Rushed

Hi Emily, Thanks for your amazing post, your great at giving advice, i have written down a few things you have said When i first went back to school, i was made such a fuss off, i was never left alone. They were expecting me to take small steps and only start off with a small timetable, but because i had made such progress much sooner than expected, within a few weeks was back in school all the time and had re joined most of my old classes. The support bit by bit was taken away, but i would always have someone their who could help if a problem arose and to help me during my ''catching up'' hours. I too make the mistake of thinking everyone else can see when i'm worried/Stressed so i never complain if i am struggling with something, nothing was ever made offical and i think it was agreed, i would only get the support until i was back on my own to feet, and it was expected i would go back to my old self, i had never had any support in school until my 2nd year of high school. Their was a meeting about this yesterday after i explained it too my mum, but nothing really came out of it just that they were ''short staffed'' and they ''at the moment other need help more than me'' so at the moment it does look like i'm fighting school solo, but there was some good news i will now be seeing my support woker every week and work we start on trying to rebuild my confidence, so *fingers Crossed* this will be the start of something good for 2007 I will try and keep you updated Thanks again everyone

Hi I'm 16 and still at school.

Hi There.. Sorry but i just need somewhere to vent and people were great at giving advice last time.. Basically when my school Broke up i was feeling positive, i was at last settling back into school getting used to seeing all my friends. I was told after the holidays work would start on my ''coping skills'' which would help me now and in the future. I was also told i would be working with somone to try and get my confidence back. So i went back to school and things have just fallen apart again! I feel like everything i thought i had solved was back to square one, i have been feeling stressed since i went back, but then i met with my support worker, who i had been working with and my support teacher, i was told the support could not be put in place at the moment, and to make maters worse my support teacher who helps me so much when i have a problem and when i'm feeling down, will be working with a new pupil from now on and i will only be working with her a few hours a week, which means she will no longer be avalible when i have a problem, so i'm on own my own in school, they thought i was at the stage where i could ''cope on my own most of the time'' But then my support worker took me aside and said that she is soo sorry, but ''i hold the key to my future'' and she said that she knows i'm not getting the support i should be getting, i just could of cried at that moment, but i just said goodbye to her and left (who knows when i'll see her again) The Problem with me is, no one seems to care how i am, as long as i look ok (which i always do) they just assume i am ok and no one asks if i'm ok anymore. I'm just not really sure where to go from here

Hi everyone... Wow thanks for all the amazing reply's, sorry i have taken so long to reply, i have been away for a few days and to my suprise i had the most amzing time ever. What you have all said has made alot of sense and i just wish everyone else could understand me like you do. At the moment i'm just very confused as to what i Can't do and what i don't want to do, for a while now my mum had been planning to stay at a friends for the weekend, and like every other time i'm offered to go anywhere outside where i live, i gave the usual straight no, but for a complicated reason i had to go. I was shocked at how much fun i had, i live in a village in the middle of nowhere, but being in a city was amazing. I just felt free, i could walk into town go into a shop, i even did the things i hate the most, like getting the bus on my own. I even went for a walk with people i had never met and talked to them like i would my mum, when i feel confident i sometimes think i get over confident! yes i was nervous doing all these things but doing them made me feel so much better. My mum was gobsmacked at how happy i was during the 4 days i was there. Anyway, my point of posting all this was, i think i get it into my head that i ''can't do it'' but when i do it it's not that bad,

Hi their I have been reading this forum for a matter of weeks now and i have been unsure if it's only for adults with children with AS, So sorry if under 18's are not allowed to post. My story is i'm 16 i was given the diagnosis of AS back in april, after a year off seeing endless psycologists. I was told once i was given a diagnosis thing would be ''so much better'' but for me they only seem to have got worse. but to go abit further back in my life, i would say i just just like every other kid i did all the usual kid things, went out with friends, i was never indoors, i would chat away to anyone and i was like this until i hit 12, then click my life just feel to pieces my confidence hit an all time low and i withdrew myself from everything and everyone! I stopped going outside, for a period of time i stopped going to school. So as i was in my house (alone most of the time) my confidence bit by bit was shrinking, so i was taken to the doctors then to a psycologist and we talked for weeks on end, but they could not seem to come up with a reason, why i was finding everything so hard. Until someone else got involved and they were finally able to dig deep and pin point where my problems were. Which later led to my diagnosis of AS, since then i have had loads of help in settling back at school and covering my family problems, but i just don't feel any better, i still get nervous around new people and i start shaking if i'm standing infront of a large crowd, i don't go out much and i am nervous if i have to go on public trasport on my own. But another problem is on appearance i'm just like everyone else, people have expectations off me to be this druggie, trouble maker, sporty guy but i'm not like that at all, i just keep myself to myself and stay within my small group of (lovely) friends who also do not know i have AS. All my problems are on the inside, no one see's how much stress i got through on simple things, but more than anything i just want my confidence back and i can start living my life like it should be instead of feeling awful all the time. Although i have AS i don't think i should be this bad? Thanks x