Im dissappointed as i wanted to get my intro right first time, but messed it up, i couldn't find the right words, or think of all my problems. Im shy, very sensitive, and find critiscism hard (i critiscise myself all the time tho) but i fall apart when other people say anything bad, and i go into self destruct mode and stay like it for ages.
I have sensory issues, loud noise, background noise irritates me, especially clapping on tv programmes (what's the point of it!) heat/ cold really gets to me, certain foods, textures, and fabrics stresses me out. (and when ive got my mind fixed on having a certain thing to eat from the supermarket, only to find they haven't got it, i get really annoyed, and puts me out for a long time!
Im slow to get things, have a processing delay. Change stresses me, i like familiarity, or i feel anxious, need things done in order or i feel 'out of sorts'
Being in groups is terrifying, i struggle to join in, and make eye contact. When i can just about manage eye contact, i wonder if im staring, suddenly it hits me 'am i staring' (i mean, how long is looking at someone before being classed as staring?!) when i can talk, i realise when its too late, that ive gone on too much, as people make excuse to leave, i never learn.
When in not at work, (im a carer, which has loads of things i struggle with) im lost, as the work routine is gone, i just drift around, no structure to the day, i try to do housework, but find that overwhelming:( wish i could be efficient and organised, always struggled
Anyway, think that's enough said, sorry for long post, i said i talk too much !
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