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      Depression, Mental Health and Crisis Support   06/04/2017

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  1. You've been gone for years now. :(


  2. Gaming meltdown

    Resident Evil sucks now. I honestly think the fourth one is overrated, and it killed the franchise. Of course, a lot of fans love that game, but to me, it's not a scary game. All just shooting. The games since then have been just as ridiculous. https://archive.org/details/Resident_Evil_Peter_Anderson
  3. Redcon-1

    If you enjoy zombie movies, then you ought to like this one! https://vimeo.com/289642104
  4. I'm a big fan of horror video games, but personally, I'm not really all that into remakes. With that said, maybe Capcom has finally listened to their fans. This game looks pants-crappy-scary.
  5. What's everyone's favourite films?

    Rocky. The first one is a great film, as is its first sequel. The others are fine, sure, but the tale of Rocky Balboa getting his respect was so warming in the 70's. Sly is back this fall.
  6. I don't like Facebook...

    I did like using Twitter before. Social media has rendered a lot of forums inactive, though. I guess that's what happens with life in general: I see that things move on.
  7. I pledged cash to be in a film, and other perks like getting a copy of it. So I found the producer on Facebook. She blocked me, saying I messaged her private account (sounds like more Facebook style BS to me). All I wanted to know was when it was out. Some people are snooty and incredibly selfish, or anti-social. I've seen people asking for as much as £700 on Indiegogo to be an extra in a movie. That is really quite ridiculous, and almost like begging.
  8. I don't like Facebook...

    So you keep saying. It would be nice if you knew the facts of what went on and why. You know?
  9. Venting over argument with bully online.

    Unfortunately, I've had my work cut out for me with online imbeciles too. There's not much you can do besides getting a new alias, because things that happen in a virtual environment are hard to report, unless you know who the person is who is pestering you. Even then, local law enforcement rarely act on reports and if the person lives overseas, expect to fork out a lot of cash finding a lawyer. I know it's hard to stop Internet harassment completely, as I also tried to pinpoint who was causing this abuse, and gave up hope. I've been put through stressful situations too. One guy follows me around forums, puts my videos on torrent sites, edits Wikia pages about me, adds films I'm in on other databases, and harassed me on a forum a few months ago, where I was even unfairly banned, just because he asked them to. Without any moderators, the administrator just got rid of me to shut him up, but he returned anyway, because he probably suspected I'd try to post there again with a different account. He knows where to find my videos even if I don't publicly list them on YouTube, because of where they are embedded. He knows what things I like to talk about too, which is why he found me on so many other sites and started harassing me even more. Well, I know what state he lives in, but I'm not in America. He lives in New Jersey. The police need to act on complaints, every single time something occurs, because small amounts of abuse can quickly expand.
  10. I don't like Facebook...

    Let me know what you think of this short film that I've attached. nightcloses.mp4
  11. Serves him right. Innocent people could have been killed. His sick actions are distinct from his autism, so he ought to accept it was wrong to make a device he knew could clearly be deadly.
  12. Login security

