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well we went. i could sit in the room and watch -and like clockwork he behaved very well for them,they was writing down loads of notes .... they wont discuss it till next appointment-at which point i started crying-told them i cant cope ect...... anyway i left cam corder with them to watch,-which shows the real son whom i live with day to day ......i cant do anymore than that ......so its in there hands........ the dr did say hed put my name down on yet another list to see another person-cant recall who-to help me manage him better and sort of therapy i guess,i asked about medication and they said no ...... but this is before they have seen the video...... at one point dr said said about me seeing gp.....to which i said well im already under pychatrist-on meds -and that my pychatrist is waiting to hear about outcome regarding my son -as hes the major factor in me feeling so depressed....... so wait for next instalment

ive had a terrible day with him today. i think he needs some sort of medication-its juat awful all the time and hes hitting himself and hurting hisself,i cant even talk any more he just shouts at me-saying he wants to live some where els,and all sorts of abuse. i just want help for him- its going worse im taking cam corder footage in as well tomorrow-its got the lot on it-if he doesnt get dx from that then i really dont know what will happen?-i know if this lot continues one of us will end up in hospital at this rate

ohhhhh fantastic -what a mover -lol

hey hev hope you have a fab time babes xxxx you deserve it <'> <'> its so exciting to get out -please make sure u have fun.fun.fun

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XXX

thank you all for your replys <'> <'> <'> im feeling better now -the black mood has passed i left the boys dad when my eldest was 2,hes 5 in june-it was at this time concerns were raised about him-so have gone through all that process on my own -as well as from 3 months pregnant with 2nd son-did it all alone [even the birth]. there dad was abusive so i had to leave although we was together 5 years since then ive had a boyfriend and it lasted a year-he helped me alot with my son but in the end he couldnt deal with it -i dont think we was in love any way he was more a friend. ive also heard that my boys dad is living with a woman who has 4 lads one is 9-to be honest it makes me upset cause we tryed to arrange contact and he just used it to hurt me so it was put to him he would there fore have to go through social services and supervised contact to start off with. well that was it never replied.i wouldnt dream of setting up contact again cause in my eyes he shown what a true ******* he is. i just feel hurt for my sons and the fact he never really got to know what was happing or to this day the fact that my son has and still is going down asd assessment route. i think thats the irony in it in for me that there own father has turned his back on them. and then the other logic side of me says but thats rubbish because theres alot of men out there that are not the bilogical father and are making better dads than them. im not really looking and i know the best time things happen is when your not looking for it,i think ive earned it now by proving how independant i have become and how strong and tough this whole thing has made me.i know i can manage on my own now -no matter what. so i think maybe fate will see this to -when ever the time is right im sure fate will send me right one

thank you lisann for offering thats very kind of you . but someone on here has very kindly offered to send me some too,but thank you <'> <'> <'> <'> <'>

hi i used to change my boy standing up too-if we was out and no where to change -id just find a quite spot -i found it easier with large size nappies cause i could just wip the old one of quick and put a clean one on easy without pulling the pants off-just used to pull them down-if u get me -pull ups are good too but u have to get there trousers off /and shoes if need be and my son hated me doing this. after a while u get real quick at it -i used to carry nappies round in my bag and some wipes and nappie bags ,just a few for your journey out .

hello all i wasnt quite sure where to post this as it is really off topic but then again not sure lol been feeling down for a bit[this isnt unsual -i take 2 lots medication for it and under phychatrist] i keep thinking how will i ever find somebody who love me and my children for what they are? i know alot would say im better off on my own and i agree in some ways i am-but i cant help getting this awfull sinking feeling that its just not possible for me in this situation. im 30.i dont go out ,i havnt really any friends,my boys take all my energy -yet im very lonely,and its quite impossible to be in any kind of situation to be able to meet a man and lets face it hes going have to be one hell of a good one to deal with me and my boys and all the stuff that comes with it. and at what point to you dump all the situation on a man? hi ,how ya doing by the way,im on tablets and under a shrink just to cope with the fact my son has possible as ect... and my other son is hyper, im a hermit ive got several issues with things and if you get involved with me just dont expect the normal kind of life just wondered if any one else is in this position ? xxxrqxxx

sounds good -lol

happy birthday to you

well my son was a very good eater when small but hes going funny about food too now,he will eat boiled eggs/fried/and frozen cheese omlettes from tesco-lol and he is also wanting it again and again-we r down to hardly any veg-now carrots and peas are out,he will eat some fruit. i buy minedex its like a tonic to build them up-and i think its worked a bit. bread sticks are good . i found if i just chopped up snack type stuff and put a few different things on a plate and left them on a table -and didnt put pressure on it worked a bit.like finger food things,those phillipdelphia mini pots-with couple bread sticks,small pizza cut up in strips,ect....

lol brook-my son also says those things

thanks for that i will write date down -cheers x

viper just showing u some support honey xxx im sorry its all so ###### xxx

ok thanks all i went in town and claires shop only sell them in winter -i tryed other shops no joy so i will try the net and get my mum to write a cheque .

do they have to be special ones to block sound out or will old fashioned ear muffs do ? and where can i get them? my son is totally flipping out all the time because my hyper 3 year old is always humming and scuttling about making a droning noise -it grates on my nereves but i know my 4 year old hears everything louder. he hates me talking on the phone or to somebody ect.......it causes great stress . thanks rq <'>

he never sits still [my 3 year old] climbing up stuff in windows hanging of things squirming up the chair making humming noises and such all time collecting bits of paper from everywhere and hoarding them under his bed washing hands all time falling over so waiting for that now -he drives you mad with it im sure its not a normal level of activity and a few people who have been involved with my 4 year old think its not right either. the best of it is he wont take that iq for the world -my 4 year old will is there any thing other than the iq in bottles that he wont detect and spit out ?

have you noticed how pete goes around all the group stroking and cuddling up to them everytime i tune in hes sat up agaisnt someone -he reminds me of a cat the way he strokes and hangs round the other folk .i think its great . i think he has a look of mat dillion too,

hi i know its half term this week ,but when its school,my son every morning is refusing to get dressed-it results in us having the same converstation every morning and he still dose it -its getting into a full scale row and im totally shattered by it. we are ending up at school up to 3/4 hour late and also have my 3 year old to dress. i cant even manage to get myself ready cause the same stuff kicks of every morning. ive told the hospital and the lady whos involved with the assessment-they said "do u think its because he wants to stay at home and play?" i dont think it is -it seems to be the actual event of doing it that causes him heaps of stress-im cam cordering it all to -as they have asked me too. ive got a visual board and to be honest i should be doing it more its just as im single mum i find im swamped with doing all the stuff needed and i need to give it more attention. hes took to wanting to stay in his pjs or stripping off and walking about , i drive him to school and it he creates also getting in the car ect..... he has no statement so i dont get transport-but i feel its unsafe all of us in car and him carrying on ect.... i dont know what to do..... its getting so bad i dont even want to get up myself cause i know i have to battle with him.

glad its back was having panic attacks thinking you would be gone forever

<'> <'> <'> <'> godbless you hailey at this hard time

HAPPY BIRTHDAY <'> <'>

yes i watched it too. i think they were his verbal tics that he had let build up and he was releasing them. my son is being assessed for tourettes . i hope pete wins -think hes fab

yeah jonathon- we all love you here ,im glad your staying <'> everyone has different problems-its good to share them <'> <'> xxx