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Hi thank you for your reply work are aware and my work is supposed to be written down for me every monday moning so that i know what to do, im supposed to have this meeting so that i can discuss any problems but it just isn't happening. It is hard to book the work in because it all depends on the tenants handing in there keys and this doesn't always happen when it is supposed to. I think i might have to have a word with some one about it at work, but im not sure what they can do. Just good to sound off a bit as i don't know now when i will see my therapisty person again at the moment. thanks robo

Hi every one work has been quite stable for a while now they have decided to do another mearger with a very big company. This means more changes instabilty and upset. Due to this im seeing some one to talk to once every two weeks but i had a bad week last week. I normaly get givern my work always empty propertys for me to do electrical checks on. Last wee they ran out and no one had any other work for me, i started to get stressed as i didn't know what i should do and no one was telling me. I was really worried that i might have to go and do work in occupied propertys this is really had for me as it makes me really anious as you don't know them and what they might do i have had a few incidents thats why i do emptys. My mind was like a spit fire that had been shot i was heading for the ground on fire. All the thoughts of past problems and self harm thoughts came rushing back im also finding dark days are effecting my mood. I was going to discuss all this today with my listener. I left work early to make my appointment only to find that she is off and all the paitents had been contacted to cancel them but i had had nothing. Any suggestions would be great. I had chest pains felt sick and really tired. Things are looking better as we have had lots of empty propertys this week but it was quite scarry. Robo

Wow, that was all a bit heavy !!, sometimes life gets you down and you just need to let off steam. Interesting to know what other people think, The reason i stay in the relationship is that it would comply screw me up if i got devorced it is against my principles i said for better or for worse till death us do part. Daniel

I know exactley what you mean im tired of people keep moving the goal post so i never seem to achieve the right out come at work. daniel

Hi does any one else have aspergers and are married to a Non AS person. Life gets so confusing, i have givern up with valentines day, for years i have bought flowers ect and been ignored, i might be lucky and get a rushed box of chocs from round the garage. it realy confuses me its nothing like it is on the telly. Also we have three kids 3,7and 9 so much noise and constantly trying to work out whats expected of me and what i should be doing, always on edge. if your not married i would really not bother its a night mare with no way out. Daniel

Hi all thank you so much for your suggestions. I do find it really hard just to ask these sort of questions, there seems to be a complete block with talking personal things so writing a card might be a good idea and flowers. Some times i feel the need to give some one a hug but it feels like there is an actual wall preventing me. Its hard to describe. I am going to take the day off work for the funeral, as the kids are going to come as well apart from the youngest. the kids are 9, 7, and 3 years old. Anyway thanks again Daniel

My wifes best friend/adopted mother has died today. what am i supposed to do ! she keeps crying i can't look at her and i just want things to be normal. I have a blank in my head there are no rules in my rule book for this, no ruotine. Daniel

I was watching this with my wife it was a bit aquared as she doesn't recognise my consultant psycs diagnoises, Its good there starting to highlit these issues.

Hi i was on Citalapram the highest dose 60mcg but i tryed to get of them when i got to 20 things got really bad again, im now on velafaxin 37mcg x2 per day but i thing it might need uping as work is not stable they keep changing /updating/ improving ect that does my head in and winter is always hard going. I did manage to switch all thoughts off when i was on the citalaprim but it was effecting my function down below.

Hi thank you for your replys, i am still deciding weather to ask for more help, work are discussing various things that might make me decided. Feeling better at moment. Thank you Daniel

Thank you for you reply, its good to share things like this, I do have OCD i have had CBT but some times the thoughts just over run you. Thanks Daniel

Hi Everyone Does any one else have constant thoughts like, I can't do this any more, constant thoughts that some thing bad is going to happen but you don't now what. Feeling really pressured like what ever you do its never ever going to be good enough. feeling watched and judged all the time ect ect. All day long, i just want the noise to stop. Daniel

Went to CMHT spoke to the person that did CBT he said it sounds like ive got into the circle trap of thoughts he said to try and consentrait on what im doing and talk trough it in my head ie im picking up the screw driver and im going to undo this cable ect. He said see if that helps and to contact him in a weeks time to tell him how im doing, he said im not wasting his time. I also got a call from access 2 abilty which do the work based assessments i have a meeting on the 9th september. so things might be ok thanks Daniel

thank you for your replys im going to contact them today. let you know how it goes daniel

Im still struggling at work im keeping a diary as i have an abilty 2 work assessment, i want to show what sort of problems i have at work. But things are changing to quickly at work and i feel like im up to my mouth in sinking sand. I had contact with CMHT i had CBT and every thing was rosy. If i contact them i will feel like i have failed them but if i don't then i could sink so low that i can't work. last time work put me of sick for seven months i do not want to be off work. I DON'T NOW WHAT TO DO I feel so stupid when i discuss problems with my charge hand i feel like a baby winging on. Robo