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Hi guys. I have enrolled the kids onto a programme called Education city (. com) Its fantastic for the younger two, but the eldest (16) is a little embarrassed to use it, as it only goes up to age 11-12 and even though he is still working at this level snd i believe the subjects would benefit him. He is not so keen to try it. so does any one know of another site for home education which is along the similar lines of education city but that little bit older looking?? Thanks guys (n Gals) Shaz Meus Universitas.

Im still here

Hi again. I thought i'd drop in to say hello. Its ridiculous o clock and technically its my sleeping time, but sleep wont come - not tonight. so i thought i would share with you what one of my voices has just found hilarious. the word CONSCIENCE. My babbling voice (named NOC) ( = CON backwards) is so named because he is a CON of SCIENCE. lol MyWorld x

Would you believe there is justice. The jury found him NOT Guilty on a second charge. So we are back to square one, but at least we can get him senteced now and maybe see some light.... however many years that will take.. I honestly thought that because the judge brought all of his bad past out that he would be going down for someone elses crime... but like i say they saw through the persicution. Its a rollercoaster and sorry if i caused offence earlier,... i meant to put in.. who cares..... apart from you..?? cos i think you'll agree its not the system.. Anyway im gonna get off its been a long week, but thank you once again for your kind support.. shaz & MyWorld. ....... Meus Universitas !!

Im not allowed to say anything here.... so i wont.... all i can say is its over. i already know that.. and pretty soon so will everyone else...... but the question is apart........from the minority of people .... who the **** cares Shaz Steve N rugrats. we were a family last year. now we are just empty Welcome to MyWorld MY Meus -a -um [my , mine]; 'Nero meus', [my friend Nero]. World Universitas -atis f. [the whole , total; the universe, the world].

Hi Thanks for your messages, i wish i had time to stop and have a good "chat" god knows i could do with it. You could say Im a runaway train on a broken track.... despite the coping bit. I gave up the habit of feeling sorry for myself around july... lots of brick walls in july.. i dont feel strong, but thanks for saying that because i think i must be to still be breathing. I'll try and get back later, in between sleeping to check back, but i hope everyone is well, i havent had a chance yet to read any one elses posts, so to those who need hugs i send them. and to everyone else hello (again). promise i'll start to make sense soon. shaz

Hi all. Finially made it back after a lot of this Actually its no where near over, but i have missed you guys, trust me there have been times when i have sat here and needed to talk to you guys... like in the dead of night when its so silent the ticking of the clock really is the only thing keeping you sane... Anyway,. im here. I am really paranoid about what i can and cant write, when i write to steve, i have to pretend the kids don't exist. Anyway i shouldnt mention that... I've been doing the home education now for... well the same length of time that all this has been going on. We are called MyWorld and i didnt realise when i had the idea early last year just what an important "Twist" that would be.... (sorry i keep getting sidetracked) Im not really in a good place mentally. No that came out wrong. I have developed 4 personalities and apparently this is "normal" ?? But they each try to talk over each other and it makes writing anything difficult. Back to the point. The kids have improved in there new school. kieran is soooooo communicative now even the neighbours know him now..... (Just got to stop him walking into the neighbours houses when they least expect him and we'll be sorted.. Its been a struggle but the education board are not in the slightest bit interested in our existance so we really have done it alone now. and full credit to the kids, i'm sure their dissabilites have helped then through... but they are incredibly confused as to what the problem is, because like i said steve left his life of crime behind after we met... so naturally they are confused why everyone suddenly "hates dad". Anyway. I am getting very limited time at the moment. i have sectioned up my day, so my free time is between the hours of 4.30am - 7.am. But that "free time" is taken with getting the day organised for 3 very individual very different unique (apparently - so i've been told many times recently). kids... I'll try and pop back later. there is so much i want to say. but i cant let any of it go... but its so good to have some form of communication again - i thought the fish actually did talk there for a while. shaz x

....... But at least im back online. Just setting up the kids accounts then i will fight them for it later. Its been nearly 10 months since our lives were snatched. ive forgotton how to use a computer. Back soon with updates (if you remember me ) shaz N rugrats

Hi Every one. Steve pleaded guilty on wednesday. he will be sentenced on the 19th june. The media have gone to town big time and are making our lives even more difficult. Kids ok. I'm ok. Im standing by the man i know and love in the hope that we can have a future. Should be getting the computers back sometime this year if im lucky. thanks for been there. Shaz Steve & MyWorld. x

Hi sorry about my other posts. they dont seem to be here any more, i appriciate why, and i apologise. hope you are all well. shaz

Hello All. I have moderated Pingu's last post because I was worried about it containing a lot of specific information.However I can say that the situation has not improved and the family are having a very tough time.Karen.

