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I doubt I will be able to shop in a big store again, unless somebody is with me. Even then, my anxiety is still very bad.

There will be a lot of things I will not be able to hide from him, namely jobs and housing. Support workers are not to be confused with social workers, even if you receive help via both. You should not get them mixed up as their roles may seem alike, but they aren't really that similar at all. With that said, however, should I receive a flat with help from my social worker, he would have to inform my supervisor and I guess if we met up as well to have a discussion about anything important, he would tell him how we got on. That is how supervisors work. They have to know your change of address too and all that, so they know where to send the police should you 'breach your bail terms' again. With support workers, they have to type up reports which are usually kept in a folder where their office is. You may become close with these aides, especially if you see them a lot. That was a mistake I made with the caregivers within Autism Initiatives. Their staff may or may not have had my best interests at heart the whole time. In the end, it all went haywire. This mainly occurred because I was honest about something or I would openly admit to having a fancy for a woman who was employed there, and then someone would go and 'spill the beans' to the people in charge. I got the impression that their nice mannerisms and laid back approach was just a cover-up, and they went back and blabbed about any concerning statements I made, such as the remarks about the escorts, my ex, or Ruth, Sara and Joanna. Yet they never even forewarned me this was going to have to be the case.

When it comes to buying my horror films, most of them are Region 1 and so many aren't in the UK. Buying them on Amazon is annoying, as sellers will deliberately up the cost of anything hard to find. But yeah, be wary of meat going out of date. That will certainly be very bad for you if you ate it.

Like my buddy on Psych Central says, we are all perfectly normal, but the organizations that are full of ignorance don't think so. We should rise above all that nonsense.

I love transgender people. There is nothing wrong with this. I've never told my family I don't care if a guy believes he should have been born a girl. They are not homophobic as such but I don't think my parents have much positive things to say about gay people. The word P-O-O-F or tranny is very nasty.

There is a man I have to legally see currently at least twice a month. He monitors me and types up court reports. He tried to land me in trouble before which is partially why I missed court once, but there were a couple of other reasons too. So, what should I talk about? I have a habit of rabbiting on about my former support workers who had me charged. But when I have to see him, I leave his office feeling a bit rubbish because I keep thinking my life should never have gone down this route and I get sick of the members of Wrong Planet saying I caused this by harassing Sara and Joanna. I've been depressed lately as I live in my family's house. It is cluttered and my sister has issues with her kids, and she has a children's health and safety guarder watching her every move. I would rather not divulge all my business to him. Another issue is getting a flat as without support, it might be impossible. Unfortunately, I feel caregivers have let me down in the past and they cannot be trusted.

How do you think I feel? Right now, all my web related devices are kept away from me and music is my life. All my music was put on my phone which the court legally took off of me.

Whoever said we are evil wants to use us as a scapegoat. Remember how M and I discussed it? Not many care workers can be trusted. It all comes down to procedure. Having a different outlook on the world is not our fault and we are perfectly normal. They want to order us around and act like we are below others and need the help, but that is wrong.

If that causes you stress, you could perhaps order food online with Iceland or Sainsbury's so you get a delivery guy to bring it to your door. Minimum £25 usually and £3 for delivery. It is what I do.

Edit: I use this lame phone, so it screws up my posts sometimes as the keypad is awkward. The pigs took my laptop away. I may have sadly developed agoraphobia. If I go in a shop, I can only buy one thing in case I have an anxiety attack. Last night for example, I wanted to get two mochas for £2 and a box of chocolates. Most other shops charge £2 just for one mocha so obviously it makes sense to look out for deals. However, I end up wasting money going into multiple stores as having to wait until all my items are scanned makes me panic like crazy. You also know my support ended a year ago, so doing everything by myself is not easy. It might be a case of my life is ruined. People with anxiety can become a hermit which is not good. That ABBA singer went that way, and that worries me.

So sorry your son treated you like that but a lot of people on the spectrum can be saying nasty things they do not mean out of frustration. It clearly upsets you. I'd say you should not put up with this. Draw up some lines. Get a bit of help. Are there support services for parents of kids on the spectrum? Maybe you cannot handle him alone.

Do you have family members you can stay with?

I was not banned in Number 6 and while I never went there much, they have seasonal parties. They can help with housing too. I also see a supervisor as the court set that up. He might be useful if he had connections and just helped out more. He's meant to be watching me until next year, so I think we should not fall out.

I actually wanted to work as an extra in films. I find there is no work in Edinburgh. You can get paid for it. You don't go in expecting a career. And women are distracting in good and bad ways. I am torn between loving them and being a misogynist.

