Deckard Snitch

Thanks for these kind words! I followed up on it. My brother reminded me of how I usually spend time in my own world which I've created years ago when I was 14 or so. It has struck me that I still visit the place every so often, I think I've actually become more depressed since I tried to stop myself from dwelling on it. I also often end up doing repetitive movements. I like to move my fingers around edges. The edge of a table, the edge of a book, the edges of my keyboard keys, I like square shape edges, they make me feel comfortable. Sometimes, I even create imaginative edges at times, and move my thumb accordingly. I do this to clear my mind and/or to think. According to my brother, I also do not speak in a natural tone. I switch between the speed I pronounce words, mid-sentence.

Thank you for your advice. I honestly did not know that Aspergers was not limited to harshness in communicating with people. edit: Found an error my first post. It should say white socks instead of black socks. Sorry about that! Who cares anyway it's a stupid 'rule' that doesn't make sense.

Hello, I'm a 23 year old male. Ever since I was young I've had some social peculiarities. Following are some of the things which are odd about me, and that sometimes, people point out about me as strange: I avoid prolonged contact with people. Whether at school, or work, I have a hard time spending time with others. I've had people try tirelessly to become friends with me. But I avoid them, not because I hate them, but just because I do not see the benefit of hanging out with them. I hesitate to give anyone my number, because I'd rather be alone on a weekend than go out and explore the town or whatever. And if they do somehow get my number, I never respond with a message/call. I spend most of my time at home. I'd rather read/sleep/watch a film/listen to music, than form friendships with people in real life. Sure, I have contact with others on messageboards, but I don't use facebook because it somehow resembles the social environment we have going in real life. I actively avoid the people I know out in the real world. Even if I like them. I just don't understand the way a social gathering works. I mean, so people go out and have fun drinking with their mates, have a party etc. But I just don't get how this idea of talking with other people, about other people, is considered a recreational activity. I like to wear the same clothes. I have two pair of clothes every year or so, that I like to wear. I have a lot of clothes in my wardrobe, but I tend to never wear them. I only feel comfortable wearing one or two pair of clothes. For instance, I have a shirt and trousers which I've been wearing for 3 years now. Not wearing them every day, but wearing them every weekend/days I don't have to work/be in a social situation for instance. What's worse, I don't wear underwear. I wear a trousers, underneath my trousers. It makes me feel comfortable, and I often think about how it doesn't make sense for people to wear underwear. If the objective is to keep parts of your body warm, then why not wear trousers, because they'll keep your legs warm in together with your private regions. Something underwear is obviously not as efficient at. When saying hello/goodbye to others. I often do not know what to say and tend to just repeat what someone else said. So if I am walking with a friend and he says 'okay, thanks, see you later' as we are departing from someone else, I say the exact same thing. Sometimes, I have to talk on the phone. I won't know what to say, unless I spend some time writing down what exactly to say during this phone call. Planning as it were, for whatever might happen. I tend to repeat lines from films/books over and over again in my head, they comfort me, almost as if I am giving advice to myself. Sometimes, accidentally uttering them out loud in a public setting. I spend a lot of time watching documentaries, and know some small, completely trivial, facts which I tend to share with people on the most inappropriate social moments. I find it really hard to tell what people think of me after I leave them. I'm pretty sure I've weirded a few people out. But then, I think about it in another way. Why would the way I behave be considered outrageous? Just because I like to wear different colours of socks ( for instance, when wearing smart clothes, I hardly wear black socks, I don't avoid them, but am perfectly fine wearing green/brown socks). Who made these social rules? Why are they considered precious? Why is it cool to talk about cars and X factor, but not about the age of the universe? Or the fact that birds are dinosaurs? I don't think I have aspergers, since I am never really 'harsh' with people. In fact, I am really considerate, to the extent that it's often said that people take advantage of me. What would you advise a person such as myself?