Hi everyone. 14 weeks and counting we had our first inspection from the independant LEA man. he will now go away and write a report of SUPPORT for what we are doing. He knows despite steves current abode, that we have done what we have done for the right reasons, with the kids best interest at heart. He said we are in the top 10 of home educating households in our area. I just wish steve was here to see how much stress its relieved. Take care all I'll see you next week If i havent cracked up by then Shaz (MyWorld)

Nearly 12 weeks. The kids just want their dad. K is missing him so much and i fear i may have mentally scarred him for life, as i lost the plot in front of him on the 20/12/07 and now everytime i show the slightest change in emotion he breaks down and cries. he constantly asks me if im frustrated, and has changed so much he is really suffering. But he's my husband and soulmate he is the father to my children. autism add to the complication of my life now, as we used to deal with this as a team - a ###### good team. I love steve with all my heart..... he's brought me nothing but happiness and security in the last 12 years - i have children with him and as you all know we were about to embark on a journey into MyWorld. (My book - His song about the bathplug, Our school the home educating.) We were just about to step out of the system when the system stepped in.......... Feeling Raw. and this thread has turned into the incohereant ramblings of a penguin in the night time. Its like a blog Im sorry guys. Ill get off now. Need to check my mail clear out all the spam, but it keeps the account open for sites like this - actually its the only site i have ever stuck to.... im babbling... ill go.... sorry

Nearly 11 weeks now. no one from the education department has been any where near. I asked for help a few weeks back, but managed on my own as no help came. Ive proved we dont need them. Im doing ok on my own. Thanks guys for been here when i call to mums. (police still insist on keeping all of my belongings) a bit mixed up tonight - maybe im not making sense, i maybe stopped making sense the day i thought i was doing the right thing. ????

Hi All. Thanks for your words of support. its great to know we are thought of in a positive way. Its been 8 weeks 3 days now ! im very saddened to hear about Phasmid, i feel very selfish to moan. so out of respect for a great man............... I wont. Love to all Shaz Steve & MyWorld <'>

im so so sorry Mrs P. Phasmid will be sadly missed. <'> please take care. love to you and your boys <'> shaz, steve & MyWorld xxx

Hi all. Just letting you know that im somehow still taking breaths. nothing has changed in 7 weeks and its getting to me now. gonna take a few days off 'school' next week. I had a complete emotional breakdown this morning. my head was a busy place to be..... mum took the kids as they are ALWAYS my main prority. they always will be. if steve and i was good at one thing - if life taugght us one thing... it was how to be good in child protection. These kids will never suffer at the hands of me....OR Him!!!....... i just wish i could say the same for the system which is killing us all..... s . l . o . w. l . y Im on mums computer again. babysitting my own kids in the house i grew up in - so i can save them the hassle of disturbing them in the morning when i set off at ridiculous o clock to see the shell which remains of my husband. We have a love so strong - a message so clear - a situation so surreal but i no longer know what i am or why i exist, if this is life then i dont like it no more !. Sorry to whinge - im ok - im not about to do anything stupid. i cant !! which only adds to the pain. for it would have been so easy this morning. probably wont get back til next week - but im determined to be breathing still. take care shaz (steve - I know he thinks about you) and the residents of MyWorld. x

thanks for your understanding. i have to go now. take care. shaz x

hi claire. they knew he was right about the knife - i maybe should have listened to advice and not <insert appropriate swear word here> off the system. it is a different crime but has all come about because of events in november

in truth bid. he was arrested on 20th december for a 'crime' they say he commited 12 years ago. he knows nothing of it / about it, but they are saying he did it. hes totally cracked up and they wont let him have bail coz they 'say' he's suicidal and may do they deed should he get bail - all of which is utter nonsense - but he has lost his head through all this. sorry. its not good - i cant even describe the hurt the kids are going through

Hi again everyone. ive missed everyone. Still not back on line. Still using mums computer - sorry i seem to have deserted everyone. the kids are doing well at MyWorld (school) i have taught them more in 4 weeks than the schools have managed to do in the years they have been there - im not boasting but L could not grasp times tables, in 10 years he has failed again and again. yet suddenly with the right help (from me) he has remembered his 3, 4 and 6 times tables. S. is still dyslexic but now doesnt have to worry about been branded as lazy. and K is still autistic and its hard work, but at least he is reading and writing now. I am going to make sure i dont fail these kids. I will give THEM no reason to take them like they took steve. Ill be around for a while coz i am researching the human rights acts for disabled prisoners? anyone know where i can go? ive only got an hour. I know this is going to shock many of you, but my lifes still a total mess. Shaz

HI everyone. Its taken me a while longer than i wanted to get back here. my computer is still offline so i am once again using mums machine. Thankyou for your kind words. I really want to tell you guys whats going on but i know if i do ill get slated for it. not by you lot - but by the system, because its the system thats doing this to us. The kids are fine, they are all taking to the home education thing very well. I got the 'school room' finished with help from my parents, so we will be moving into it the day after tomorrow. (k doesnt want to learn tomorow because it's his birthday) Life is not good, i feel like my brain is a filing cabinet and i cant access the files i need, i have been on auto pilot since dec 20th and things get worse each day, but it is sheer determination that makes me smile for the kids, yet inside i feel like my heart has been ripped out and torn into thousands of tiny peices. I have no idea where our lives will end up at the moment, but i do know i will do everything in my power to educate my kids so they NEVER EVER fall foul of the system that has destroyed our lives. I hope to be back next week. Just thought i would let you know i was here. Love to you all. <'> shaz steve and the rugrats from MYWORLD xx

gotta go now. have a happy new year. take care shaz steve and the rugrats from myworld.

thanks, we're not ok, but im determined to make everything ok. <'> Im sorry but if i explained i would start an argument over lots of things. This is nothing to do with you guys and i dont want you dragging in. you've been wonderful - its life that's not fair.