Asobi Seksu

I was out to see telstar at the cinema with my befriender when the trailer came on! it looks like one of the most "real" aspie performances I've seen which is good!

I go through periods of it too. D: going through an insomniac period just now. i've tried all different kinds of sleeping pills to no avail!

reading a few:Jean rhys collected stories,Jean Eyre and The Master and Margarita.

before my diagnosis I felt like a monster.like something was really wrong with me. I got my diagnosis around my 12th birthday due to my little brothers previous diagnosis raising superstitions. my teenage years have frankly been utter hell.... in my first year at secondary school I was bullied mercilessly for my looks and devolped a borderline eating disorder. I lost my friends in high school,started trying to strangle myself among other things before ending up in a psychiatric ward for teens ages away from my family in London...I'm Scottish so you can imagine how insane a situation it was.The nurses didnt believe my diagnosis as I was'nt a rain man stereotype and I was left to my own devices.I come home and was in one here too. through it all i saw things that have scared me to this day and things that have made me realise the fragility yet beauty of the human spirit. the thing in the end which has frankly saved my life is music.my favourite bands most noticeably joy division helped me realise that i need to do something musical with my life.After hospital I went through two years of purgatory.i avoided going to school and my ability to cope with school and life outside my door deteriorated.There were a few people who helped me through this terrible period such a friends I gained through myspace such as a friend called emma whose become a bff practically! i just finished my standard grade exams and left school for college to do my highers.. for the first time in my life things are looking up. I have real friends,regularly go to aspie social groups/befriender things,i'm going to college to do what I want and i'm learning instruments. I believe my real life has finally begun... i think although being an aspie teen is terrible you can get through it. I've wrote a short story about my experiences in hospital:http://dancedancetotheradio.deviantart.com/art/Eyes-wide-shut-98060482

Thanks love!

hello! I'm Jessica secmezsoy urquhart I'm sixteen and recently left school.thank god. I'm new. how is everyone?