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Just be happy in yourself and everything will follow.Men and women are far more the same than they are different so just explore your feeling and don't get bogged down in a dualistic definiton thats really more suited to simple thinkers.We all feel and think and hurt and love and have problems with trust,jsut be happy in yourself as no partner is gonna make you happy and contented.realtionships are great,and hard work but give yourself a break for now. philipo x.

Just wait till dx time for starters.If it is asd etc then your still the same person but wiser,and you'll soon be giving yourself positive reinforcment when you realise how well you've done and understand how you have developed coping mechanisms to survive and, so far not to be misdiagnosed by a backward penny pinching health service.Self knowledge is the key asd dx or not.Its a new day everyday. philipo x .This is the best forum ,just rmember that many young people use it so don't mention sexuality or anger issues, xxx isability all the way.xxx

As I said many times ,the mistaken beleif that more males suffer from asd/as/etc is a result of a society that is sexist and a male biased health sysytem that is far more likely to treat women as 'dizzy'...neurotic...etc..........its a problem of projection.I'm sure that doctors dole out more tranqilisers to women than men.This is why the subject of 'loosley.....sexuality ' and perception/indoctrination/biology needs dicussing.

I suppose that when you act upon 'evil' thoughts then they then really become evil,but its quite normal to have 'evil' thoughts,unbfortunatley due to bi polar society and religous indoctrination many people are in denial of their 'negative' thoughts.The world would be a better place if people embraced their 'shadowside',thats the only way they will understand evil,by accepting their negative qualities. darkshine,writing abot the 'voices' was very illuminating.Whereas most shrinks think of shcizophrenia when people mention voices,its a very different thing when the personal internal voice is used in the reasoning process,i.e.talking to yourself in your head.This is what poets/writers/creative types do all the time,and when they can't do it it's called a creative block.I beleive that asd/as/autisim etc types use an internal voice mechanisism to reason in the same way ,to make sense of the communication.When it comes to evil ,its just the opposite of 'good'.Its a clear tendency for 'normal' people,that word again!!!to react in a bi polar pattern,like when voting.They have a fear of anything more complex than a dualistic reaction ,and make dualistic judgments based on sub concious emotional stuff,rather than sit down and 'think' about it ,using the VOICE in their heads.Unfortunatly for me I hear only one voice in my head.A big difference with 'voices in my head' and mental illness is that the voice in my head never manifests OUTSIDE me ,as a person or object that talks back,I'm sure many undiagnosed people with as/asd/autisim/blah blah spend a lot of their mental energy 'hiding' this internal thought/reasoning process because they think the Doc will say they are mad. WHAT IS EVIL?Invading Lybia to steal it's £90 billion deposits in european banks so the euro wont bump ? Or the mum who 'manslaughterd her autistic child in south Wales? None reason and knee jerk reactions that are not thought through are evil,so beware ,as one poster said " we know who you are". Its easy to cite hitler,but ignoring the needs of people with disabilities is evil,patronising them is evil. George Bush after 9/11 (see NWA, 911 is a joke)said "you are either with us ,or against us" a typical policical bi polar choice,that excluded any discussion or reason,for/against.....good/bad....true/false....night/day...hot/cold....man/woman....etc Duality of thinking underpins much of our beleif systems ,yet reason says it's simplistic and EVIL.I am comfortable with the dark side.... philipox

get down the gp, your symptoms indicate injury to the top of the neck.Forget about the cheese and coffee,headaches,balance,disorientation are serious. x

Mosy people feel the same,as it's not common behaviour to have strangers in your personal space,with the (d)isability it may make them feelings just a lot more intense ,for me even after years as family man ,my personal space is my only 'santuray'.Go with the flow and you'll soon be loving your new windows.Its this thing of having everythin 'fixed' and not likeing change.

The flashbacks are normal,whiplash causes bruising ,usually to the upper neck which affects the nerves connecting to the spine,causing many symptoms ,if you keep on feeling sick and dizzy in a week or two then get down the doc's as it could be an indicator of nerve damage.