Laura was the only "girlfriend" I have had. I'm a mug for allowing her to use me. I've never been lucky with any woman who I talked to when I knew she was single. They treated me like I was a freak. It does not help that I'm not socially active. I've got an anxiety disorder that makes me very nervous so that hinders my capabilities, and I have not got Brad Pitt looks either.

It is semi-annoying. All my things are crammed into the one room and my mother thinks I shall not receive enough housing benefit for a private flat. The supported flat I had came with all the rent paid. Oh and it exceeded £700 a month. No kidding. You do realize I cannot even legally say sorry to them and getting another flat will be a bit of a problem. I also hate being single.

I hate to have to admit it, but I know you are right. That has buggered my future, sadly. And trekster, try not to repeat your posts.

I used to feel bipolar people were unsafe but you have to look into it that with that and autism, it affects us differently

Were you a parrot in a previous life? Three identical posts. Ha!

While I agree somewhat that there is a link between what you eat and how it affects your mood, I feel being turned on by the people I liked and trusted was what caused me to feel what I can only assume for lack of a better word is practically worthless. They had been my primary source of socializing since about 2008 (even if that's generally not what support workers are actually there for), but you get my drift. Other than my friend Frank and this Laura who used me, I've never hung out with groups of friends, so they were kind of there for me and so they sort of felt like my friends. Think about it: I had a support service and a flat they worked in next door. What more did I need? There, I had people to do things with, as well as a place to hang my hat. I'd gotten to be so used to them as well. Now it's all gone, I've been jailed four times in total because of them too, and they don't even care. Who is "Peter" to them? They were not there while I was stuck in prison, nor do I reckon they actually feel remorse for lying to me about Joanna and Sara. Now I feel like I was easily replaceable and not that important. It's what the army people would call being expendable. They've done a dirty on me once too many times, gotten away with everything they did to me and now I do not matter.

Due to all the stress they put me through, I thought it would be an injustice to allow them off with it. However, I am worried that I don't have a leg to stand on, legally, whereas I have been jailed four times and that means the court obviously are on the side of these former support workers, because they have never been charged or sent to jail. I've kept on thinking that perhaps if I had a better lawyer who understood autism and/or mental health conditions, I could have perhaps stood a better chance of getting the matter dealt with, where I received a fairer outcome. Murray is okay, but I think he probably isn't going to help me attempt to sue the agency, nor do I think I could. The staff at the accommodation I was in before probably have a whole folder full of stuff about me logged, no doubt, yet I never kept any of the emails they sent me. They were too plaintive anyway. There was nothing confessional about them, and if questioned, they would likely just say they had a responsibility to call the police in case something happened to me, so they would use their positions as my "carers" to get off the hook. They were too smart to put anything in writing as well, unlike me. I've always previously gotten into soapy bubble by sending messages to these women and one of their boyfriends in the past out of impulse, after being told not to contact them. There is no way I can prove the following things truthfully happened either: * Patrick sending me emails years ago, under the guise of Bruce Ritchie. * Seniors lying re: Joanna and Sara not supporting me. * The assistant boss ending my tenancy, after lying about the rent. * All the lying to the police, like when I was found on the street once. My lawyer said a while back he would help me take action against them, but Sara and Joanna have since left, so I would never get a chance to make things right with them since I lost their support and my flat, and that is really what caused all of this mess to begin with. I'm honestly struggling to come to terms with being betrayed, even though this matter has run its course. I'd be better off shutting up about it now and getting on with my life, while accepting they won't be in it, but it really still irritates me, and without having any help, life is hard to cope with alone. I'd banish them from my thoughts if only I knew how. But I don't want them to get away with what they made me suffer through. However, it's verifying that this all happened that is the biggest issue of them all, and it's going to be impossible to say they did all these hurtful things without any evidence. Please help!

You have 666 posts, Mihaela. Not a lucky number! Anyway, I too have OCD, major anxiety and also a diagnosis of PDD-NOS. I went to a cash-point today, but I was very anxious. I've had this anxiety problem for a long time. Now I have no support. But who needs them? They've let me down. I'm not saying they are all like this. Some do a better job. Some don't do it other than for the experience and the money.

I've been put through a lot of this online bullying stuff as well. I know first hand how it feels to be the victim of repeated cyber harassment, which is hard to deal with due to the anonymity trolls possess behind their screens. They've even gone as far as making an Encyclopedia Dramatica page about me, full of lies. Yeah, it's truly sad that people with no lives do this to hurt people.

Do you know how to add in my date of birth? http://www.imdb.com/name/nm7300643/