A-S warrior

Exactly it. I also found teachers to be very rude, and quite aggressive. A bit stupid, since there trying to teach us how to be well mannered sucessful adults. Funny how i left school, and then started to find all this ability, and talent. All school did was supress me. I don't agree with schooling.

lol google search. Ihave no idea who that is.

Have you noticed? We are all the odd one out. Therefore in a sence, we all conform perfectly.

Thanks mike! I hope you all took something away from my story. I think at times when anyone talks about there experiences, it inspires others. and the amazing thing is, we are all capible of doing it. Glad you like the wolf too

I can assure you i have nothing to do with this. The resason i locked that topic last night was not to 'show how powerful i am' it was to avoid something potentially harmful to our members. There are plenty of members out there (although meaning well) that say silly things at times and could have put a vunrablre member in danger. Anytime anyone mentions wanting to kill themselves that could open up pandoras box for all types of problems. All i've done so far is try to remind people of the rules (of which you clicked agree too) when you joined. I'm doing my job basically, and all these topics and comments make my job unbearable. the whole reason of pinning the rules to the general disscussion was for this very reason, so we diddn't have to do stuff like this, and that we could continue as normal.

Thankyou to all for your feedback. I was in two minds wether to post this or not, but seems you all enjoyed it, so i'm glad i shared it with you all

Amen

my werewolf is beautyfull

Almost certainly. The main problem was being in a class of 30. too loud, and way too many distractions.

Best i got was a maths gcse at grade D. And that wasn't until i was 21.

I might as well get this topic going again, I'm currently posting on a google chrome thingy. I broke my laptop beyond repair, but today, my mum's, boyfriend brought this one. And, no, i don't normally except handouts. i plan on working off the debt.

Go for it anyway, you never know.

That was just a reminder for everyone. It was a topic on sexual orientation, as contained in rule 4. I was merely reminding everybody, As topics like that can quickly turn personal. The topic itself is fine. No warning at all, i have no issues with you. Feel free to message me though if you want to talk about this, i'd rather do that, then fill a topic up.

I do agree, if it was someone abusing there power. However, i am your friend, and respect you all, and would never do anything to hurt anyone on here. But rember, that someone has to enforce authority, and rather be someone you know right?

Yeup. we can do anything.

Thankyou to all for your votes. It's a real feather in the cap. I'm still the same old warrior, just with special ninja powers. I will work with you, not against you, so please, anything you would like done, just send me a message.

Hello sir, welcome back!

Hope you enjoyed that. I don't know why i wrote it, i quess it was just stirring within me.

At 5 i was diagnosed, the doctor said to my mother 'life for ben will be very difficult' She burst into tears. At the time i diddn't know why she was crying, or why i was even in this room with the doctor asking me all sorts of questions. I was a quiet boy, but if something went even slightly wrong, bang! i would go off like a stick of dynamite. Children in school realised this, and would seek to wind me up. So a usual day would go, me geting picked on, me losing my temper, me getting in trouble (in that order). I wanted to be a good boy, i wanted to get on, but the other children wouldn't allow that. I also attracted trouble makers, and naughty kids, as i was an easy scape goat, gullible and in need of friends. Although, it was down to this group of friends that i was diagnosed so early in my life, without them, my diagnosis would of been much later on. Life as a child was challanging. I'm not going to say bad, beacuse there is no such thing as a bad experience, just a learning experience. From 7 to 11 i had severe anger problems. getting wound up over something as simple as my mum buying the wrong flavor juice, or my mum cooking my dinner diferently. I did not go out unsuprvised, and i certainly did not have any sence of humor. i took to heart everything, and that equaled a tough realtionship with familly and friends. I was isolated from the world, i was locked up like a caged animal at lunch times, as the head teacher would not allow me to play out. i was setioned off from the rest of the class, and not allowed to communicate with class mates (but they were allowed to wind me up) I hated being me, i wanted to be someone else. 2002 to 2003 my mother fought to get me out of mainstream school. i was just about to go to year 8, and my mum was desperate to get me a place at a privte school. i was glad she diddn't. Though tough, challanging, and mortifiying, i grew as a person. In 2002, I moved to a new area, were street wise kids would play. I wanted to join in, but i was picked on, and again used as a scapegoat. But this again, allowed me to obtain street smarts as well, i was learning how they ticked, and how they would communicate. I observed them through my kitchen window, learning there body language, and mannerisums. I allowed them in the end to bully me. I diddn't care, i was learning and growing ever stronger. High school was also very tireing, i was again involved with a bad group, and i was bunking school, and being threatend with exclutions. my mother was sent a long list of my offence's (of which none were actully me) Including, spitting on teachers car, pulling fire alarms, setting off fire extingushers etc. I was blamed purley beacuse i was always in the wrong place at the wrong time. And being the typical scape goat, i always got the brunt of the punishment. Through exposure of the mainstream world, i continued to grow. Until eventully, i found myself amoungst the most popular group in school. And to my amazment, these guys actully had my back, and they were true friends. And to this day i still hear from them. All the years of being picked on and used, were worth it to be where i was. I had many years of fun and laughter with this group until i left college. In 2009, i decided to go to the next level and throw myself in the deep end, and get a job in a nightclub. I was extremmally scared of crowds, so i still don't know why i did it. But i'm not sorry. For the few months i was there i learned so many different social skills, and ways to communicate. I grew ever more confident, and The old me, was rapidly fading. through this new found me, i met a girl. She was a dazziling beauty, an indian girl, and a girl that was very found of me. We fell madly in love, and for the first time in my life i felt something, i actully felt love, and it felt so good. After 2 years together, we reached a rift. She was a traditional hindu, and came from an old school familly. I knew i was on borrowed time with her from the begining, but i lived in denial, we were going to get married have children etc, But that was never going to be possible. And eventully we split up. One of the hardest things ive had to deal with, yet, somehow i pulled through it, and found the forums. When i made my account, i decided to turn over a new leaf, i decided to turn every single negative force in my life and turn it into a possitive. So i chose a name suited to this, 'A-S warrior'. The name came into my head as soon as i saw the place. Iooked around, and saw nothing but negativity, I wanted to change that, I needed to change that, it felt like my destiny. I at this point regardless of my circumstances was always proud of my aspergers. It made me an in depth thinker, and a methodical machine like person. Things that bored most, exited me, So it wasn't that hard for me to find the words to post. My attitude to this day has not changed, but i have calmed down alot. The reason i am the way i am, is beacuse of the above. I was exposed to mainstream life, i took the punishment life delt out, i diddn't hide, i diddn't give up, and i always got back up when i was knocked down. I'm nothing special, every aspie has the ability to think like i do, That aspergers is an ability, and not a disability. It's only a disability if you let it become one. If your willing to roll over and quit, then all you can do is revel in your own negative thoughts. If you fight, and fight hard, you can be proud. You may lose the battle, but at least you lose with no excuses. You can say, 'i failed, but i gave it my best shot!' Ultimatley, if it means alot to you, you'll find a way, if not, you'll find an excuse.

Better late than never lol. Merry christmas to you too.

Congratulations, and for what it's worth thanks for the vote

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