I dont really mimic people but what your wrote about 'my voice in my head like a documenatary' i can realte to.When I started doing film/video I felt strongly I had to have the sound directly reated to the visual.When doing pop vids I was obbsessed with having the text to the song running 'ticker tape' at the bottom of the screen.When i see moving pictures I hear music and when people are talking to me or I'm overhearing a conversation I 'see' visually the words of their speech inside my head,slightly dealyaed,.i'm also fascinated by key phrases in language and film and reproduce them in conversation.I also write as I speak. x Went to Scotland last month (brothers funeral) after 4 days iwas speaking quite Scottish.Irealised that it instantley made it easier to talk to em and that I'd done the same in Portugal and ireland and Wales.When I came back from Portugal I was acutally thinking differently after spending most time with Portugese.The mimic thing seems to 'kick in' when trying to communicate with foreign people,This thing about AS etc and communication problems/context/languauge/interpretations etc I think is actually a big plus if you spend time with the 'locals' as the desire to relate can help greatly when looking for words and their permutations ,my crude conversations got quite sophisticated as my brain was doing overtime word association in different european languages. I can still only do english. P.s I loathe television and holywood as I find the words and the pictures dont match and that the internal visual words the media creates are just confusing poison. Linguistically I think most people are chameleons,if there's aneed to communicate,most Brit tourist's though just use english,like the waiters and holiday industry workers.

Quite agree if you can't do the time then don't do the crime,after they find out the AS 'defence' is no good then they'll probably use the mitigating circumsatnces,like how the internet helped 'facillitate' the crime.Like a theif who finds a car with the keys in ,gets caught and then says 'cos the door was open and the keys were in the ignition,it encouraged me'. On the wider issues or peronal/private information,nobodys prosecuting BT,BBC,APPLE,SONY for sending undisclosed data from customers to commercial companies or installing 'rootkits' on peoples computers without their permission,even though technically its a breach of privacy, Personally ,I have no sympathy with anyone who has their card details stolen if they use them on the net because the technology IS excellent ,but the SECURITY is still abysmal and the vested interest (i.e. commercila and goverment) dont want to admit it as it would collapse peoples confidence with e-commerce.Sony's playstation problems were caused by its low grade in house protection.Sony had no problem subsiding playstation prices with billions but were not as proactive when it came to developing net security systems to protect it's customer's. Yep its one to watch,its just abig negative when the press is using the AS angle to sell copy,on the plus side it might make more people understand the wider subject of AS/ASD/AUTISIM etc.That's why we should watch these two cases and 'correct' any tabloid slander of people with the (D)isability.cheers philipo...x

Always had problems with yeast .The family breadmaker made it far worse.used to chef in an Italian and the piazza dough was made everyday.What I noticed that cooking in a proper piazza oven killed the yeast.Beers and especially homebrew are deadly for me.I think my stomach treats yeast like its some kind of food poisoning and rapidly gets rid of it.Bread yeast has a definite effect on my mood.

That is'nt the full deal,there may have been other concerns about their behaivours,but they would of been better using usual crimmy exuses,like ,I was drunk,I did'nt know,or my mates put me up to it..etc......The gary Mckinnon case was the first one and his 'dx'? did show that it was'nt any help to him at all using it to stop the US prosecution/abduction,so the second one,if malicous would pick a better 'exuse' than AS . There was another post where people were discussing AS fakers and a youtube video .Some people suggested that people could use AS/ASD to defraud the benefits system,i.e. copying behaviours.i replied that its easier to use more standard mental illnesses. In the film bizz there's this thing called method acting but 'acting' AS/ASD would be nearly impossible,except if someone was assesed one occasion,and even then somone experienced with the (d)isability would be able to through loads of curved balls to catch them out. Perhaps the Yanks could re open bits of Guantanamo Bay and put all the Brit suspect DX'rs in it.

They are'nt idiots they are two highly skilled coders/hackers .Obviously with the as dx thing it should be looked at at how niave/ vunerable/influenced by others they were,if at all. Another point is that no one is saying (do you really want to know the truth?) how easy it is to break into computer networks,particulary goverment ones that tend to lag behind best practice,or how many high quality hacking tools can be downloaded on the net. So as aside,to me the big point is why does UK.PLC.ltd hand over its citizens to US courts and stand there like like a wise virgin having 'facillitated' these crimes(alledged) by not policing the UK internet.

6 years ago needed weak glasses and picked a grey tint (reactolite)that goes clear out of sunlight,it made a great difference to low level anxiety.Always loathed bright sunshine,except in winter.Only diagnosed last autumn then realised I'd sorted out the tint thing myselve.New glasses in Feb2011,picked a brown tint,it was awfull in day to day use so bought some more grey tint larger lenses last month.They make no difference when reading as i'm long sighted anyway.Cant say wether I can walk any better due to severe motocycle accident last year. Funny thing tho.A year and half ago when i first started using the net i used to cover the screen with a sheet of grey plastic to reduce the contrast to stop the words in all the boxes spinning about.That was before dx.PS the nhs are in the dark ages with asd/aspergers,nice to see a pro active student!there's more hope for the future.thanks for showing your commitment to your chosen subject.philipo xFor me large lenses/grey tint everytime.

