Hi Drift
Sounds like we're in a similar boat. J (6) has a provisional dx of AS as well and had the ADOS last week so we're waiting for the outcome of that. Like you, I have so many questions but not enough space in my head to sort them all out. Would love to get some help from NAS or elsewhere but don't really know what to ask for. Duurrrhhh.
Only difference is we have school on our side. It might be because this is our second assessment and the first one failed dismally, largely because of unhelpful input from the school. J's class has job-share teachers and it's definitely helped that they've both made the same observations separately. Not a peep out of the duff head though, not surprisingly.
Good luck with making progress for Sam. Don't beat yourself up though, you're certainly not inadequate and there's no shame in grieving for the future you thought you had. I think most people go that route to begin with. Think of it this way - Sam could have had parents who didn't give a toss about him and just accepted without question the school's opinion that there was no problem. We'd be the same if we'd listened to the first psychiatrist who assessed J. We're doing the right thing by our kids and should be patting ourselves on the back instead of beating ourselves up.
Karen
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