I am 44, medically disabled which does not allow me to work and at present living with my partner who is autistic (undiagnoised but working on it) and his 7 year old son who has Aspergers (we have him with us 3 and a half days a week). To add to the mix, my eldest son (23 and living independently now) is also autistic.
To say I cope would be an understatement, I have to cope, there is no choice in that; well none I would take at present. I get very lonely, very frustrated, very sad, very scared. I am blessed with another son (19 and living with his partner) who can give me hugs and empathy, also friends online who try their best to understand. My problem is that no one does understand, they question why I stay, they tell me to leave, they say he is using me, they worry about me.
What I am hoping will happen here (these forums) is that I will find people who understand, who can share similar experiences and help me feel less alone. A big ask, but I am at the point where I need to know I am not alone in this world of autism.
I love all three of them, I would hate to not have them in my life, I believe they all love me...
