title sais it all really, I decided to look into aspergers after my autistic training partner left for egypt (long story) because I realised how similar we are in some things and it turns out I have several features - I don't know if I have enough to make me fully aspergers or not and tbh I'm freaking out a little about the whole thing.
oookay, I'm 19 - studying sciences and maths at college - hoping to do theoretical physics next year. one thing that made me suspect I may be autistic in some regard is that my course has an autistic majority, and the higher up you take it the stronger this majority is, but there is more than that. apparently obsessions are a feature and it's definitely one I have, short and long term. in addition to martial arts and video games I solve more than a dozen types of twisty puzzles (from rubiks cubes to terraminxes, where a terraminx is the biggest twisty puzzle ever to be made commercially), write codes and play chess and thud, each with varying levels of obsession over time. short term wise I've learnt to paint, draw, make origami, throw knives, juggle different knives, cook, write, free run, design multiple games and create a series of towers out of spaghetti and jelly babies the tallest of which was over seven feet from the ground. I'm very into philosophy and science and tend to view the world in a very analytical, logical way that I've read about as being related to autism. the stuff I read just seemed to be me, with things like the tendency to get out of my depth when there's more than one other person there, a desire for rules and highrachy, some technical name referring to an attachment to close spaces and sleeping bags, a strong aversion to being interrupted, a strong sense of social justice and a tendency to defend concepts and ideas - and that's just off the top of my head!
I am going to get a professional opinion at some point, but given my families weirdness, having been brought up as an ex-pat in belgium, a childhood diagnosis of dyspraxia, issues with depression and ME, and my own unconventional nature, tendency to overcome, high intellect and bisexuality I don't exactly have high hopes.
what was I meaning to ask? that's difficult, because it goes along the lines of "everything". do you guys think I do have aspergers and how would I tell would be a damn good start, but the only reason I'm not writing more questions is that the list goes on and on and I have no idea how they should be prioritised
PS: I've remembered something I should have put up there somewhere - I have, the easiest way to describe it is a sort of autograph in my head, only not just for graphs. sometimes I can see trends as physical things, other times I can plot graphs in my head or write collections of algebraic terms on a board that I can't see but can sort of feel, with the same kind of sense that tells you where not to put your feet if you close your eyes in a room you know. I once dreamed about a rubiks cube that I could vividly see and feel, and at other times I can create simple four dimensional (at least they feel like four dimensional pictures look) shapes - does anybody else get any of that??
