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Hehe Thanks Darkshine i will I got college till 9 tonight so am gonna have to sit with that patronising teacher however its good cause it gets me out the house at least I wish you luck hehe ) When is your first test

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Indiscreet - haha "lots of love" do ppl use the abbrv in that way because i think your right and they do Darkshine - I use lmao/lol but as you have noticed in in over use them a lot haha < just like that. Even when somethings not funny i think i use them to reduce tension or create a mellow mood because its hard to interpret someones feelings when over the comp or as i have found out with another use its very hard to decipher there intent to wether they are been nice or nasty so instead i just write lol all the time then people will know am trying to be lighthearted haha ) x What you both been up to indiscreet and Darkshine

not really never knew either words but my i ll play THAW because it looks like HAW and so i visually associated it ) haha lol Thaw

Haha lol I though Dx was diagnosis haha and i know cba is cant be a$$ed haha lol ) just like LOL stands for licking olives and leopards my mam told me that Joking lmao i know lol is laughing out loud haha x x

see so they could feel something lol ) I had this problem today with the woman i was mentioning in my PM . I just felt so out of place and did nt know how to interpret her actions and wether they were good or bad so i found myself muttering utterances too her like "sorry if am acting weird" and the weird thing is i think that bugged her most other wise i dont think she would have minded me Not that i was interested in her to begin with just curious Have you had the test yet

haha my sister done that when she was young she asked my other sister to beat her with a branch and knock her out so she can have a day off school however my other sister done a bad job at knocking her out so much so that there was nt one bruise haha Are you worried about your test? Have you learned what is required? Your right the health service is rubbish Why do you think you dont affect other people as much as they effect you? hugs

Hi Although i have started the process of getting a diagnosis i have came to the point where i am not sure wether to continue or just to be content with been me. How has it changed me and things around me? Well, I suppose although i dont want to admit this it has changed me more than i would have liked. I find that upon finding out about aspergers the first thing i did was blame it for been the misery of my life but then i started to appriciate it more and realised that without having this i would not have survived or coped through the experience i have been faced with. I apriciate myself more and rather than feeling weird i just realise that i am different and so it takes that whole feeling of weirdness away although i still do feel like an alien living in a human world but i realise why i feel like this an it makes me feel a whole lot better. Knowing the cause of my abnormal behaviour puts my mind at ease I have nt read the rest of your questions am going through them one by one so am not sure wether you mean how it has effect people around you but i ll mention this at the end. Do you feel more or less able and have you had support? I feel more able and i have not had support and i dont really want any either however i would like to satisfy my curiosity and get a full on diagnosis but am not sure if its a good idea or if it would make a difference to me and if it did would that difference be for the worst or best How did my family and friends act and do i feel understood? My family and friends dont really notice this and the friends that i have told about this that dont know me very well disbelieve me as they cant see past my barriers or defense mechs but the friends who i let have a peek at how i think and my thought patterns can easily see the symtpoms and believe me but i dont think they see me as different I see myself as different in terms as more able for instance i know i cant stop talking about my experiences in a convo or that i ask more questions than normal peopple but in class i have learned just to write these questions down because its difficult for the teacher to answer them in class and i find that by knowing i talk alot about myself i can be aware of this and aim to talk less about myself so what am saying is i can keep check on myself and try to make a balance What is Dx? How was the experience for you? Depends which experience you mean but in all experiences i have been outcasted but the more i learn about me the more i feel i am accepted and this is happening in college more people are starting to accept me rather than scowl at me I guess i could say i would nt have had any trouble if i was born without this but then i would be wrong cause i would probally still have trouble and if it was nt for having this would i have got through my experience and coped or not? and i dont think i would of so i am appriciative that i have a gift as such i find realtionships hard though and sometimes i just wish i could give everything up just to snuggle up with a woman and be with her forever but then i gotta think hmmm is this really what i was made for "to cuddle" or can i do better and make a whole new life for myself Has anyone else found as issue regarding AS and MH when dealing with professionals? The concillor was ok but the doctor was an arrogant, overpaid, stereotypical judgemental idiot with half a brain and an egocentric god complex he did nt like me at all haha take care

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Haha i was nt hung over then but i am now for some add reason i became really sensitive to light last night when i was intoxicated so i had to go straight home and i can actually feel the sensitivity to light now aswell. its strange and annoying hhahah I use to be like that darkshine but then when i realised that i affect people just as much as peaople affect me it changed my way of thinking about people How you been lately? I have been meaning to post in your topic http://www.asd-forum.org.uk/forum/Index.php?/topic/27297-effects-and-impacts-of-aspergers-diagnosis-or-suspected-diagnosis-in-adults/ but i have nt had a chance yet but i ll definatly get around to doing so tomorrow or tonight

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I understand what you mean what is the root cause of this do you think? th errors of attribution ? negative social reinforcement? nurture or nature? because i can relate to all of what you say just at a lesser extent .i dont think people really effect me much as i hardly interact with many people and when i do its just forced social action its not like its a genuine convo when your talking to the guy next to to you about some football match that you dont really care about at all and the same with people if their proximity is functionally different than mine i wont really care about their personal oppinions because the difference between both people is just 2 very different personalities and so 2 different oppinions and thats why the oppinion from one does nt really hold any relevance too the other because its two different constructs if you know what am saying lol am probally not making sense cause am drunk ) sorry

Thank you Mumble and lol am not faking anxiety what i mean is that sometimes i get so anxious i cant get out of bed and i cant fake or pretend that its not there because it is there no matter how much i pretend its not I think i can just fake the socialising part because i grew up in a house were my brothers and sisters would always have their friends around as i hid in the room and sometimes i would have to appear to go get food or somthing and bump into their friends so had to pretnd to be social haha What do you find the worst about social interaction Darkshine? because i think mine is that i worry too much what the other person is thinking and it it maks me really anxious

