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I've been feeling pretty low today. I'm in one of 'those' positions again where I feel there is a gulf between the way I am expected to feel and how I actually feel. I'm also in one of 'those' positions when I don't think anyone would have the slightest idea about why I don't feel the way I 'should'. We've had an informal parent's group for some time now. I was starting to feel that I was perhaps going to have longterm friendships with people in the group and the group has been a great way to get all the kids together out of school. The group was growing in a slow, steady and fluid way and I felt at ease with this. Recently, people joining in with activities were not all parents and kids from our kid's school which I felt was healthy. About a week ago, some mums went out for a meal. The main topic of conversation turned out to be that someone else had been offered money to get a project off the ground but couldn't take it forward for various reasons. The money was therefore being offered to us but in order to get it we had to become a charitable organisation, form a committee and have a plan etc about how to take the group forward. My heart sank right there and then. Everyone else was excited and I knew I should be too but all I could think of was the politics, the agendas, the arguments and all the other cr4p that goes along with a formal group. My heart sank further when one of the mums dissed my view that dads should be involved and stated categorically that higher functioning kids were catered for locally and so our group wouldn't target this group but kids with more severe problems and that the name of the group should 'definitely' have ASD in it. Given that my own son is diagnosed high functioning and there are kids with other problems who have been coming along I just thought 'Here we go'. A decision has now been reached that the group will be open to kids from special needs schools only. One of the mums whose two kids attend mainstream asked about this...she's not been involved in discussion since. Various names were put forward for the group and this discussion was still ongoing and the person who had made the suggestion said so then all of a sudden, literally a few minutes later, the name of our Facebook group was changed and all the decisions that have been reached thus far were announced - from what I can see, pretty much an executive decision. I feel like just dumping the whole thing, unfriending everyone on fb and not going to anything but I know that would be no good for my son. It's just so not what I needed right now. I think my silence is speaking volumes. I'm not really looking for advice or anything...I know my issues are to do with it all changing and changing so quickly, the fact that this all reminds me of my last disasterous committee stint and that I now have to deal with those who are making decisions over the heads of everyone else under the guise of everyone having an equal say reminding me of every job I've ever had! Cr4ppity-cr4p