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I find this is the case too did u inform the doctor of your alcohol intake lately or was that issue that 'got in the way' I find same issue that either AS barrier gets in the way of telling others "things" or my mental health issues one or the other! She instinctively already know you're not "time-waster" case and your current needs AS or mental health need to be looked into further "treated" hope you get'sorted'

A WEEK 7 days today! Yeah! Woop! so be even more EXCITED if possible this time next week! Can't wait get out of this town! ;)XKLX

This time next week lol! X

Has officially official BOOKED the actual train ticket for next friday - BRING IT ON all I can say! XKLX

Brought some funky bright flowery leggings today from new look sale! (8 pound)! Lol!

S.T - yes I am on "high buzz" when on pure out and out shopping spree loves 'double high' you get out of it!

Yeah know what pyschiatric assessment is just so difficult/hard to actually get there request one for some reason these days don't know due to staff resources cut backs leads too?! Unsure but tried with doc referred me onto local adult mental team in which they then made an intial assessment of support/service which best suits me needs mental health wise and other! So confusing yet frustrating that's why I'm trying my luck with MIND hope they come up with "better" suggestions /ideas! I know I need see a pyschiatrist though as saw L.D nurse and social worker at intial assessment made asked me tons of questions which felt didn't make sense I think systems change dramatically due to funding lack of service resources etc!

I know how pathetic silly stupid this actually sounds but feel so guilty bad for touching "my own savings" that going lower needs to slow build up but keep thinking to myself that's what true meaning of savings is dip in when struggling and needed as can always put it back where it belongs that's what it there for! Anyone else that way too?! Lol ;p XKLX

I think may need an assessment of some kind mental health either (bi-polar or BPD) but adult MHT now do an intial assessment of service before anything else is done! But don't think any other assessment by pyschiatrist is going to be made by what I've seen so far! Still waiting on report written up from intial screening process! Lol! But going to self -refer to MIND handing in my form tomorrow afternoon as know both senior managers though one is leaving another life in turkey! But will sort me out I'm sure of it before she goes so I'm supported 'properly!' Not just blanked off igorned completely or waiting for general support feedback from adult MHT because forget when do chase up don't know what to say or suggest next to be honest! Gr!

Special Talent - may investigate deeper into this medication! Is it an anti-pyschotic?

9 days left ...!!! Continuing to cross off the days left I got to go! let my auntie know how EXCITED I am! Via facebook posts and texts to her! Lol anyone think I just want to up and go now! Booking my train ticket tomorrow as tomorrow pay day from work hoping to go for a meal out just different scenery! Need to "exhale properly" into 'fresh air' everyday that passes makes me more happier buzzing high! XKLX

I think it can make so "jealous" over what could of been... What could have had support service wise but doing this "eats you up" from inside your head due to replaying past events especially education!

Becoming anxious /paranoid built up someones hopes for nothing on their dreams! Just hoping haven't wrecked and destroy them through offering to help as such! Now gripped by guilt!

Just wondered what common occurence was more so in AS cases?! How more often it happens? Feel so bad ,guilty afterwards "kicking myself" for ages afterwards! Why don't just make my life simplier easier by asking for second personal opinion like my parents always seem constantly forget do it again "foot in mouth before thinking syndrome" ??? XKLX

What is it with not being able to think things through before go ahead and say or do things automatically! Got me in so much "deep trouble/water" in the past? Why does my mind put thoughts into "gear" before just racing ahead and jump do it? I can't seem put into practise asking for advice before literal action is taken up?! X x X

Seems like once transferred over from child/teen -adult services you seem to go "un-noticed" ,invisible and missing from their radar you can get caught between the middle gap which can be SO frustrating as seem 'forgotten' and seem like endlessly comes down every time to "nothing" and seems child support services are more clued up and available than adult support services! Which angers me greatly!

@ matzoball-wont over analyse will just enjoy learning and growing in all areas of independence skills even through feel anxious scared!

My mum watched on incase needed any tips/advice cooking chicken strips,tomato puree/garlic puree , bacon /ham,mushrooms,celery,red pepper put in wok now in deep dish that going to be grilled with cheese on top! Delish yum!

I've noticed the close link/connection between self -esteem and independence thrive together it can be high source of anxiety stress but just breaking it down bit by bit I think work has helped me reached independence skills targets!

I today have done the dinner for tonight as preparing organising independence skills when parents are away for two weeks in may in turkey! And also with the train trip I'm slowly building on the foundations/structure surrounding independence! So steps forward all the way full stream ahead! XKLX

(Hugs) bless ya! Suppose all gets "off" "bad" had enough days tomorrow is another day start again refreshed tomorrow!

I will TRY NOT to "overthink" "dwell" on talking over my 'issues' outstanding hoping my auntie can shred new light on my situation! @ Positive _Light - its fine I guessed you 'jumped' into this topic post assuming! Lol X

@ positive _about - I am already officially diagnosed with AS years now my parents and auntie know of my AS it other surrounding issues tend to drag me down more! Like mental health stuff! Sorry if confused you any! Helps me escape not only AS struggles and stresses of life but add on with that to that it comes with sometimes too much pressure! I think I'm doing everyones head in at work home constantly talking about going to my aunties! Fingers crossed it will give me "head space time" I so want and need to recharge batteries feel 'refreshed' sometimes just need time away for you! To be selfish greedy take it when chance arises!

All keep thinking over. Planning of! Going out for meal watching TV having lots of munchies yum! So counting down the days! Next stage in showing young adult independence! I suppose proving I can show independence!even though it an "easyish task/challenge"

Matzoball- am REALLY trying to make an EFFORT stay upbeat,think it helping because I have "this adventure" to look forward too! My auntie is just as much as me! Xxx