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I have been like that in the past and still have that tendency, as has my brother who has similar issues to me (albeit more severe). Even if the help is there, your brother has to want to engage with things, and more so when he comes out of the depressions as these times are vital for making headway because mental functioning is better - when in a deep depression or experiencing anxiety it isn't always easy to think clearly - also if things are put in place for when things are less bad, then the depression and anxiety can be understood and coping strategies can be put in place. I always think that if the cause of the depression is not addressed then it won't get better - a person needs to understand what is making them depressed or anxious in order to begin to address, deal, and cope with that.

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I don't think a site like this will create something like that, because this forum and the people who "manage" it - they don't give a damn about that stuff - to be honest I don't even know why they continue at times, they say that its a place for supporting each other and talking about AS and all that jazz - but its flawed, the vibe of the place is seriously skewed at times. Who knows if anyone feels like me - they can't be bothered to get involved in the discussion so I can't say - maybe their silence says enough eh? They have to answer that for themselves. As for me - I really don't mind who has a dx or not, I have spoken to over a dozen people over the last year in PM who don't have "official diagnoses" and I don't mind - it is not my place to judge. All I can say is that I speak to a mix of people in PM, they are all different, they all have different circumstances, but they give me stuff and I hope I give stuff back, I wish that value could be extended to the main forum, but I sense it cannot - not on this forum anyway cuz there's too much bullshit, too much denial. Anyone who speaks to me knows I struggle, I have a tendency to be negative, the stuff I've said is scattered all over these pages from the moment I first posted a message asking if I could post a post, I am aware of my journey shown in these pages. And from word go I have said that I wanted to learn, I haven't changed my goals, but I have changed. I guess if people want to be dismissive of people like you then its their loss isn't it? It is very difficult to avoid feeling negative at times. Yes, it could be so useful and proactive, we could all teach each other because between us we have a wealth of knowledge - unfortunately people don't always work together even when it could be in their best interests. When I joined this forum it felt like I had to fight for a place on it - I don't know how real that feeling was - but at the time it felt very very real and I'm not the kind of person to give up, even when I'm really going through bad times, I get back up and carry on, but this place should be a community and it could do great things, but so many people just don't give a fcuk. And in that sense I guess it at least gives us a taste of real life - just a shame that its a mirror on the world instead of something that could be so valuable and worthy and brilliant, a place that really helped people, really made a difference.... People have said in the past they are concerned about the negative view of autism this forum gives across - and it does - not because people might be angry or suicidal or their kids are struggling or whatever they may be - but because of a wider attitude that is basically quite shitty. That is a real shame because I know I am not the only one who wants a better life and I think some new members see what its like here and they leave cuz of how it is - I have to ask myself if they are right to leave or if I am right to stay - either way, it says something that people join and don't stick around - I've spoken to a few few people in that category over the last year a half and a lot of them had stuff of real value to share... and they probably won't come back. I said something very similar 4 days ago.... In fact I've said it several times before and only rarely have I received an answer... Even via PM I waited 3 months for an answer to something forum related - I never got that answer, I then asked someone else, and again, did not receive a response - in both cases I was told that I would get one - I did not - that was 6 and 3 months ago respectively. I'm not interested any more in responses from the forum "team" because interval of silence has gone way beyond the point of there being any respect, commitment or interest from those people, despite assurances that they were committed and interested... So I wouldn't hold your breath if I were you... you might get the beginnings of a conversation (as in a couple of brief comments that say very little) only for the other party to disappear very swiftly leaving you wondering where they went - its like magic

I think its a shame when these series get it wrong, when technically everything is there for it to be so right - it's why I didn't bother watching it more. I know a couple of people who did stick with it all the way through and they too were disappointed with the ending.

I watched the occasional episode of the first season of lost, and no more than 4 from the remaining 5 (I think there were 6 in all) they dragged it out too long (in my opinion). Someone lent me the game, think it was called Lost Via Dormus - it gave the highlights I guess - good concept - but I still think the tv series was excessively long

When you have Youtube open, you copy the address from the address bar at the top and paste it in here.