@Darkshine- your right i agree that i should try to idle chat with them but i just find it really uninteresting and i run out of things to say and i can tell they think that i think its boring haha hehe am good at "faking it" @Bid - Your right it is hard to be taken serious and yeah i am meeting with a concillor at the minute but i dont think i done the right thing by telling my teacher about AS and your right i think it does sound better if i just state my diffuclties rather than mention AS but i suppose i can fake most of the social interaction part its just the anxiety i cant fake lol Thanks both of you for the advice

p.s . i know what you mean about the pile of sh1te they talk about i mean i bet they look at us and think "why are they thinking about philophical questions that can never be validated they see it as pointless but then were looking back through the mirrow and thinking "why is the person so interested in foot ball or make-up or body building when in the end its not significant to my exsistince and is meaningless" haha life is crazy

Your right thats why what i have learned to do (i dont know wether its right or not) but i just offer my help once and then ignore them and put my head in a book and then i ll observe the person and wait until there stuck and they have been thinking of a solution for a while then i ll offer my help again and then just totally ignore them and back into the book and then the next time they get stuck they will wait for my help but i wont give it so they ll keep waiting in expectation until they realise am not gonna give it so they then try to engage in convo maybe making a compliment in my direction or starting a random convo to disquise that really there trying to ask for help this usually leads to the person realising that unless they attempt to engage in convo with me i wont offer any help unless i am their friend this will then lead them to ask questions about me as they will stop seeing me as strange and start seeing me as kinda "different, eccentric" so there curiosity will make them ask questions about me and if its one thing am good at its talking about myself because i never know when to shut up i just talk about my interests and somewhere along there investigation and my observation we ll find a common interest that can be used as a foundation last year until i quit college because of paranoia i found i had made some friends who stopped looking at me as strange and started to accept me

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Thanks Darkshine i dont think it was intended yo upset me when they said it nor was it to express their feelings towards me but as they said it particularly the person and the reaction of the people on my table i could see they felt uncomfy been around me and instead of looking at me in a friendly way it was more of a glare of observation like i was an animal or something different than them however some of the group have became more friendly with me but its mainly only because i offer my help to them in class and so they befriend me because of that but i guess maybe thats the way friendships develop one action is exchanged for social reward and then the other person offers their friendship as a result which is social action so that in return they can get a social reward of the first persons actions to be repeated if that makes sense like for example : person A: offers informative help on a piece of work that person B was struggling with and as a result person b feels more at ease with person A and finds it rewarding that person A is helping them so they offer social rewards in form of acceptance for person A As a result person A repeats the action in order to get the social reinforcement once again and then person b unconcisuously starts to realise the pattern that the more they befriend person a the more help person a offers and person a undertsand s the more help they offer person b the more person b will befriend them and as a result person a becomes more relaxed and feels like they are starting to fit in which makes their behaviour look less odd i could keep going but it will end up miles long so i ll leave it at that lol Thanks Darkshine x

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The thing i was refering to is similar in effect to speed however its not speed and its available via prescription but other wise is illegal however i dont think the MODS would be happy about me promoting the use of drugs so i wont mention the name of it but the thing i am refering to increases athletes performances by 60 percent its the same with sigmund freud he use to snort enough cocain to kill a horse. he would go " oh so whats the problem and he would sit in listen then take a break for 2 weeks or what ever while he snorts lots of sniff then come back and go hmm i know the answer now dear" lmao i have a really depressive personality and i find stimulants greatly improve me as a person however i have discarded all other stimulants except caffine tablets but they work just fine for now. if you consider these genius people like freud you will just think "wow - not only do they have alot to remeber but they have a lot of info to sort through to decide which is relvant" to be honest i dont think that level of knowledge would be possible with out stimulants i think our mind can only do so much before it needs external aide Anything is bad if not taken in moderation but people generalise this more so with drugs but then if you look at what a drug is you will realise most things are drugs anything from the food you eat to the air you breather a drug is just a substance that has a chemical reaction with your chemistry and is not produced internally by your body and so is externally accumulated and digested lol if i start talking about this i ll end up writting for ever however if you are interested i can provide you a link to another forum i use with relevant details on a post regarding this Take care

Hey Sorry for this brief post - What i said about the dreams may be totally wrong i was just trying to give some examples to help you figure it out yourself. i find that some dreams have lessons in them to learn and others are just my brain processing information i have subconsiously picked up Does your dream make sense to you now? You dont have to feel inferior to anyone..... The woman who tried to put you down , your ex-boss is just a nasty person and i guess its inevitable that we cross their paths sometimes but dont let her make you feel like you are worth anyless. we all have potential and we all individuals and you seem like a clever woman i love science too Do what you love dont let people tell you otherwise i have helped a few of my friends out with buissnesses and before i do they are usally really nice but then as they get the buisness going you can see their eyes change like a glare that you never seen before a hunger for more i think thats greed and i find it turns people nasty but my friends think its productive for buisness however i think that greed is nasty but when i get that same glare that hunger to strive to be more and learn all i can - that is the glare that defines peoples life the glare that says i want to be more than i am and i am not a lazy person so am gonna passioantly rise from this slump and grab this oppertunity in a choke hold and be the best i can . no matter what others think of me. you probally had that glare , that hunger for knowledge too so do what you are passionate about strive to be your best and dont let nasty people like your boss bother you. just be the best you can because thats all we can be and remember that passionate glare that people get when they start out in there journey

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