

Thanks for your fascinating post, MikeC.

 

While all the equipment was left in there every time i went use the bathroom usual at breaks and lunch. i would use the equipment to see how it works and feels and never been caught for doing it.

 

Was it the thought of taking a risk and not getting caught, or was it just something about wanting to feel what it was like to be someone with disabilities who needs to use that equipment?

 

Then i used to help in the autism base and go in there in the holiday club. i use to like it there being on the same level as everyone else and i even tryed the padded time out room while someone sat outside watching me.

 

Here again you're wanting to actually experience what others have to experience.

 

During school i only tryed things when i felt comfortable to do it, like the time in p.e i know there was no girls so i asked if could change in the girl changing room and i did.

 

I suppose the girls' changing room was no different to that of the boys, so did you do that just to say that you'd used a room normally used only by girls?

 

Since leaving school i been getting urge to try things and see how it feels for people it getting to point off mad thoughts of ways to do it. and just wishing i could still do it but don't know how now i'm an adult.

 

What kinds of things? You may be an adult in age, but that doesn't mean you are one emotionally. I know I'm not!

 

I been wanting to try for ages, being in a police transporter, police station. jail. being in rta and in hospital unable to move and living a week being wheelchair bound amongst others.

 

You seem to have such high empathy that you want to experience the suffering of others for yourself. By the way I have two friends who are wheelchair bound, and I've been in wheelchair race!

 

I also quite like leggings and female clothing i know weird but they have so many choice unlike the men so i want to try them.

 

I wouldn't call it weird, for it's very common. Often this can mean that you're not happy in the gender you were given at birth. Also the bit about using the girls' changing room could mean this too.

 

My people watching is same to this where i sit on bus, train whatever and watch what it other doing and if there lost i always offer to help them.

 

Same here. I just can't help it. I think all of us quietly watch NTs, and it's a good thing, for it can help us learn how their minds work.

 

Why do you feel you need to snap of this quickly? If it's taking over your life then it sounds like and unusual form of OCD. OCD is always caused by stress and anxiety, so do you have any idea what could be causing it for you? If the cause can be removed then the symptoms will go. But I'd only start worrying about it if it was affecting your life badly or affecting other people. If is isn't then, you just have obsessive compulsive traits rather than a disorder. ( I have many OC traits myself, and lately they've become a disorder again - especially when I'm out. Some days it's far worse than on other days).

 

 

 

Thanks Miheala

 

I Was wondering if scared people about the way i see and what to do things .

 

At school we had girl and boys changing room so i wanted to go in the girls to what it was like. The bathroom was a bit of both get the thrill of not being caught and actually seeing what it feels for people who used these equipment and need the help.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Since leaving school i been getting urge to try things and see how it feels for people it getting to point off mad thoughts of ways to do it. and just wishing i could still do it but don't know how now i'm an adult.

 

What kinds of things? You may be an adult in age, but that doesn't mean you are one emotionally. I know I'm not!

 

This quite advanced i wish i hand more confidence in school to ask try things. I wished i tryed the standing frames, on the school minibuses they was guy who had to use travel harness i wanted try that. list go on and on but i don't where i can try these things now what doing my head in as i want to carry on trying things out. including old things like padded cell and torture devices to american restraint chairs.

 

The female side of things i don't want to be female but highly fascinated about how it feels and females have so much more things to do life than males. i always want try corsets.

 

How would i get about spending a few days living like a person in wheelchair and being looked after and i want to be one those who can't speak and have sensory issues like can't see. because it scary just being normal but it must more scaring what you can't speak or see.

 

I need to snap out off because i can't try anything but if loved on my own i would purposely buy thing of the internet to try them. it driving to doing things like looking at photos and sites then driving me wanting to try them more.

 

Is this something you can help with Miheala

[Mikecunniffe]

Note for mods, i would like the title changing as i think it slightly misleading.

 

I Just like trying things out as think why can they use and not me and how does it feel

[Mihaela]

I Was wondering if scared people about the way i see and what to do things

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It takes more than that to scare me.

 

There's nothing wrong with curiosity as long as it harms no-one (or no animal).

 

i don't want to be female but highly fascinated about how it feels and females have so much more things to do life than males. i always want try corsets.

 

Nowadays they seem to, but at one time they didn't. I think it's unfair that males are more socially restricted in what they can wear. btw I've never worn corsets, but I can't imagine they're very comfortable.

 

I need to snap out off because i can't try anything but if loved on my own i would purposely buy thing of the internet to try them. it driving to doing things like looking at photos and sites then driving me wanting to try them more.

 

I'm beginning to understand things more. You have a type of OCD, and like all OC traits it's your way of coping with stress - either the general stress of being an Aspie in a neurotypical world, or stress caused by other problems in your life. If possible the stress needs to be removed. If you feel your OC traits are becoming an addiction and harming your life, or making it difficult, you need help. CBT can usually help with these things, and you'd need to ask your doctor to refer you to a therapist.

 

Good luck.

[Mikecunniffe]

Miheala

 

Can you help to find out how i can still undertake my trying things out as i still want to do this. it my way of preparing for the worst. if anything happened to me i know what it feels like or how hard it is.

 

I know they might be way but i don't know how to access services if they is any services. I every wondered about contacting like the police to see if they willing to give me experience of being in the cells for 24 hours it must most mad numbing thing going and i can't way people keep visiting them places it like how i want to try the court/ prisoner transport as on a hot day in a 1 x 1 box not fresh air it must uncomfortable plus you hand cuffed too.

 

There so many types of ladies clothing and i want to experience most of it. like i want see how feels wearing school uniforms with ties and it doesn't seem right girls wearing ties and what the obsession about mini skirts short skirts to school. Plus varying degree of schools isolation and behaviour management.

 

The RTA thing. i want try that because it happens so fast but takes so long after plus you fasten down for about 2 - 5 hours on hard board and neck in them blocks

[Mikecunniffe]

I'm a lover christmas and culture, i want to know what and how christmas celebrated around the world.

 

So i'm looking when i'm 30 travelling the globe and experiencing christmas around the world and hoping to spend it a with family over in the chosen country.

 

I think by doing this way you experience culture, religion and christmas in one.

 

It other way i'm seeing what it like for others