The following is costing me to say it - both in speaking my mind, and the pain I feel while I write this. I'm biting my tongue a lot - I have been in many ways for a long time - not because I feel people are looking in, but because of other reasons, some personal, some to do with the physical problem I have of typing right now cuz of hand and wrist pain, and some reasons are to do with the lack of something. There's something missing here for me, something that doesn't strike me as firmly as it did before, for the last 6 months (at least!!) I have actually set out to avoid talking about autism because some of the replies back are so damn negative and soul destroying that I just can't face it - and because negativity is something that I am trying to deal with in my life I avoid talking about certain autism related topics. I would like to clarify that previous paragraph... I am not worried about the negative impacts of AS per se and I am not afraid or screwed up over seeing depressing things or negative effects - what actually gets to me is the negative attitudes when attempting to discuss things and those reactions are like a slamming door on constructive discussion, conversation or debate. I get to the point where (due to the pain involved in typing) I have to balance that with what I am prepared to give away - in any sense of the phrase - because to be brutally honest I have to look after myself too. I have been mulling over the idea of calling it a day for a long time now - a very long time - but something stops me from going and I don't know what that is. There's some people on here who talk to me behind the scenes and I find those conversations infinitely more valuable - those people know who they are - but it isn't whispers behind closed doors - it's frank, honest, constructive and fun discussions that achieve a hell of a lot and they add to my life in so many ways - I do not feel the same things or the same way about the actual forum itself in many ways - some days I cannot be bothered because to be blunt and say what I think causes hassle - there's a percentage of discussions where I could actually write what the responses will be before they even come in - and when something becomes predictable it can become stale and boring. In addition, the whole moderator thing drives me insane - they don't answer questions, they don't look at things in different ways, they don't care about the suggestions that numerous people have put forward over the last year - and if the people who should be here doing a job of sorts have a "don't care" attitude for a lot of the time, then what exactly is the point? If members say things and other members agree and the admins and mods don't give a ###### then what is the point in them even being there other than to shut things down and make comments that at times in the past have been shallow, have showed a lack of understanding and a complete lack of commitment? As a final thought... I think there's too many people who just moan moan moan - and some of us - yes I mean myself too - are actually trying to change, to learn, to improve, to have a life and it's damn difficult to even begin those discussions when they get overshadowed and buried beneath a load of stuff that has little use whatsoever. I have nothing against people having a moan - it can be healthy - but a lot of these moans are just replied to with things like "yeah but" and you know that the person who posted the thing aint listening to the thoughtful and constructive replies that they receive. I think some of the older members (than me) with AS could teach people like me one hell of a lot - and I want to learn, I'm dying to learn, I want to learn so much that I could explode with the energy that drives me inside to learn, I could read what certain people say all day long every day for the rest of my life if it meant that I can continue to learn. I look at people older than me and I see hope and I see a chance of different things in my life - but how the hell can that happen when so many other people are just selfish? And that's why I don't want to talk much on here about stuff that matters - because I don't want to be selfish, I want to give and receive and learn , but I am not just going to pi5s everything I have into the wind, and I know that sounds selfish, but as I said, there's another angle here where I'm trying to look after myself physically as well as mentally and emotionally, and giving it all away was destroying me because of the context, circumstances and surrounding where the interactions on here take place, and I'm tired of so much of it and I haven't recharged that aspect of myself. So is my silence restrained? On the open forum yes it is, it's very restrained and I've broken it here because I figured that if there was a post on here appropriate enough to break my silence, it is this one. Best Darkshine

What I find more irritating is when a new song is so predictable I can actually say what is coming next, purely based on the rhyme...

Just looked it up - I am struggling to know how I haven't heard of it - but even at a brief glance I can see you are probably right and it needs to be watched from the beginning.

Never heard of it but I like the theme music and words

Basically pick a large number of highly irritating songs and I know the damn words after hearing them a couple of times - my particular top hated list includes movie songs that stayed in the charts WAY TOO LONG - there are 3 in my mind straight away and I refuse to say any of them - but a clue would be "someone shot an arrow at a wedding on a sinking ship" and that might be enough for some people to figure it out.

Yeah Thanks - it's really annoying because I can go to youtube and it works fine, but any topic on the forum that has more than 3 clips on it doesn't wanna load at times and can take up to 15 minutes to even load the page... watching a clip can take up to 5 minutes for it to play and posting is very hit and miss - I guess it's mainly because my wireless signal keeps dropping pretty low lol Thanks again for putting it up for me

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