I agree with sesly ,if they'd comcentrate on the benefits of this persons skills rather than roll over and let America deport any UK citizen it wants then it would be better for all. The as is irrelevant .The Crown prosecution service should make an assesment as to wether he was fully responsible for his actions or not,it may be easier to say 'I was drunk at the time' than 'claim' or draw attention to an as dx/opinion.

so you dont mind stopping it quite rightly,censoring it yeah thats a thankless task,and then pointimng the finger at anyone else involved in the discussion as agent provoceteurs and conspiritors,no that last one is taking your proximal power too far!!!!Browbeaten with your 'opinion'.philipox

Thanks Baddad, So basically your saying that I conspired with others to promote an agenda,which in my book ..a secret agenda is a conspiracy.....Theres much that goes over my head,having a secondary education would have helped.Despite being a pc egineer.mechanicetc blah blah I only learnt to write in my thirties AND LEARNT BASIC INTERNET A YEAR AND A HALF AGO.last week I found an answer to the rating sytem so puzzled me.this week I managed to start understanding how the pm thing works,what is clear is the lack of understanding of moderators when it comes to the interpretation of languauge and the sheer hard work of mongs like me who try harder than most graduates just to be able to articulate into text whats running through our 'disabled' minds.Patronising control or supervised 'freedom' of speech.Its amazing I got this far as by definition the net is not very conductive top people with irlens/dyslexia,so pull it.ps. have you any commercial plans for the website in the lonher term ,like private consultations etc???

[ If I'm right about the 'behind the scenes agenda', and you are involved in that wittingly I would ask you to stop. If you've been manipulated unwittingly, now would be a good time to wake up and smell the coffee. If it is just a huge coincidence, please accept my apologies. L&P BD Apoligies accepted ,there's no agendas except to discuss the subject of isolationism and anti social ,and as you added non socila personality effects/changes. On the question of violence.There's the common reaction that violence is wrong.or an unwanted and unjustifiable part of human behaviour,by referring the matter to the shrink/specilaists then we just get even more removed from understanding these feelings in our day to day life.I'm very comfortable with a mixed bunch of unqualified people with direct experience of the subject,especially as the nhs are mostly ineffective(God i nearly said useless!) on the wider subject.I think the dicussion of violence may be aired if we call it 'power' issues,and hopefully,contributors can discuss it in a 'softer' language. By posting the Origional POint ,I was trying to ascertain peoples veiws on how much ,non,anti social behaviour was a result of communications problems,long term isolation,non integration or as a biological tendency .thanks for reply.philipo x .ps can't do coffee,it does my guts in .

It seems the isolation that asd'as'autisim can cause,'real or imagined' has an effect that causes a 'anti social personality' reaction.is it a dysfunctional thing or is it just self protection from an 'apparently' crazy world.??People may have violent thoughts but is it permissable to discuss 'violent thoughts' ,or should any post that discusses violence be banned,or moderated as they say.?/

Basically the question I am asking is how does an aspie male go about finding a girlfriend? Its wrong to say relationships between aspies n nt'rs is rare,When it comes to finding a girlfreind then its the same for all .if you have problems with loud noises or crowds then the pub or disco might not be the thing.You should just concentrate on doing what makes you happy,be it employment,education,outdoors and you'll find a girlfreind same as everyone else. The dislike of women is called fear and lack of confidence,but you can't let older hurts hold you back,that was then so just move on with your course and be happy and everything else will follow.yeah it can be a scary thing starting a relationship,but being young ,gifted and at uni I'd reccommend you just have some light non serious fun and not get sidetracked by relationships.A lot of women like more sensitive blokes,dont let this dx get in the way of having a bit of fun. Remember ,no one else will make you happy except you,and relationships are overated as a source of inner happiness,in fact they can cause more disruption and chaos than their worth.

KetZ makes aload of sense HUGHEY,just relax a bit and all the good stuff starts pouring in ,except dont join the army,its mostly aimless and you'd soon find it boring as the army is'nt looking for thinkers or individuals.For me a big component is WORRYING,but worrying is just wasted time and energy,dont worry about the future just concentrate on enjoying today,and when it comes to relationships ,just enjoy your own company,you'll soon be in a relationship and then you'll crave all that time on your own,its a lovley warm day so enjoy it,cheers philipo.x

