Dg1977

thank you minxygal and clare63; i think i will look into the suggestions; there was a topic posted about why adults feel the need for a diagnosis; i think it would help me just to see if I could attribute (but not blame) my actions and behaviours to something. after all, people go to doctors to find out if they can put a reason behind a pain. Clare - you made an interesting reference about lack of emotion; I've always found it hard to understand what emotion to give at a certain time and i guess that can seem cold... it's funny but my boss laughed at me the other week and joked that if i won the lottery i would just sit there with the same expression on my face - she was shouting over the desk "you've won the lottery, you've won the lottery" - i didnt know where to put myself.. ha ha. i presume it must come more naturally to some than others but i wonder if thats a male trait also. anyhow I mustnt waffle on..

Thanks Lisa.. thats nice of you

Hello Firstly I need to say I've probably spent the past 48hrs deciding how best to type this post and I can almost guarantee I will get it wrong - which is probably a big reason as to why I wanted to join this forum in the hope that I may be able to get some outlet/advice for dealing with a feeling that seems to be getting worse. I don't wish to lay all of my problems out in a post; that wouldn't be fair to you guys who no doubt have more important issues to face. I am however reaching the point where I don't know where to go in order to talk about my concerns over how I react to people/life. I'm 29 and have always felt different/outside and alone from anyone. I think because I have always put it down to being some sort of depression that I never sought to think that it could be a behavour problem. The real turning point has come this year... I don't have any contact with my dad anymore but my mum was talking to me a few months ago and it has been pretty much said to her that he has Aspergers - looking into it and thinking about his behaviour since I can remember from when I was young; it almost knocked me over. I am pretty much my dad through and through in terms of behaviour (possibly explaining the estrangement) and this has just felt like a bolt of lightening. I think I want to talk it through with somebody. I didnt go into specific detail but someone at work gave me a number for general counselling; I didnt ring it though because I knew they wouldnt listen to me properly over the phone and I know if I picked up a phone now I would make a hash of explaining whats wrong. Anyhow - is there anyone out there who suddenly became aware that they may have this and how did you go about seeing/talking to someone about it? It's actually scary when I think about the things I do to get by - I'm even extremely embarassed to say that I have a tendancy to mimic peoples accents for about as long as I remember; I don't even know why anymore - i think it makes me feel like I fit in for some odd reason. I'm really sorry to post such a messy topic but would appreciate the advice, even if it is to say I am just stupid for even contemplating the thought that I may have a problem such as this. Theres no one I can talk to though so I thought maybe someone has had a similar experience. thanks for your time anyway DG