binge eating /weight problem?

[smiley1590]

i'm 19 year old female i binge eat at night think when over think too much gets me either anxious or depressed so lets out frustration that i think links back to AS! i always been 'slighty obese' i walk from my home to college everyday which approx is 1 mile there and 1 mile back! but have hip ,hamstrings and gait problems struggle to walk as in pain i get back ache and out of breathe i want to go gym but i scared and anxious of self-image then get paranoid everyone's looking,laughing and staring right at me! i very insecure i have low self-esteem grrr ... feel so scared of my future as got so many genetical family problems in my family and i have alot people in my family 'overweight' i'm big boned don't think ever going to be 'dead thin' as such like my brother and sister and they eat pure junk they quite tall where i'm rather short! like my mum and got body structure like my mum too!

 

i got my pyschtrist soon tuesday 2nd june at 3pm at Adult MH team im'm scared he pick up on my weight and negatively comment on how bad it is which then knocks me down literally i get depressed once again! i eat bananas,fruit juice have dinner , maybe problem is when wake up early don't have breakfast or lunch if so anxious or depressed i don't feel hungry just tired and fed up with who and what i am! i look in mirror and replused and disgusted at what i see don't feel like it's my physical body! i maybe thought of major operation like liposuction,gastic band i want do something before too late back and change! i don't want to be ashamed of my body i have stretchmarks i'm size 16 in clothes don't feel attractive feel ugly and worthless! i've tried starving myself my body as feel did't deserve food my mind thinks all kinds stupid thoughts i put myself through feels like my body a prison of hell! feel like a hippo!

 

should i go docs ask to see specialist? could be thyroid probs? or just pure weight prob? -i'm so confused want it sorted ASAP!driving me mad love clothes to feel comfortable nice againist my skin! i feel like shrek the ogre! should look at my diet? calorie intake? is it slow melobism? my mum's on diet pills and she battle with right size for years so is in genes?

 

anyone have similiar situation to mine a parent ,yourself? that give advice and help me pleasei'd be grateful for many replies as possible!

 

XKLX

[Tally]

Unless you're less that four foot tall, a size 16 is really not fat!

 

I don't think your problem is a physical one. It sounds like you are getting so stressed/anxious/upset that you can't eat, and then later in the day you are eating as a coping mechanism. Getting some help with your anxiety and depression could help with this. But I think you also need to talk to someone about how you feel about your body. It sounds as though you may have the beginnings of an eating disorder.

 

If you want to lose weight, you basically need to exercise more and eat less.

 

Regular meals are important. Even if you don't feel like eating, try to have a small snack like a slice of toast or a piece of fruit. This might get your appetite working earlier in the day and enable you to spread your eating more evenly.

 

If you are binging on unhealthy foods, don't have them available. Instead, have healthy snacks on hand in case you feel you need to eat.

[call me jaded]

There is no easy way and it's better to lose weight slowly than go for the 'I want it now'. Weight lost slowly stays off. Quick losses come back to bite you in the bum.

 

So much of it is what's going on in your head. You have to understand the how and the why. I was rewarding hard work by saving a small food treat for the end of the day.

 

When my littlest one started nursery I took myself in hand and decided it was time to lose the 'baby fat'. It has been a long slow process but I have now lost 25lbs and I have to say to do it I only eat two meals a day: breakfast and dinner with a couple of pieces of fruit through the day. This isn't what the dieticians tell you to do but it really is the only thing that worked for me.

 

I also cycle which is better than the gym because you can't give up - you have to cycle home. It's also about building things into your everyday routine. I had a gym membership but gave it up because the hour-and-a-half was taking so much out of my day it was leaving me no time to live and I was resenting it.

 

Also these celebs that say they just took a few things out of their diet and exercised more are exaggerating to get you to buy their product. They have had professional help, some of it surgical.

[Sally44]

Size 16 is not obese. Marilyn Monroe (if you know who she was) was a size 16. Men think she is gorgeous.

Getting help with the anxiety/stress and maybe depression(?) will help with the 'not eating all day'.

Not eating all day is not good because your body will be starving by the evening and will be craving the kinds of foods that are not healthy.

If you are losing appetite due to anxiety etc, do you think it might help to make a meal plan in the evening for the next day. Even if you just think about what you will eat at breakfast then it is more likely to happen.

Could someone go with you to look around a couple of gyms? If you go and visit one you will see that all shapes and sizes of people go there.

Or are there any other physical activities you would like to try eg. climbing, cycling, swimming, martial arts etc.

[smiley1590]

i think depression and anxiety are main source to my eating pattern i do see a MH OT at local hospital she helps with self-confidence /esteem have brought up my weight my pyschtrist weighted me and said i was mildly obese this title of labelling scares i don't want to be obese! grrr.... i would like try physical activities as help improve skills that affected by my dyspraxia!yeh i know who maryln monroe was i don't think she was fat! but i always seen my body as fat! i hate my body feel trapped i had alot terminal illnesses and deaths in my life in my family!?

