Hi all - I'm new to this forum and to mental health issues in general but i just thought I'd share my experiences and see what people thought.
9-10 months i finally went to the GP because my depression (and related problems) had finally become too much for anyone to deal with. Background wise I'm 31 and have never felt like I fit in. In all honesty my life has been hell and it eventually got to be too much and I snapped (as the fist shaped holes in my flats door will testify too). Anyway, the doctor put me on one kind of anti depressant drug and referred me to the adult psychology department.
I waited months before getting an appointment and then spent a few months being bounced from person to person because they couldnt figure out what to do with me (as it turned out the people I was referred to dealt with people with short time depression, ie you're sad cos you're dog died).
At this point my mates friend suggested Aspergers as an answer - her son was going through assessment for it and she recognised many of the "symptoms" I was displaying as being similar. This was the first time I'd ever even encountered the word and it came as something of a revelation in that it finally made things make sense. I was eventually assessed by a "long-term" psychologist and mentioned this to him - I was supposedly refferred for "social phobia, social anxiety and possible developmental problems on the autistic spectrum, most likely Aspergers". For the first time in my life it felt like someone was listening to me and I felt, not good but at least... satisfied that things were progressing. I took a written test and then waited...
After 2 months I was back to nearly snapping. I was put on different drugs and told once again to wait, hardly a satisfying response...
Eventually I was given an appointment with someone on a supposedly regular basis. But now I feel like my input is being ignored. Every time I mention Aspergers he dodges the subject. I still dont know the result of my test and it feels like every time i even mention the word he wants to talk about something else. For the first time I finally feel like I've found an explanation for "me" and yet my doctor doesnt want to have anything to do with it.
Basically I'm wondering if anyone elese has had a similar experience and what should I do about it? Part of me wants to start screaming and push the subject and the other part of me doesnt want to cause a fuss and to just leave things as they are. Specifically I have been off work now for 3 months (just because of my current inability to cope) and no one will give me any advice as to whether to go back or not, but that seems to be because no one will admit one way or another whether my problems are because of Aspergers or not.
Anyway, I've rambled enough and I'll just say any advice would be appreciated...
