diagnoseme

My cat died a week ago and I miss her so much. I know have a load of different emotions and thoughts going threw me. My mum is more upset about this cat dying then she was the last cat who died and that made me feel upset then I felt guilty because I felt I wasn't caring about the cat who has just died. I then hate how my mum said I don't want just any old cat about this poor cat who is needing a home and is going to have to go and an RSPCA place. Then I started feeling guilty again about thinking of another cat when my beloved Gracie has just died :'( I hate the thought of her been cremated. And I hate how my mum is been nasty about other cats. I want my Gracie back :'( I feel like crying and it's a mixture of I can't and I'm too scared to because of the abuse my dad gives me for crying.

I have phoned the Austism helpline. They have sent me loads of stuff. I have seen my GP and she refused to refure me. Then I complained the the site manager and then she refured me to the mental health team. Almost a fortnight ago I had this assesment where I was asked loads of weird questions and got tested on my numarcy skills and memory. I don't know what is going to happen now. My family have never been able to cope with me and have always been nasty to me about been young for my age. I also got very badly bullied at school and college. As for the question about age I'm 25.

I really wish I could get a diagnosis. I hate been the only aspergers/autistic person with out one. I've had alot of hell threw my life for been different. Too much to post here. Also my family won't except there is anything wrong with me.