Alex248297

caroles, in answer to your questions... up till I started living with my friend I just got on with doing the things I do, people sometimes told me I was odd but I just got on with my strange little life. Yes I do go out but I don't like to and avoid it at all costs. I go out because I have to not because I want to! I have been with my boyfriend for 3 years and put him through hell as I get angry and upset (i still live with him, we have moved in to a house with a couple of friends) A couple of examples for you... I eat the same thing for breakfast every day and we ran out of it. I got all upset and refused to eat anything different, my whole day was wrong. I had such a bad day because of the breakfast. My friend said during a recent patch of bad weather "don't stick your tongue out or it will get struck by lightning" (i have my tongue pierced) so i did not open my mouth for 3 and a half hours! she told me later it was a joke! I didn't understand that and believed her. My boyfriend made me take the dog for a walk with him and he kept saying "get off your ###### tip toes" I didn't even know I was doing it. I prefered my life when people just avoided me because they thought I was odd. Now some one thinks I have Aspergers every one keeps going on about it and I feel like i'm the bad person. I don't realise I do the things I do. I just want to be normal. I am happy doing what I do. Alex

Hi, my name is Alex and I am 23 and female. I have recently moved in with some friends and one of my friends thinks I have Aspergers or Autism (she has an autistic brother and a sister with Aspergers) I have always been a little odd (so people tell me). I do funny things like walk on my tip toes, only eat and drink out od the same cup/plate. I only drink orange squash and do not like wet food. I also pull my food to bits before I eat it. I don't have many friends and find it hard to communicate with people in words. My friend says I do not show emotions or understand how other people feel. If you ask me how I am I will always say fine. I live my life in routines and if they get broken I go mad. I cry, screem and get angry. I watch things spin round and have a problems with numbers, I like them too much! I can tell you how many squares are on our wall paper, how many pannels in the garden gate. I count things where ever I go. I don't like odd numbers. The car sterio has to be on an even number or I get upset and angry. I don't like loud noises and people tell me to to take my fingers out of my ears all the time. I don't like crouds and find things like going shopping so scary, I hate being outside. People say I don't have an imagination as I can't think up stories. I don't get jokes and funny comments. I hate fiction book, I think they are a waste of time. I listen to the same song over and over again. I don't like physical contact. People say I don't play well and didn't when I was a child. I just use to spin things and line things up in order. I tap pens. When I am upset and in a rage the only things that calm me are music, fiddling with one specific thing and being on my own. I love things like christmas tree lights. I can't choose. if someone says peas or carrots I can't choose. Show me pictures of them and I will point. I don't know why I do that I guess I just find it easer to show people things than to try and explain. I argued with my friend that if I had Aspergers or Autism I would have been diagnosed as a child. She said I was not as I moved house, area and school lots. I was just branded as a trouble maker. I always got in trouble for doing too well in tests and cheating. I didn't cheat, I just memorised things. My parents said I have always been odd. I don't like people calling me a freak and odd. My GP does not care or understand. Do any of you think I may have Aspergers or Autism? Please help me I hate my self for the stupid things I do. Thank you Alex