    Why not just use one of the many free proxy servers out there? I doubt your details here are in any real danger. This is just a little forum, with hardly any activity these days. Like most forums that exist in the Facebook era, actually.
  13. I've been waiting weeks to find out what was going on with that new Avengers movie regarding the recruitment of extras (the locals who play the stock background civilians). Then it turns out they only want to cast people from England despite this movie being set in Scotland. Yeah, work that one out. http://www.dailyrecord.co.uk/news/scottish-news/fury-avengers-movie-makers-snub-10188285 People slander me on social media too so I don't get roles in indie films, which that Avengers movie isn't, but you can gather that I feel fed up. Since they likely do this in private messages, it is hard to get anything done about it, and I know who is possibly doing this, yet I cannot prove it. So in other words, it's speculation. But I just have a hunch, because I've seen people I had hassle from posting on Facebook pages for films being made in my town. Then if I asked about being an extra, I either got blocked or they gave a made up excuse acting nice to put me off, when I was about work for extras they tried to say they did not need (yet they cleared stated they wanted extras, so it was clearly just me getting fobbed off). Since a few idiots don't like me over some stuff I said on Twitter, they tell people like other directors local to them, for example, to omit me from being involved in any of their movies. But again, it cannot be proven. I get this horrible burning feeling in my body; I do have a high intake of sugar. So I think I'm just eating rubbish because I am very depressed, fed up, or something. Most of the day, I just go online and that is not healthy either. That's pretty much it for my routine, every single day, because I have no social life at all, and I certainly have no confidence left - and I have anxiety issues. I also still live with my family. The house we stay in is very cluttered as my sister had to move all her stuff out of her flat. When the law cost my sister her kids, she got less money and the rent arrears for her flat got too high. Now my dad has put up two sheds in the garden for to store all her junk, and there is certainly a lot of it. I just feel so tired, and bored. I've been wanting my own flat. It takes ages when it comes to getting one from the council. They make people bid 3 times a week for months. It just never ends. They put me on 'homeless priority' in the fall of last year. It is just a monotony.
  14. It's been pretty inactive here for a while anyway. Minus the odd drifter who posts something, it's not been very busy here for a long time. However, aren't all forums kind of going like this now?
  15. Admins can delete your account, but they probably won't erase certain posts unless you provide links to the posts you want removed. It's usually at the discretion of who is in charge, though.
  16. Anyway, I just want to hear from you lot what you think of this in your feedback. I had support from Autism Initiatives in Edinburgh for a number of years, and had been faced with a multitude of annoying issues over the past several years due to being infatuated with my female caregivers. I've talked about the chaos that ensued over this mess many times on the forums in the past, as well as beginning various threads at other forums on the Internet cataloging everything that has occurred; I believe the user 'trekster' and various other members offered commentary in prior threads on the Asperger and ASD UK Online Forum. So what's been happening as of late? I'm on various supervision orders due to breaches of bail, and for breaching the court orders in general, all over committing analogous offenses. These orders are due to expire in March. Basically, I was agitated that I could not make things up to my former key worker and other people from the company that I fell out with, and I also lost my supported accommodation. So it resulted in a lot of major issues because I was unable to leave things well enough alone, and I was also in jail many times on remand. The latest problems arose because of an actress on Twitter. When she blocked me, I got my panties in a twist, so she ended up contacting other film makers to get me put on a no-no list. The reason this was a breach was because I was ordered to stay off social media, with websites such as Twitter and Facebook being disallowed. The police were obviously contacted as well. They also came to speak to me regarding me annoying the director of an upcoming film, because he refused to cast me as an extra. While that perhaps isn't fair, there is bomb that can be done about other people spreading reports. Once you end up getting a bad rep, or you get slandered in that manner, it's just going to be a lost cause. People that communicate with each other in clannish cliques do update one another on problematic situations, and that's just how the land lays. Sadly, getting new support from social services proved tough. They found me a few guys from another agency in early 2016. Unfortunately, their poor flexible support meant they were relatively unhelpful, and they were not able to get support shifts arranged for special events either, which to me indicated there was little point in keeping them around. Also, I suspected that my court supervisor (who contacts social services) would have utilized the workers as stool pigeons to keep an eye on me. The sheriff agreed that I'm in a state of limbo, and should be in receipt of help; I had to see a psychologist twice so she could prepare a report, and I was able to freely express my frustration at the system. I'm also awaiting alternate accommodation, because living with my family is not easy. The house we're bunched up in is very cluttered, and I think the house is rather clammy too. So the sheriff and my lawyer agreed I need support. Therefore, I could just work with men only, and not have women for support at all. However, there's no other autism-specific support agency in the UK besides Autism Initiatives, it appears. What do you think of Autism Initiatives or Number 6 in Edinburgh helping me again?
  17. Cant cope he needs to move out help

    Paula, are you on the Healing Well site by any chance? Just thought you seem familiar, like I know you from other forums.
  18. It's dead, Jim!

    I couldn't help but notice nobody hardly ever posts on here much now. I've continued to post threads about my anxiety, but maybe my rambling style scares people off, since my rants are obscure. Or are they easy to follow now that I've made more than enough of them? Anyway, I cannot get help in real life because nobody cares, so I feel bored now and desperate.
  19. It's dead, Jim!

    I'll take a look. I don't suppose you know why people are erasing my name off a film page. It's so wrong.
  20. It's dead, Jim!

