TylersMum Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Whenever I hit a hard time (Tylers diagnosis, losing my dad to Alzheimers when I was pregnant...etc) I just write poetry - not sure why but it does seem to help. Anyway, just thought I'd share with you guys the poem I wrote recently after Tylers diagnosis. �We think it?s a boy� they said at the scan and from that day to this you were my little man. Then 2 days before The date you were due After three days of labour You were born ? I loved you. You were perfect to me With a headful of hair And those twinkly eyes That gazed into my stare. Each milestone came You hit every one. Walked before a year My amazing son. But speech wasn?t good Something?s askew Too young to tell Was Doctors view. At 3 you started pre-school A ?different? boy is seemed Time to undergo some tests To find out what it means Suddenly support came From every way it could Special Groups on Fridays The progress made was good. More tests for diagnosis, My son a ?subject? now. I knew what word was coming But I ignored it anyhow. But there it was just weeks ago In black ink print on white My baby is autistic I knew I had been right. But I wasn?t ready to hear it And crumbled like a cake It?s a mis-diagnosis They?ve made a big mistake. Was it me? Or MMR? Or a difficult birth to blame Wherever the fault lays for this, the outcome?s still the same. So now I am accepting That his behaviour has a name. He?s still my little baby don't say that its a shame. There?s a reason why he screams out loud Or pushes me aside But every day each thing he learns Fills my heart with Pride. He still looks into my eyes sometimes and I fall into his gaze I remember how, when he was born, he set my heart ablaze. The fire burns as strongly now as it did when he was new. But now I know the love I have no ?illness? can undo. Thanks for reading.. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
CarerQuie Report post Posted August 23, 2005 That is so beautiful;it made me cry.xx Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
TylersMum Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Thanks - me too! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
annie Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Thank you for sharing. Annie <'> <'> Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brook Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Tylersmum, <'> That was absolutely beautiful, I have very blurry eyes now <'> Brook Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
elaine1 Report post Posted August 23, 2005 oh thats so beautiful, i feel the same way Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
big mamma Report post Posted August 23, 2005 I'm having a bit of a sob now - that's such a lovely poem. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tylers-mum Report post Posted August 23, 2005 That is a wonderfully written poem that every parent here can relate to. You have a gift so keep it up. I love poetry but this one really really did touch close to home! Weldone and thank you for sharing. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
TylersMum Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Thanks Tylers-Mum, you could've written it, considering they have the same name!!! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tylers-mum Report post Posted August 23, 2005 LOL, that's true!!! but I an't as gifted as you!! Used to be as a teenager but that talent went out the wondow with my art skills! Darn, why do we have to grow up rather than grow down!!! LOL Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
TylersMum Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Know what you mean - haven't actually written anything for years, its all been typed on a PC so my hand writing is appalling now Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Suze Report post Posted August 23, 2005 What a lovely , lovely, poem, it brings back all my feelings and emotions, that I had and still do have....well done for getting those emotions out onto paper. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
asereht Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Thankyou for sharing this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
smiley Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Just beautiful - thank you for letting us read your poem xxxxxx Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
bevalee Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Your poem is really beautiful. Thanks for sharing it. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
call me jaded Report post Posted August 23, 2005 That's really lovely TM Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Elefan Report post Posted August 23, 2005 You got me too! Thank you. Elefan Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Emma Report post Posted August 23, 2005 Ohh what heartfelt beautiful words for your beautiful son! Off to get a hankie x Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
TylersMum Report post Posted August 24, 2005 Thanks guys <'> I'm thinking of writing a collection and seeing if I can get them published, maybe for a charity, or NAS? Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Flora Report post Posted August 24, 2005 Tylersmum. That's so lovely, so obviously from the heart and spot on. You must attempt to get published. If you have a compilation of poems like that try sending them to Jessica Kingsley publishers. Keep writing, you obviously have a true talent. Lauren Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
madmooch Report post Posted August 24, 2005 That's wonderful Tylersmum Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jadensmum Report post Posted August 24, 2005 Tylersmum, what a fab poem Made me cry too. It mirrored our situation almost perfectly. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
karin Report post Posted August 24, 2005 hi tylers mum just read your e-mail what abeautiful poem keep writing and maybe one day we can all say on this forum we knew tylers-mum cant say anymore going off to get a hankie keep smilin luv karin xx :tearful Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
forbsay Report post Posted August 24, 2005 That poem was really lovely - had tears in my eyes................. Elaine x Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
supersec Report post Posted August 25, 2005 every word of that sound is what i felt with my ds. Beautifully put - well done you and yes it made me cry too and I am at work!! Caroline Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
helenl53 Report post Posted August 25, 2005 Hi Tylers-Mum I deliberately waited until I felt I was emotionally able to read it! I am - and even so it has brought tears to my eyes. You could have written this for any one of us. You have two gifts - your son - and your talent for writing poetry. Thanks for sharing such beautiful words Love HelenL Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
TylersMum Report post Posted August 25, 2005 Thanks so much to everyone for your words of encouragement. I'm in the middle of moving house at the moment but will resume writing afterwards. <'> <'> <'> <'> <'> <'> Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
baileyj Report post Posted August 25, 2005 That poem was lovely, here I am sitting in the office, trying not to blub. Also reminded me of my Max and my feelings for him so much, he was also a 3 days labour baby. X Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites