Hey everyone,
I study psychology at university, and after having a lecture on the autism spectrum, something clicked. THIS is what I have been experiencing all my life. It's not the anxiety and depression I have been officially diagnosed with. It all suddenly made sense to me. All of my interpersonal issues fit very neatly into it.
Here's a little overview of my symptoms:
I have real trouble knowing what is the right thing to say, when to say it, constantly struggling to maintain conversations and personal relationships. I have had sexual relationships in the past, but I really struggle with this. I just DON'T know what to do or how to act. This gives me the greatest trouble of all of my symptoms.
I was always a very quiet child due to the above reasons, was predicted to get mainly D's and C's in school but came out mainly with straight A's. I loved computers and technology.
I often get fixated on a specific subject. This can be anything. Psychology is one, space and physics is another, and jazz music is another. My current friends always laugh at me as it's always me coming out with little facts which I have picked up lol.
I'm VERY sensitive to sound, which I think is also why I love music so much. I notice the little tiny things that others don't. But this also means that some noises drive me insane!!!
I don't think I have any problems with language itself, but I still have problems with interpersonal issues.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'm 21 in April, and my doctor has no idea about these symptoms. All my life I just thought I was 'different' but now it makes sense.
I want to visit my GP and tell them about this, but they always have a go at me when I've been 'googling' stuff (which is a very fair point), but this is different!
What do I do? How do I approach the subject? What's your story?