    Times are bad, mate. I don't even think that social services can get me any flexible support despite what one guy said, as they won't provide women, and it seems it is women that mostly work as care personnel. At least according to some people, but that's debatable. They also say the funding is not there anymore. There was a time when I had ongoing support for 6 years, but that all ended thanks to you know who selling me down the river, but I caused this mess too by being way too open and honest about my business. There's a lot of things that I should not have opened my gob about. It's a major problem I have, though. This year has been a huge write-off, as in a major waste of my time. There was stuff I really wanted to do, but I didn't want to do it alone. But all I have to do online is tell people about my troubles, and they run a mile. The thing is, other than having anxiety, I'm not the type who even really appears disabled, clueless, shy, or whatever it is. So I don't really need support for a great deal of activities. I'd really love to just have them help me, and not put me through any more unnecessary BS. However, due to everything that has occurred, they will want me monitored. I'm also still under court appointed supervision, so obviously there is still a risk of these helpers being stool pigeons. I've not got anything to hide, but I'm very optimistic about who I share my life with now. Strictly speaking, I have to be, giving what's happened. Because I have anxiety, I kind of needed people like support workers to go to places with me, so I did not feel half as bad. Yet it's incredibly hard to trust them because I feel like I'm kind of pegged now, and read the first paragraph again. There's too many complications in place. As long as they have people dictating to them, they'll never feel trustworthy enough. I'm screwed either way.
  21. It's dead, Jim!

    Oh well. Private renting it is!
  22. It's dead, Jim!

    I've been twice to the council in Edinburgh, and they put me on the "homeless priority" list, but it can still take up to another year's worth of placing bids using EdIndex. The other available option is going private, but I know this can be risky. There is also an issue where people on benefits can be rejected. Now, the reason I want to leave my parents' house is because it's a mess. Maybe I should thank my lucky stars they've gave me homeless priority, because they explained that in a normal situation, you have to wait up to 100 years when you are bidding as normal without these extra "points" in place. Has Britain really gotten this bad? I'd rather get a new home next week. But...beggars cannot be choosers, or something to that effect!
  23. I've had no luck getting another flat. My mother bids on flats every week using Key to Choice. You're allowed to bid on just three properties each week. She bid on one flat that is near a river because she thinks the location is nice, but I doubt anybody will be selected that's only been bidding for so little time. Normally, you have to bid for at least a couple of years, because a lot of people want a house. By bidding, you increase (very slowly) your place on the waiting list, and I assume the list must be gigantic. I contacted social services regarding setting up support again. A social worker previously set up new support before (to replace Autism Initiatives) and I then dropped them shortly thereafter. He found 2 guys at a firm in Edinburgh named Blackwood, and they had poor hours that could not be flexible, which was not suitable for to help me, and apart from that, I think I caught one of them trying to take snapshots or notes on his phone, since they were probably told to do so. A while back, I couldn't be online unless I had supervision, because of all the trouble I got into over two women who supported me before, and it resulted in me being charged. My supervisor amended this slightly with new rules. Since I only had 6 hours a week at the time, I did not want to waste my support hours going on the Internet, when I could do that in my own time. Plus, they had fixed hours, so if I needed anybody to accompany me somewhere at a time outwith the scheduled time allocated to myself, they could not set up a shift. They were useless, so I was within my rights to finalize their support. For example, they usually just worked with me 2 to 5 PM twice a week, but what if I needed help on a different day at a different time? So it was useless. Since you probably remember all that stuff about those people, I won't go and reiterate it all over again, but I feel like the past year or two has been a write off. I've not had any support in many months, so not only am I anxious, I also feel bored. And quite frankly, I do not really trust care workers due to what occurred before. They snitch on people because their duty involves logging what the clients say and do. Apart from that, you cannot get too attached to the ones you like a lot, since they may leave the job one day. It is sad that you grow fond of your carers, but ultimately, it is just a job to these people. I suffer from anxiety, but nobody helps me. I really find it hard to do anything. I also miss having my own space, because I stay with my family, and it is chock-a-block with clutter, and it is also very overcrowded. So I contacted my previous social worker's boss, and he seems keen to find me some help. But I'll believe it if I see it. I'm not sure if these type of workers can be trusted, especially because I am still under supervision until next March. You know?
  24. It's dead, Jim!

    I'll be way happier once I get my own flat, but that takes time. You have to bid on flats. You're only allowed to bid on three each week. You can be waiting quite a while, too. I'm supposed to go with my advocacy worker next week to ask the council about finding me a flat quicker.
  25. It's dead, Jim!

    By the way, using meds to combat depression caused by other "professionals" no less won't change the fact you're not getting supported by those paid to do so. This is the government's way of not having to individually help people. They think the use of medication will slowly cure the grief riddled thought patterns. Plus, some drugs that are meant to help either make you feel flighty, only work temporarily, or get you addicted to them, and thus you will find you become reliant on them thereafter. It's like booze. Psychoactive and not helpful.