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Whenever I hit a hard time (Tylers diagnosis, losing my dad to Alzheimers when I was pregnant...etc) I just write poetry - not sure why but it does seem to help.

 

Anyway, just thought I'd share with you guys the poem I wrote recently after Tylers diagnosis.

 

�We think it?s a boy�

they said at the scan

and from that day to this

you were my little man.

 

Then 2 days before

The date you were due

After three days of labour

You were born ? I loved you.

 

You were perfect to me

With a headful of hair

And those twinkly eyes

That gazed into my stare.

 

Each milestone came

You hit every one.

Walked before a year

My amazing son.

 

But speech wasn?t good

Something?s askew

Too young to tell

Was Doctors view.

 

At 3 you started pre-school

A ?different? boy is seemed

Time to undergo some tests

To find out what it means

 

Suddenly support came

From every way it could

Special Groups on Fridays

The progress made was good.

 

More tests for diagnosis,

My son a ?subject? now.

I knew what word was coming

But I ignored it anyhow.

 

But there it was just weeks ago

In black ink print on white

My baby is autistic

I knew I had been right.

 

But I wasn?t ready to hear it

And crumbled like a cake

It?s a mis-diagnosis

They?ve made a big mistake.

 

Was it me? Or MMR?

Or a difficult birth to blame

Wherever the fault lays for this,

the outcome?s still the same.

 

So now I am accepting

That his behaviour has a name.

He?s still my little baby

don't say that its a shame.

 

There?s a reason why he screams out loud

Or pushes me aside

But every day each thing he learns

Fills my heart with Pride.

 

He still looks into my eyes sometimes

and I fall into his gaze

I remember how, when he was born,

he set my heart ablaze.

 

The fire burns as strongly now

as it did when he was new.

But now I know the love I have

no ?illness? can undo.

 

Thanks for reading.. :D

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oh thats so beautiful, i feel the same way :tearful:

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:crying: That is a wonderfully written poem that every parent here can relate to. You have a gift so keep it up. I love poetry but this one really really did touch close to home!

 

Weldone and thank you for sharing. :thumbs:

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LOL, that's true!!! ;) but I an't as gifted as you!! Used to be as a teenager but that talent went out the wondow with my art skills! Darn, why do we have to grow up rather than grow down!!! LOL :lol:

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:) What a lovely , lovely, poem, it brings back all my feelings and emotions, that I had and still do have....well done for getting those emotions out onto paper.

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Tylersmum. That's so lovely, so obviously from the heart and spot on. You must attempt to get published. If you have a compilation of poems like that try sending them to Jessica Kingsley publishers.

 

Keep writing, you obviously have a true talent.

 

Lauren

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hi tylers mum just read your e-mail what abeautiful poem keep writing and maybe one day we can all say on this forum we knew tylers-mum cant say anymore going off to get a hankie keep smilin luv karin xx :tearful: :tearful

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every word of that sound is what i felt with my ds.

 

Beautifully put - well done you and yes it made me cry too and I am at work!!

 

Caroline

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Hi Tylers-Mum

 

I deliberately waited until I felt I was emotionally able to read it!

 

I am - and even so it has brought tears to my eyes. You could have written this for any one of us.

 

You have two gifts - your son - and your talent for writing poetry.

 

Thanks for sharing such beautiful words

 

Love

 

HelenL

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That poem was lovely, here I am sitting in the office, trying not to blub.

 

Also reminded me of my Max and my feelings for him so much, he was also a 3 days labour baby.

 

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