 

getting stressed over looking for job at the moment i getting frustrated i'm struggling to cope i scared everyone looks at me my body my life and laughs i know i very insecure and suffer from ED type thinking! i self-harm i feel thinking this things are another form to punish myself i can't look when walk past windows and see my reflections i can't bear the way i look and all i see fat and ugliness! my family going through several rough patches at the moment so struggling to cope under the pressure everything's get me depressed but hide well beneath a smile! and i'm ok! i was bullied in past and feels this comes back to haunt me wish skinny like my brother and sister and friends!

[smiley1590]

i can't be anorexic too fat for that! i heard of BED -binge eating disorder i'm scared turned into that worried how MH will cope under strain the future!

[Tally]

There are many types of eating disorder, and you might have one which is not specifically defined. If you are alternately bingeing and starving, and believe that a size 16 is grossly overweight, then you have some problems which aren't going to go away on their own. You really do need to talk to someone about this because the sooner you address it, the easier it will be to solve.

[smiley1590]

yeah it is disappearing on it's own really! i do believe my size massively overweight! you mean ED which has no name at the moment? is common for girls with AS to get ED's due to low-self-esteem ,depression n anxiety? do you think there close link behind this?

 

thanks for information and advice given already! do you think i should tell adult MT pyshctrist? or MH OT i see more regularly trust more? gettin an NAS key worker soon! this may help on anti depressants could this not be helping me weight?

 

thanks once again!

XKLX

[smiley1590]

i hide the bingeing like shameful sceret like self-harming habit in way become an addiction which love buzz gives me inside makes me feel alive real but then feel sickening guilt shame embarrassment i would go to crazy lengths to curb my weight! i always been chunky!

[Squirrel]

If you are at all worried about your weight, or eating habits, etc. then I can really strongly recommend,

www.weightlossresources.co.uk

(I'm using it for the third time)

 

It is an online resourse where you can log your food intake and the exercise you do.

There is a 24 hour free trial which lets you look all around the site without giving away any payment details, it's then around £2.50 a week (cheaper if you get three or six months at a time) which is less than a magazine a week or one exercise class ....

 

Unlike any faddy or risky diet sites this merely gives you the information and puts you firmly in control. You can choose whether you want a weight loss and how slowly or quickly to take it (within about 4 choices) and it will tell you how many calories a day that allows you, you can gain extra calories each day by exercising. It is used by people wanting to gain weight and people on cholestrol reducing diets or similar as well. You can access a nutritional profile for what you are consuming - I found that I eat proportionally too much protein.

 

There is a message forum like this one, and a whole board of people with eating disorders who support each other to remain in control of their diet, rather than their diet controlling them. (Most of them are on 'maintenance' calories or are trying to gain weight and then to remain stable)

 

There is also a LOT of different articles about dieting and food and healthy lifestyles in general.

 

From your post ....

Mildly obese is just that, mild - a gentle pointer in the direction ... So, you are not the IDEAL weight for your height at the moment but it's not a terrible situation, there is a scale that goes up another three or four stages to 'morbidly obese'.

 

Missing meals is very bad for blood sugar levels - which affect mood, concentration and self control ... (So would contribute towards depression and, I'm guessing, the AS needs) The single biggest improvement to your diet would be to eat a little meal every 3 hours. You could have snacks like fruit or more substantial ones like cheese and crackers or nuts or whatever you fancy. (My son likes wrapping wafer thin ham around a breadstick at snacktime!)

 

Giving your body a steady supply of food at regular intervals during the day may also prevent the binging .... I know that I save myself some calories for the evening time because I do, always, fancy something sweet once I've got the kids in bed. So I just allow for it by eating slightly smaller meals earlier on. To be very simple it would be not having a dessert with dinner because I absolutely know that I will be wanting that dessert two hours later ....

 

Hope that makes sense (and there is nothing in it for me with promoting WLR, I just really appreciate using them!)

Helen

[smiley1590]

i never knew not eating would link to mood depression i do often feel weak tired and dizzy so i suppose that my physcial signs of drop in sugar levels! what your self-control and AS needs? im scared and worried i get to stage where i am morbidly obese though! cause great anxiety and stress in back of mind! XKLX

[Tally]

I don't think it's important WHO you tell, because they will discuss your treatment with each other anyway. I think the most important thing is that you tell the professional you feel most comfortable telling.

 

Your GP might be able to give you some advice on healthy eating, or even refer you on to a specialist dietician. This might also help to elleviate your fears about becoming morbidly obese.

 

Some antidepressants can cause weight gain, but I think in your case, the weight gain is likely to be caused by the binge eating. Some antidepressants can cause a loss of appetite. If you are taking your antidepressants first thing in the morning, it's possible they are the reason for your loss of appetite, which wears off later in the day.

[smiley1590]

i used take ones in morning when first had depression i now take anti-depressants at night!? would dietcian be on the NHS or would i have to pay?what do i tell professional? as feel my MH is slipping away once again scary feeling it gives and try stop it from coming! sounds stupid and silly i know!

XXX