Its a sad day when you really have to search to find something good about yourself. Oh it's such a wide and cold world when it mirrors.Thing is that we cant see what others see in us.The thing about women and sexual feelings is an asset,as it stops you marrying some drunk you met in a nightclub!When it comes to peole saying your angry i can relate to that,today a forum member diagnosed me as angry,but that person has the unique capability of intellectualising physical pain so I assume ,from another planet like the rest of us..people dont really understand what anger managment skills that can develop over the years, When i was 16 and 8 stone and homless I went down to the army careers and wanted to join up.My familiy military record was outstanding,the recruiting sergant said 'what do you want to do,marines,artilleray etcc' I replied army bandsman,and he looked shocked and asked me why.I said that me dad,ex Cameron highlander and army conductor,said that i would'nt have to do morning parade as I'd be rehearsing and if anyone started any shooting I could be a stretcher bearer and not have to kill anyone!Obviously I did'nt understand how niave I was then.You did the right choice not joining,you'd probably be mincemeat in some foreign land by now.Your alive and definitly in control of yourselve. You may have some great creative stuff going on but not realise it.I spent 20 years when younger working with musicians,pirate radio,all sorts of stuff but during all that time thought I was the 'thick one',reinforced by family and freinds who nicknamed me 'trigger'. A very big thing about my experience that i've only just realised is how sapping it is to your confidence ,year in year out,as it becomes more obvious thats somthings missing,You need to work on feelings of doubt and worth,and as for dating you'll find that your emotional side will work wonders when seeking the kind of partner you need.Now you understand more whats going on in the 'cement mixer' you are in a far more powerfull situation to make the best of it and as you get older you'll understand yourself even more.Keep on it HUGHEY,its normal to be cheesed off(no dietry puns intended)but you must look to the future and that starts all the time from now,and laugh at yourself.p.s you might find that there's a creative streak in you that your confidence has'nt let out yet...Keep writing on this forum,its great and very tolerant, Keep on it hughey and don't be too hard on yourself ,its somthing to live with ,not die of. xphilipo

Does anyone else feel like the year is out of sync? Through my life I have thought several times that the 13 month calender would be more appropriate.... See i'm a bloke so have had to keep my mouth shut about this sort of thing,ands there alot more I'll keep to myself about the subject as I generally give people enough to start a bonfire for me.More sensetive blokes are affected by the moon.Its just part of natural electricity,and while it seems 'the normal' world is busy with dualistic myths and bi polar judements i think that biological rewiring,of the type called broadly asd gives the owner a heightened sensitivity to lunar effects .Somewhere in france there's a community who beleive that their mental health is vastly affected by power lines and mobile microwaves,so they've gone native.As i've studied the implementation of mobiles,wireless routers and microwave communications I thoroughly agree with them.The process is called resonance and we are all being polluted by high freqency radiation on a scale never before known to any civilisation.if it was seen as a mist then our cities and towns and villages would be coverd in a thick fog constantly.This interferes with my lunar side.

.We are mostly water for a start.But being more pragmatic.after i ran away from care I ended up living in atent on my own and working on farms.After a few weeks you seem to be able to know the near weather and observe human and plant activity locking into the phases of the moon.years later when I became a sound engineer I could almost certainly predict whether the night would be a flop or not depending on what the moon was doing,in a club with slight profits it was an important skill.moons used to synch in with thw weekends then move out again.Full and new moons from thusday to sunday equated to always,more bums on seats.The amount of drunken chaos was definitly from the full moon and the most articulate appreciate audiences were mostly at the new moon.Before the new moon for a few days there was a complete lack of natural energy,in people and their minds.The trouble with humans is they think they are very different from the animals,feeling superior with sophisticated linguistics and science ,so we miss whats in front of our eyes.Every full moon in Aries for instance,which occours in september on many campsites on working farms as well as in cities I've noticed that many people feel intense and get little sleep,I've been watching it for most of 30 odd years.There's many places I can go to at certain times of the year and witness frogs migrating(same routes for 30 years) or when the salmon come up on the high tide in Galway into the rivers,or observe the arrival of birds ,old folklore and almanacs for gardeners and fishermen are full of the stuff,most of it based on the origional science,i.e.personal observation over time.if we look at agriculture we find that the observed calenders were very important.Our stone circles are remnants of that astrological knowledge,older circles are oval,not round,these are because origionally the moon was more critical/important to early agriculture and they were origionally lunar circles ,not solar..The word 'looney' is from the french la lune,its ironic that the nhs will section the apparently crazy for observation over 28 days!which reminds me why they did'nt like witches with their 13 month calender and non corperate ways.And women still have to pay for tampons such is the denial of life and where it all comes from. If you know any nurse/coppers(from the old english cope.or to seize or take hold of)or firemen ask them if they found any correlations.

Quite right mumbles and i apoligise,I'm just saying we should all be carefull of our own media activities and propoganda,like just cos it's on youtube its not neccesarily an alien or just cos facebook has millions of subscribers we should'nt take the veiw that refering to facebook is a reliable indicator,most of it is inane chit chat,in only my opinion of course.