hi again nihaela,
i was quite glad to log on and read your compassionate understanding reply.
i typed that stuff the other day in a moment of despair, and the next morning instantly regretted it.
(i figured I'd just be instantly banned from the site for saying stuff like that!)
now it's a new day, and the stimulus for me saying that comment has abated, i regret the way i phrased it.
.....and i respect the site for leaving it up :-)
i think i just said it because i'd had a bad couple of "social" days, where I'd failed, and failed, and failed again :-(
but now i've had a couple of good days, when i've done good things, and people (in real life) are valuing me, i don't feel so down on myself, so don't wish i wasn't born :-(
ty for plugging in the reply there! it's much appreciated.
but just so you know, since you share a lot of your personal stuff on here,
my father is inhuman. he's a monster. he's very good at practical stuff, but when it comes to being a dad emotionally, he's "zero".
my mum's wonderful though. she's the best mum ever.
all the best.