Jason6404

yeah I guess so, it's just that I felt like I was on my own for a while, I tried my parents, they just think i'm an idiot. it's cause I could tell that my mom has a PDD too and shes really hard headed, I try to tell her and she just tells me that I'm telling her that because I want to be put on a drug. and I dont think my dad would care or do anythnig knowing that he lives in another province. So I'm pretty much on my own. I know there is somewhere out there where I can get help, but I dont know where.

thanx phasmid, it's just that samaritans dont have the knowledge to understand my problems, they go way beyond what an uneducated person could understand, much less repair. I dont even think there is a way to fix this. ah well, I brought this on myself, I dont wanna waste no samaritans time for this. someday tho, it'll finally do me in.

yeah, I know, one problem that I have that will problably do me in tho is my eating disorder, I would get treatment but it wont help, I was born with eating problems because of my sensory issues, I remember having a problem with food as far back as I was young. I really dont know what to do about that. Cause my teeth are starting to decay because of it and I'm starting to get sudden heart palpitations wich keep getting worse, it's sad to have this at the age of 18, I'm crying right now because of it, I can't stand up anymore without feeling faint. I think I'm done for soon. and if you look at my posts you can problably tell that I'm bi-polar too.

thanx you guys, <'> oh, hey elanor that pic is cute lol, I like cats. I have 4 of them lol, they mean everything to me.

hey, sry about being so negative, elanors right, I really do need to lay off the joints. I used to be a lot more depressed. ut it's not that bad anymore, I'm actually starting to get better at social skills and what not. over the last 6 months, I did really good. I have more friends and I'm not always depressed. <'>

I used to be exacly like that, I would try to enjoy myself in social situations, but I'd make an idiot of myself or/and get into a fight. I'm afraid that being myself isn't going to cut it on this pathetic planet. I liked myself at a time, but I also had more NTs then ever hate me at that time. so here I am now, 18 years of constant insults, laughter towards me, getting beat up constantly, 2 suicide attempts, I have problems beyond beleive caused from my past and from when I was born. mentally, emotionally, socially, you name it, I got it. I don't even think like a human anymore. Now I've turned into a machine, talk, act, move, everything I do is like a script, I have to debate for like 5 minutes on wheather or not to say or do something in a social situation. I have no choice, if not, the NTs will get me one way or another. I'm also hypersensitive to almost all of my sensory imputs. I hate it, I hate certain smells, I can't eat at least half of all the foods, I had an eating disorder for 5 years. I freak out if someone touches me. I can't sleep if theres a little noise for someone like me, enjoying life is not an option. I hate to say it, but my internal wiring dosent give me any other choice. NTs are like the predators to me, they have little antennas that pick up on their pray. you might tell me that I need help, but help wont do nothing. The only thing that can take my pain away is to disapear, to die. I know someday I'll eventually have enough will power to commit suicide, I hope that day is soon.

thats pretty interesting, I was positive for almost all the hypersensitive ones.

I was curious to know if AS caused eating problems, I think that there is a relation because I've had eating problems all my life. I currently suffer from bulimia wich has gone on for 5 years. I strongly beleive that it's cause of my AS, I'm intolerant to at least half of all foods.

hey, thanx, yeah it's no problem for me or nothing, we get along really good, he does some odd things but it's nothing. And if anythying, it's him that helps me lol, he's a really good friend. I was jus curious cause we get along fine and everything, and usually thats not that case with me and any NT, I though maybe cause we live by the same social rules and what not, but I dont think so cause he keeps to himself a lot but I remember him bringing up something to me about being able to tell when a girl likes him the first minute she talks to him. I notice that he has good social skills too, much better then mine at least. Another factor that puts him into autism is that he has pretty bad verbal skills and a low IQ, The opposite of me. I'm also really good with computers and math, and he's really not, I'm at his house every second day fixing his computer lol. I notice too that he's really good with his coordination, another opposite to me, I remember, the first time he tried, he rolled a perfect joint! something I still can't do to this day. I also notice that he's pretty good in sports unlike me. He can also easily get a girlfriend. and as you can problably guess, I can't. I'm 18 years of age and I never came close to a girl in my life, nothing more then a friendly touch. I know it sucks, I deal with this pain everyday. knowing I can't get a girlfriend because I'm too dysfunctional. I dont even try anymore. But anyways, back on the topic, I was just curious, is there a certain type of personality that typically gets along really good with aspies. Like is there another syndrome that has traits that are somewhat the opposite of AS? I dont know, but it's a hard call, he has some autistic traits but some stuff can't be explained. But one things for sure, I know he has to have something, cause he wouldn't be my best friend any other way, it just dosent work that way with NTs.

hey, I'm 18, I have AS, I think that my best friend has HFA, he's like the opposite of me, everything I'm good at he's really not, like computers, math, and same for me... fine coordination, I notice too that he dosent have the best verbal skills. and if it's not autism what is it?