smiley1590 Report post Posted May 21, 2011 i had C.B.T at CAMHS for a while from clinical pyschologist just after my diagnosis now having it again but with different MH professional NAS pyschologist both times felt no real connection link and can't seem get my head around it to adjust to it! i feel like both times they jump to assumptions /conclusions /judgements which sometimes don't fit when try to explain these are pushed to one side to explain their POV just get so defensive angry annoyed as feel like getting no where going round and round and silently deeply 'crying out' for help they tell me how i think and feel when i don't even know how i do myself! i so mixed up about it all! trying hard stick with it! and tried 2nd time round keep an open mind with it all feels like diaster feel like i'm crashing down fast speed feel overwhelmed trapped suffocated and leading to no where! do you think i'm being harsh maybe? trying give it chance but feel like people trying work out my head i know that their job drives me mad crazy! anyone else felt this way about CBT? XKLX Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
bid Report post Posted May 23, 2011 they tell me how i think and feel when i don't even know how i do myself! It may be that they are trying to help you identify your emotions. If you can stick with it, they may help you to understand your feelings better. Bid Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
smiley1590 Report post Posted May 23, 2011 i don't feel like making any steps towards progress though that the thing! like living in fog a maze trying work 'everything' out just push it away as stressful pushes me extreme breaking point emotionally come out of pyschology CBT sessions with a headache and head pounding going round and round! i should feel i getting somewhere seems as this my 2nd go at it! will it ever feel like it working! this time ain't 'blocked' up barriers in the way so much and still hard tough didn't expect be easy hurdles but don't see any way forward! XKLX Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tally Report post Posted May 24, 2011 CBT doesn't involve looking deeply into all your feelings. With CBT you very much "chip away" at individual issues one by one. If you are having difficulties, you should talk about it with your therapist. They won't be offended. Maybe you need to take things a little bit slower and try to work out what issue you should focus on first. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
smiley1590 Report post Posted May 26, 2011 had another session today it's from 12.30-1.30pm she saying about having us time me and my mum girlie night but our relationship isn't like that and never has been trying to explain as my mum puts her barriers up and says either too busy too much to do or that she has a bad back which is true just feel she blocks me pyschologist said i should try and make an effort with our relationship but i havn't mentioned difficulties between me and my mum so baffled why she suggest such ideas as me and my mum are contented happy way things are! so bit confused really!? she said me and my sister should get together and arrange like pamper session painting finger nails and toe nails face masks we never done this and don't feel i should change this? is something ain't broken why try and fix it? causing real stress upset then she on about asking my mum once a month for money for going out for social lunch every saturday from girlies from work my mum says do you need any help with money every sat anyways but don't know if this her money or my DLA money but i like to use my part time wages from work as feel like 'normal' 21 year old not relying on my parents for subs as feel my responsibility to fund my leisure time but pyschologist reckons i should approach my mum instead of my mum saying to me about it?! feel bad guilty as can't work full time only part time so DLA helps towards food clothing etc basic needs and feels like helps my parents finanicially as my dad only works part time and don't get much government help towards costs my dad gets working tax credits but know it isn't much and had to do extra hour to claim this! my mum can't work due to bad spine prob waiting for serious surgery operation from the hospital! and i know they struggle to make ends meet my mum offered me my DLA money if i need it! but i don't only sometimes i expect her offer to have money that one bit of my pride dignity that i won't let AS rob steal me of! it's not like my mum keeping money from the opposite in fact always offering me money i want to manage money on my own as when move out i'll have to and more! pyschology sessions making me resentful bitter twisted don't know where i go next really to be honest? feel like she trying work out issues that aren't there invisible and don't exist! feel so annoyed frustrated in which direction these sessions are going! feel like going round in circles talking about 'nothing' just rambles .... pyschologists have lost hope from past and now too! give up fed up! gr! had enough jumping to ideas/suggestions and when try to put my POV across i could feel stress rising and anger but kept it inside! i ready to blow seriously! reaching end of the road! i ain't got nothing felt to give so drained tired of trying MH understanding! doing my head in! losing patience energy ... my pyschologist off for 2 weeks now as she getting married which is nice relax chill for me lovely! XKLX Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
