I have been more of a browser than a poster recently on the forum.
However, i need to be around people who know who i am coming from.
Had the day from hell with M today. He is now 9 yrs old (diagnosed with autism at 2.5 years old). His little sister was invited to a friends house today. Last time, i dropped her off and then picked her up later. My mother totally freaked about this and made me feel really guilty. So today i took M with me. To be honest, he wasn't too bad but it came to the point that i decided to take him away for a walk. I have known the family for a long time and feel happy to leave his sister at the dad's house.
So while i am rushing about and getting stressed out of my head. Discovered when i came home, hubby's driving lesson had been cancelled. He had been in the house since 3ish. Sitting watching the TV. Mind you he did tidy the living room up a bit. Don't know what he is expecting - a medal maybe for tidying up?
I just feel that i am cut in two. There are so many things that i can't do with my daughter when i am looking after M as well.
I am trying my best but i feel so alone and alienated. Though I have met some nice people and they know who they are................